Feeling solace
But unyielding
No longer desired
Pushed out of my bed
Landing on the floor
With a blanket too small
And nightmares to follow
I walk out hearing murmurs of good riddance
Being led by the crescent moon
Until the sun takes its place
I stroll through rushing waters and roaming plains
Until I see it
I gaze at the peak of the mountain with its odd shape
From the ground sloping up like a wave
Enlivened with vibrant colors of yellow and green
A plateau wide enough for one person
I must see what lies on the other side
It must It must!
Be my destiny
I will myself to the top of the mountain
I don’t climb it
But I make it up there
My mind is exhausted as if it grew legs and ran to the top without a single breath
I see it
The light
Sitting in the middle of a dry riverbed
My mind no longer has enough strength to get me there
It is too steep to run down to it
But I need that light
So small is that light
The size of a marble
But brighter than an Arizona summer
Its energy calling my name
Intermittent glowing as if it is speaking in exaggerated syllables
Come here (on off)
Come here (on off)
I can’t take it any longer
I must get to that light
I leap out into the sky
Hoping for a peaceful descent
And soon
The earth is dented with the weight of my body
Less than an inch from me is the light
I gradually pick up my head to feel its energy
When I open my eyes
The light goes out…
I made a mistake
But it is too late
Oct 24, 2025
Oct 24, 2025 at 11:47 PM UTC
I can no longer disguise
Contempt in my eyes
The lows and the highs
It is you I despise
Heart no longer complies
While your heart denies
It’s me you chastise
Deceitful demise
There’s no compromise
I agonize
While you apologize
But my love I surmise
It’s fossilized
And I've normalized
What you’ve minimized
Gone are my cries
I’m numb from your lies
Like this I will die
Sep 18, 2025
Sep 18, 2025 at 9:35 PM UTC
Outside my body, surrounded by others
They, comfortable in their skin
Wanting to slither out of my own
Emotions take me to that place
Dying to be an inanimate object
Bereft of existence
Foreboding apprehension
Thinking of the right words to gracefully speak
As effortless conversations cloak every nook in this room
My mind wanes
Into the solace of invalidation
Imperturbable is not my domain
Solitude is my comfort
Solitude is my strength
Leave me in the corner with a good book
And I will die happy
Sep 11, 2025
Sep 11, 2025 at 9:37 PM UTC
We have become a society engulfed in static noise
Ineptly assenting to untruths of money-grubbing publicity seekers
Garrulous banter by self-promoting fame hunters
Disintegrating our already fragile minds
Previously destroyed by brain rotting internet forums and absurdities
We are at war with one another with comments and supporting “likes”
My opinion, better than yours because I am louder and angrier
Your opinion, better because it is thunderous and provoked
Execrating each other over the words of self-important personalities
Spewing hate with ads in between.
Let us return to three local channels and phones clutched to the wall
Let’s go back to less information
Go to the library and read more books
Sit and talk with our families
Play outside when it rains
Let us stop listening to news that is no longer news
Because it is all just loud judgment
Let us retrieve the miniscule quantity of hope we once had
Before this world is gone
Sep 10, 2025
Sep 10, 2025 at 11:04 PM UTC
Amor sin Batalla
Nunca sera amor
Battallas simples
Tienden a carcomer el interior
Muriendo dia tras dia
Por palabras sin importancia
“Amor Eterno, inolvidable”
Es lo que esperaba
Love without battles
Shall never be love
Simple battle
Will eat away at you from the inside
Dying day by day
Over words of no importance
Eternal love, unforgettable
Is what I anticipated
Sep 2, 2025
Sep 2, 2025 at 11:08 AM UTC
Two lonely hearts
Eager to accelerate love
I knew better
You, deprived of judgment
Too wounded to notice faults
Too aroused to feel otherwise
Past loves haunt our dreams
Urging us to move forward into oblivion
Time passes
One month turned into nine
Nine months turned into too many years
And here we are
Our seed
Watered with doubt and uncertainty
Feeling our love
But not seeing OUR love
Two lonely hearts
We will forever be
Aug 27, 2025
Aug 27, 2025 at 3:30 PM UTC
You and I are the only ones here
There is no awkward silence
It is just you
I am invisible
Your peripheral vision obscured by abhorrence
There is no anger, no willingness to invoke, yell or fight
Just a vicious battle within myself to convince you I am human
Aug 23, 2025
Aug 23, 2025 at 9:48 AM UTC
I will no longer fight fate
Confronting destiny is a losing battle
It will change the course of everything that is meant to be
No more contemplating an accidental run-in
No more “hopefully we will see each other soon”
If I never see you again, I know it’s kismet
Obstinance will not take over
I will write down everything that went wrong and repeat it until there is no more soul left in my tears
Until I make myself forget what was beautiful
Oh, but the beautiful was so beautiful
I can’t forget when our hands were gripped together, and we held on for dear life
Like they were about to be ripped from our limbs and neither of us wanted to let go
Your soul merged into mine within seconds
I felt electrical circuits binding us together and I’m sure we were emanating some type of energy force
This was our “I love you”
It’s hard to let go
But I will no longer fight fate
Aug 18, 2025
Aug 18, 2025 at 9:38 PM UTC
Summer skies are a dark, fathomless blue
Enlivened by what was to come, me and you
Hands intertwined to imagination
The rain, the scent of wet earth became our rejuvenation
Entrancing Arizona monsoons bring us together
Praying the down poor and amalgamation could keep us
Dancing in rain forever
And ever
And ever
And ever
Clamorous thunder echoes poetically in my heart
Lightning dances through pitch black skies
Summer’s promise we shall never part
We become spirits of the desert
Entangled with love
It comes crashing down
When I see a glint of light above
The sun shone and the light returned
Dying to be numb
To not feel irreparable burn
With the light comes dark
Your face contorts
All is lost
I knew it would come
I retain my broken heart
My soul
My tears
Like dying moss
The sun peeks through the clouds
I feel the thunderous storm approaching
Excruciating and Loud
Not from the skies
But from your eyes
When the rain evaporates your heart dies
I hope
I pray
I wish
For summer rain to revive your soul
I will suffer through seasons
To again feel whole
Aug 17, 2025
Aug 17, 2025 at 10:52 AM UTC
I should be indestructible
Your blood surges through my veins like a wrathful river that refuses to decelerate
I am insecure and voiceless when I shouldn’t be
You were Joan of Arc on her final mission
I am industrious in everything I do
You were a concrete statue of Atlas bearing the pressure of the world on your shoulders
I refuse to tolerate mistreatment at the hands of fools.
You were Bette Davis in her golden era standing up for what you believed
I love my kids with every molecular fiber of my being
Because you couldn’t
I tell them everything I adore about them
Because you couldn’t
I hug them so tight I can feel their ribs about to snap
Because you couldn't
I tell them I love them to the moon and back AND to the sun
Because you wouldn’t
I show my kids how much I love them in the simplest ways
Because you couldn’t and wouldn’t
I forgive you
Because I am a mother
And I can’t stop loving you
Aug 17, 2025
Aug 17, 2025 at 10:52 AM UTC