Judged by your shell
Unsure everyday
In our so called great
I never worried
never had to
You had to
You have to
You live this
You have to
My eyes are opening
My ears are listening
My heart is braking
My voice is starting
I want to scream
I'm not venting
I have no right to
Because I'm not you
But I can listen
We all should listen
Because I forget
I guess we all forgot
I could keep writing
does it mean anything?
Can we hear anything?
We will forget everything again tomorrow
We always do
So sad
May 30, 2020
May 30, 2020 at 12:26 AM UTC
Packing for the change
See you soon
Last box, last check
See you soon
Last hugs for a while
See you soon
I'm not ready for last
So see you soon
Goodbye is so final
So I will see you soon
I hated that last box
Sep 23, 2019
Sep 23, 2019 at 7:53 PM UTC
Walking backwards
Admiring the things behind me
After I’ve passed them by
Sep 16, 2019
Sep 16, 2019 at 10:11 PM UTC
What else do I have but hope
Smiles reflecting back
brings me hope
Eyes I can not see through
But I still hope
Hoping I can understand
Why are we here today?
Praying still doesn't comprehend
this day today
Helpless with everything
control of nothing
I am all in but helpless
But I still hope
Sep 16, 2019
Sep 16, 2019 at 9:54 PM UTC
If it looks like ****
Don't touch it
If it smells like it
Move from it
If you step in it
Wave your foot around
Rub it in the grass around
Don't take NO ****
Sep 1, 2019
Sep 1, 2019 at 12:22 AM UTC
Father not a
Choice was mine I guess mine
I went with the father
Because brother did
Mom in corner
Crying
Hands held pulling her ankles in
I past her by without a look
I was a man now
I picked what my bro did
Didn't even pause by Mom
I was young
But should have stopped
Hugged. Loved
I stood at her door some time after.
Asking to come in forever.
This little frightened kid.
She smiled as she opened the door.
Your welcome here always son
I stepped in with no judgement
Door closed behind
My heart at ease
I love you Mom.
You just changed my life.
Aug 28, 2019
Aug 28, 2019 at 10:07 PM UTC
Shadows of voices
I can hardly hear
Breeze through my windows
I thought you were here
Wake with heartbeat racing
But your no where near
I turn, close my eyes
Shadows of voices
Whispers to me
Dad I'm ok.
And I will be
Leave your window open
Feel the breeze
Be at ease Dad
Aug 25, 2019
Aug 25, 2019 at 9:05 PM UTC
As I look at my child
A not so perfect child but better than I was
I will not harm him father
I will not belittle him father
I will love him forever
I will be all I can be for him
I will not fall short father
I will NOT be you father.
I will be his dad always.
You are his Grand nothing
Aug 25, 2019
Aug 25, 2019 at 8:42 PM UTC
Saying goodbye for now
Should be easier.
He said see you Thanksgiving.
I wore my sunglasses
I told him I love you
So proud of you.
I wore my sunglasses
I love you too Dad
I wore my sunglasses
We hugged a bit tighter
Parted for now
I walked away
Adjusting my blurry sunglasses
Aug 24, 2019
Aug 24, 2019 at 10:37 PM UTC
Peering perhaps
Looking into nothing
Missing a kiss on the cheek?
Not really
Missing words that will speak?
Not really
Does that mean I'm alone?
Not really
Content with my own self?
Yes really
Meant to be and will be?
That's silly.
Aug 7, 2019
Aug 7, 2019 at 9:08 PM UTC