Do you ever feel so hollow the world could swallow you whole and no one would ever know?
So empty, wounded,and damaged.
That you could stop breathing and for the first time in a long time, you'd feel something other than sadness?
Like dying is the only way you could feel as if you were ever even alive in the first place?
You feel non existent. Non important.
You feel dead. You feel alive. You feel sorrows deep inside.
Crave life. Crave meaning. Crave feeling.
Feb 21, 2020
Feb 21, 2020 at 1:19 AM UTC
I wouldn't mind dying.
I know that's not something I should just say and talking like this is no joke.
But if the opportunity showed up to no longer be living this sad life, I wouldn't hesitate.
Pull the trigger, Jump of that ledge.Sink to the bottom even though I know how to swim.
If it was between always feeling this way, and ending this feeling...
I'd end it all in a heartbeat.
Feb 6, 2020
Feb 6, 2020 at 9:23 PM UTC
I told myself I was doing better.
For a while I believed I was.
I told myself I'd be a better me.
For a while I was.
I told myself that I would make it.
For a while I was doing well.
I told myself to not look back.
For a while I didn't.
Yet once again here I am in the same space. A place I know much to well. A place I am convinced is worse than hell.
I know this pain. I've been here before.
Why the hell am I back here?
Why the hell did I let myself........
This hurts so much.
Feb 6, 2020
Feb 6, 2020 at 9:22 PM UTC
If we could just go back in time.
To that moment when you not only broke us, but shattered me , I wish you told me right away.
Feeding me lie after lie.
So simply.
So harmful.
So hateful.
Ate it right out your hand and you loved every bit.
Not knowing what I know now.
Take it back. Go back and don’t do it again! please..
Or no,...
No! Go ahead do it all over.
***** it all up again! ***** me all up again...
Break my heart one more time. Maybe this will help me see.
Help me see that what you did was no good.
Maybe I’ll wrap it all together and leave.’
Maybe I’ll let it all slip between my fingers rather than to grasp for it like I gasped for air.
You let me stay in hopes it’ll be okay.
You let me burn.
But I let you ignite me.
Yet I am the one who begged for forgiveness.
And as you watched me burn, you smiled.
Because you loved watching the smoke take every breath away.
Without a single doubt, I’d take back all that time.
To save my lungs the harmful gas. And my heart the painful wound.
Apr 26, 2019
Apr 26, 2019 at 11:37 AM UTC
I wouldn't mind dying.
I know that's not something I should just say and talking like this is no joke.
But if the opportunity showed up to no longer be living this sad life, I wouldn't hesitate to end it.
Pull the trigger, Jump of that ledge.Sink to the bottom even though I know how to swim.
If it was between always feeling this way, and ending this feeling...
I'd end it all in a heartbeat.
Mar 29, 2018
Mar 29, 2018 at 10:03 AM UTC
Why is it that he gets to be happy?
He gets to smile and be in love.
While I drown in the heartbreak he left me in.
While I try to numb the pain with a few drinks a day.
Even though I've got everything.
I feel nothing.
Empty and I want to know why.
Lost and I want to be found.
Broken and I dont need to be fixed
Sad and I have no true reason to be
Gone and no one has noticed.
Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 1:01 PM UTC
you're all I think about.
I hate it.
I can't do anything.
I don't do anything.
Getting out of bed is hard.
You've made it hard and I hate everything about you.
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 3:43 PM UTC
I wish nothing more than to write about happy stories. With happy endings....
But I can't write about something I've yet to experience. Not with passion atleast...
#Can'tRelateToHappy
Jan 15, 2018
Jan 15, 2018 at 5:26 AM UTC
Promises aren't always kept.
... that's a promise.
Ironic. Isn't it?
Jan 15, 2018
Jan 15, 2018 at 5:23 AM UTC