Disbelief has captured my Inside
Since my enemy was unrestrained belief
I'm burning inside and I'm roaming on side
I can not stop to think
What a shame but for me it's a big deal
What for I lost my sleep?
Was it even what they call a "sin"?
No, I barely felt guilty
My issue is fear
I want isolate myself from stains
I want to rescue myself or maybe I should be killed:)
But I'm too weak for all of this
I can't rescue myself from painful but sweet memories
Conversely I 'm making them alive
Jun 14, 2019
Jun 14, 2019 at 9:52 AM UTC
I've been wondering since the moment you left
What those feelings that I had meant
Did they have a name and was I to blame
Why I felt that way and how to make it go away
I know now that it was never my fault
You hold all the blame and I curse your very name
I feel betrayal pull itself through my being
As the word leaves my lips in a whisper
How could I ever love someone who mistook discomfort for fun?
How could I trust someone who's eyes wandered as they were with me?
How could I think he loved me when even after a year his closest friends did not know me?
It didn't register to me that I was angry or that I was sad
I thought we parted on mutual terms
But you weren't satisfied by my lack of suffering
So you came back to make it clear that no part of you is capable trusting
All you've ever told me
All the "I love you's"
All the "You're my world's"
Hidden inside every word
Was a lie
Jan 25, 2019
Jan 25, 2019 at 9:32 PM UTC
I need to fade
I need to disappear
I need to run away from you
I need not to get infatuated with sweet words
It can be the biggest sin to believe you again
Love made me such a fool
Now I am not scared to hurt you
Because you will get over memory of us easily and fast
Jan 24, 2019
Jan 24, 2019 at 9:21 AM UTC
Love is a sickness
So we can die from it?
I was fooling myself when tried to find a cure
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 8:44 PM UTC
Today with the coming of sanity
her question is answered
Love is shelter
Love is soft wind
Love is peaceful silence
Love is family
Jul 21, 2018
Jul 21, 2018 at 5:33 PM UTC
You don't need me
You don't need caring warmth in me
You don't need careless kid in me
You don't need fest and endless holiday in me
Because now you have that all
I learnt so far - love is about being irreplaceable
May 11, 2018
May 11, 2018 at 7:11 AM UTC
Fourishing flower when I'm near you
Now poisoned with ABSENCE
Having no idea of what should I do
Dec 2, 2017
Dec 2, 2017 at 5:08 PM UTC
What a wonderful world
I can't stop enjoying
Hope it will last forever
Do not interrupt it with making sharp moves
Someone above
Please do not gift me pain
Please you do not **** this peace
I found comfort in this
My soul is singing on my own
Sep 22, 2017
Sep 22, 2017 at 1:12 PM UTC
Charm wasn't the main magnet
Though pulling exists
They both just made a deal
To attach for each other
Guarantee that claims " I'm always in need "
Aug 31, 2017
Aug 31, 2017 at 6:33 PM UTC
I should confess
I protect
I wish I could not react
But my heart is being touched
With every day much more
With any of your words
I can't help it
Slave of love or
Slave of habit?
Aug 30, 2017
Aug 30, 2017 at 6:54 PM UTC