Tell me what to feel
Tell me how to be
I'm tired
It's too much wondering for me
But if I'll know which way to go
I'll be revived, I'll do it all
Tell me where I failed
Tell me if I'm good
I cannot decide alone
There was a time I could
Say, can you take the lead?
And fix the broken me?
Tell me where it went wrong
Tell me, have I ever had a chance?
I'm scared of the beginning
I'm not sure how it will end
At night it all seems worst
The days are now the same
Time heals all
When there's no cure, that's what they say
Sep 4, 2024
Sep 4, 2024 at 7:22 AM UTC
Trust. But why?
Or rather - how?
I can't control it
Is it my nature?
I always learn
'I am so smart'
But can I not sense danger?
Or am I on the right path?
'One day the cycle breaks'
Trust keeps the inertia
When trust is lost
All is stopped
Life needs intention
I am naïve
When it comes to love
Some think it is romantic
It's not
It's tough!
It's really rough!
The strong come out the other side
The weak adopt resentment
Aug 15, 2024
Aug 15, 2024 at 3:24 PM UTC
I wanted to tell you something
I practiced for hours
I came up with different versions
I needed to do it
But you didn’t answer
Nor the next day
Nor the next
Now it doesn’t feel special
I feel stupid for even wanting
To share with you something
So personal
Instead of talking to you
And getting closer
I’m reduced to writing you
About the distance
May 19, 2021
May 19, 2021 at 1:30 AM UTC
It’s days like this
I want to write
When everything comes to a halt
And I am left between the two
And I don’t know which way to go
Just need to choose
Which of the two
Will cause a bit less suffering
Meanwhile I am in between
But we know it won’t last forever
I’ll make a choice
Glancing at the other
The suffering is still here
No less, just different
May 4, 2021
May 4, 2021 at 7:59 AM UTC
He comes to check up on me
Sometimes she comes along
He gets worried when he doesnt see me
Afraid that somethings wrong
I do too worry
On days he doesn't come
I often feel sorry
For that I have some ***
The encounter is brief
Our eyes lock into place
A moment of disbelieve
To see each others face
Once more he disappears
I'm sad there wasn't more
But I know he will reappear
To pick again at my raw sore
Apr 23, 2021
Apr 23, 2021 at 7:01 AM UTC
He heared our song
Please forgive me
I couldn't stop it in time
He didnt even know
You were on my mind
But i could feel it
He even said that it was good
My heart broke into pieces
I didnt mean to share with him
A moment that was just ours
Mar 3, 2021
Mar 3, 2021 at 10:18 AM UTC
Sometimes I want what others have
Sometimes I dont
Sometimes I go the extra mile
Sometimes I wont
Sometimes I want what others had
Sometimes I dont
Sometimes I look at all thats good
Sometimes I wont
Sometimes I see life for what it is
So short and pointles
Sometimes I see life for what it is
So long and painful
Sometimes I know it's just a mood
Sometimes I wish that i just could
Sometimes I need to know what to want
Sometimes all of it is not enough
Oct 15, 2020
Oct 15, 2020 at 4:46 PM UTC
I haven't seen you in a while
Is it ok that I don't miss you?
This second quarantine is just fine
I don't mind the distance
You keep on telling me every day
That you want to see me
But I am good
I don't know why
This feeling is new to me
I've never felt so empty
At times I almost forget
Of your existence
I hear your voice
A midst some others, louder
I don't feel good
I don't know why
Sep 29, 2020
Sep 29, 2020 at 3:33 PM UTC
Sometimes I shut my feelings
I have to
Not to break
But my mind is an open circuit
A spark
Brings feelings back
And I scream so loud inside me
No!
Not again
That's not what I sould be feeling now
I try
I think I can
Now everything is tainted
The sadness
It's still there
The numbness dolls the feeling
It has to do
For now
Sep 21, 2020
Sep 21, 2020 at 11:34 AM UTC