Do you know what the worst part is?
As much as you break my heart into two,
I can not help but love you.
You pull me back in with the simplest thing and suddenly i’m good as new.
no scratches, no bruises
it’s almost like you never hurt me at all and my heart has never been split into two.
Aug 11, 2018
Aug 11, 2018 at 4:56 PM UTC
Sometimes i wish i could go back to the end of 2015 and the very beginning of 2016. I don’t remember having very many deep emotions or overwhelming feelings i just remember floating on top of everything. The only big emotion i really remember having was when i got my first real feelings for a girl.
I used to stay up reading wattpad stories and the only song i would listen to was lost boy. I dreamed of being in love one day, and i would wake up everyday thinking of a new way i can finally talk to her. It all seemed so simple. I was so innocent, so pure. My hair was down to my waist, straight as could be, tamed and frizz free. I didn’t know anything, i was blind, i was excited to be alive, i had no idea one day my hair would be at my shoulders and my life would take a turn. Now i take pain killers because i don’t want to be in pain anymore and i always check the weather before i visit the cutter.
I hope it’s not all over, i hope some of my innocence is still there, i hope it’s not all gone forever,
i hope my hair grows back to where it once were.
Aug 10, 2018
Aug 10, 2018 at 7:16 AM UTC
it'll make me feel worth it
if you tell me I'm worthless
make me cry
then make love to me all night
the bruises are worth it for the
apology
the hurtful words are worth it if it means
you'll love me
i'm not a head case or insane
I just don't want you to leave me
please hurt me
then ill know you want me.
Apr 19, 2018
Apr 19, 2018 at 1:29 PM UTC