I am an average, will that work? I always came last in my class in academics, I was weak in sports too. I have this imaginery world that I live in, where I beat all of you.
There is tedtalks, motivational seminars and videos, telling about the "The life of Average"
But the people in there are so not that.
They say find your passion, what If I don't have any? In this world where only talent helps you to earn money, where should I buy this talent from? Is there any shop nearby?
No I can't sing, neither can I write. I **** at Art, neither can I make you laugh.
What should an Average like me do this what I think.
Till how long will you love me that's what i think.
May 30, 2018
May 30, 2018 at 6:34 PM UTC
There is thirst that I see in everyone eyes. There is lust on everyone's mind; They say. People who come here have a complex personality, I revolt. People thought It's the money these lustful men speaking.
Who cares about the world I thought. Do I even have something to lose, I checked my purse.
My purse was empty in terms of money, My respect was on the ground, already in the society.
What is my profession they asked? I simply, smiled and showed them my heart. I spread love. This is all I do, people call it prostitution but I call it nurturing the truth.
It's not necessary that your love stays with you all the time. Sometimes people just need someone to talk and listen to them. They need affection to help them to remove self doubts. Nurture them to make them and motivate to love themselves in and out.
*********** is just a part of an act, The emotional disfunction therapy is my queen of the chess.
May 30, 2018
May 30, 2018 at 6:27 PM UTC
He rushed his finger from the temple of my eyes to my cheeks and neck, asked me if I was scared as if he cared.
I ask the same question to myself, all the time; Am I Scared? I thought
Obviously not! I am a healer.
I heal the pain of people just like him. Who comes to this room disturbed and depressed.
Every night I meet a new man with different story and pain. He tells me his tale and I reduce his pain. I reassured this thought in my mind and held his hand and unzipped my blouse , said "I am a doctor, Do you know why? "
I asked him in the most sensual manner in which I can.
His heart started beating faster, So did mine. His eyes were shining but were not like mine.
They demaded plethora of lust, but his wealth was my only thirst.
He was desperate and impatient pulled me closer to ask; what kind of a doctor you possibly could be and laughed.
I pushed him aside and went away, Turned the only dull yellow bulb of the room off and Darkness was everywhere.
He got petrified I could feel in his voice, When he shouted am i out of my mind
I started walking towards him slowly and slowly, He tried to figure out where I am through the sound of my anklet.
There is this darkness inside every human that I witness all the time. This room is the spot bring that out.
This darkness is what you need right now to bring that beast out, I said.
But was that really true? I asked myself.
Was the darkness really for him to get his real personality out, or for me to get into the character that I play every night. Is this room a space for people that brings their reality out, Or my stage to act.
You will incarnate as a personality of your choice tonight. Told him that, kissed his lips and continued my act.
May 24, 2018
May 24, 2018 at 4:36 PM UTC
Sometimes a completely unknown place feels so familiar,Sometimes extremely strange people feels like our own.
There is comfort in this strangeness, There is peace in this silence.
You don't always want laughter in your life, flicker of a smile, sometimes can resolve the complexities of the mind.
Dec 10, 2017
Dec 10, 2017 at 3:55 PM UTC
There comes a point in your life when you dont understand what will happen the very next moment. When every single second astonishes you, when every other happening around you makes you question everything that you have ever done, every decision that you ever took, every path you ever choose, each word that you ever uttered. When there is darkness all around you and no hope of light. When all the motivational quotes of "finding a ray of light; hope, at the end of the tunnel", becomes as fictional as the world of potter.
But we still wait, yet we search for that fictitious light everytime, every second, every moment. Do you know why?
Because nothing in this world is stronger than your wishes, your passion, and your desire to get something that you want.
Believe in yourself and you will find your hogwarts one day.
Jul 24, 2017
Jul 24, 2017 at 2:09 PM UTC
Ever wondered how unpredictable life is? You never know whats gonna happen next. Maybe just after reading this you get a lottery ticket or loose your stock market shares, Maybe your crush will reply to your text the next minute or you will get into a fight with the person you love. Someone may get his dream job and maybe someone will loose his.
In one corner of the world a baby will be born where everyone will be engaged in making him laugh and somewhere a mother will be mourning for loosing her kid.
You don't know whether you are going to survive next minute or not so how can you even sacrifice your present for future?
Each and every minute is precious and important. Live every second of your life because now you must know how unpredictable is your life and be thankful for what you have
Jul 25, 2016
Jul 25, 2016 at 5:35 PM UTC
The monsoon cloud swooped low
to **** her
and the night seemed to wear
the darkest cloak
Three miles down south
she had gone to the weekly haat
for half a litre of earth oil
thru mud as thick as her desire
for a small glow in her thatched hut
When she reached the stream
she paused on the brink
and then like an added note
to the music of rain
her swan little frame
glided to the other bank
The wind was shivering
but she was warm in the dream of
one small light in her home
to **** the demon of dark
Jun 8, 2016
Jun 8, 2016 at 5:06 PM UTC
I saw the people standing around me and I heard the angry cries. I felt the cold rain falling down onto my face. I could barley stand because my legs were so weak. I had been beaten beyond any mans ability to stand. The screams and howls could not be distinguished. I only knew that I was at my end. A solider brought me forward then another man stood beside me. I saw the fear that he had. The crowd cheered for him and booed at me. I knew that my fate was sealed. I tried to scream as the put the thorns on my head and the blood ran down my face. I heard the taunts and felt the weight of the beam that I carried as I stumbled along. As I approached a lonely and barren hill, the screaming crowds seem to be filled with laughter. I looked through blood filled eyes and I could see ghostly images jeering at me. I felt the weight of the crossed beams becoming more than I could bear, then another person stood along beside me. He picked up the weight of my load and helped me along, until they laid me down on the cross. I felt each nail as it was driven through my hands and then I looked up at the heavens and tried to scream out why. As I was lifted into the air I felt the full weight of the guilt and shame that was all around me. I tried to free myself, but it was to little avail. I cried out but no one would hear me. Then in the distance I saw someone drawing near, a figure dressed all in white. As he came to me, I felt the pain being lifted and I swapped places with this man. Then I was standing at a distance and I saw him clear as day, he was on the cross where I had been. I then shot straight up out of my sleep and realized that I had seen what they had done to him. I fell to my knees with my heart breaking into a thousand pieces, I cried until the breaking of the dawn. Then when sleep again finally found me, the man met me in a distant and beautiful garden. I fell at his feet and asked why did this happen. He picked me up and simply said to me. You was what you should receive, but what I took on for you. I have forgiven all of your sins and now your free. I awoke with a new understanding of what should happen, the day I was crucified on that tree.
Jun 8, 2016
Jun 8, 2016 at 5:05 PM UTC
So many people around her, So many souls surround her But she stands alone in the darkness, frightened.
There she is screaming for help,
So many people there but none listen.
She knocks on all the familiar doors,
she seeks for help from every person, but no one listens.
Panic takes over her body, Each and every minute in this darkness frightens her more and more.
How lonely she is in this cruel world she realises, No one stands there when you are alone.
Promises are meant to be broken was fictional to her, But the reality; Broke her.
She witness each and every color of life in this darkness. Black just shows the sad truth behind every "happy shade" she realises.
No one stands with you in your bad times,
There is no one who holds your hand and take you out off all bad.
Its just you holding yourself ,so you don't break apart.
Its just you alone who could help yourself in the end, Because Forever is a myth.
May 31, 2016
May 31, 2016 at 6:30 AM UTC
With her aims big and hopes high, She watched all dreams with open eyes.
Her life has always been a miserable one, But her dedication made her a strong woman.
By overcoming all the hurdles and all the toil,She made her way to the heights.
With her Aims big and Hopes high, She watched dreams with open eyes.
Her life was dark, Dull and a despondent, But she made it bright like Summer's sky.
Suffered all the hurricanes of the life, But eventually got beautiful rain as her prize.
With her Aims big and Hopes high, She watched dreams with open eyes.
All those Agonize days and sleepless nights, made her strong Instead of Breaking Her psyche.
With her Aims big and Hopes high, She watched dreams with open eyes.
May 29, 2016
May 29, 2016 at 4:57 PM UTC