Social media
A place that we can stray away from reality
Our own place
And enjoy our lovely fan base
With positivity
With love no misery
But the other side
it concerns me
When you loved by your community
It soothes you
Known that you are loved by others
Some moves you
To keep going, don't stop
It's a lot to take in
So much that if you lose it
You lose you
When the love is gone
Nothing you can do but lose
It's not true
Social media can change you
Messes with your mental
And then you lack potential
To keep going
Knowing that your boat is sinking
You can't swim
Knowing you can end up drowning
But without your fanbase
You cant be saved
Knowing that you made it sink
So you cave in
You're stuck stranded in the ocean
No one to save you
You think the blame is on you
It's not
social media changed you
You feel the world is better off without you
Couse social media fed you that
Then you let the boat sink
end it all
Drowning
To never resurface
This write is for someone who Drowned
And unable to resurface
Who is it for, Check the news
The bluebirds are chirping in melancholy
They should have a clue
This is also a message
That Drowning is far from the truth
You have people who care for you
Get help
Who can help you
Yet so many fake faces out here
You don't want to
The world was never better off without you
we love you
Jun 26, 2019
Jun 26, 2019 at 8:35 PM UTC
Is my life worth it
That question stings me
it pains me
It's hard to cope
When no one is behind you
To say hey I got you
I don't have that
instead, I got the ones that stab you in the back
and watch you bleed
and laugh like it's funny
I wonder
How my life become the drug of hate
Hate that's hard to erase
It takes a toll upon me
So I created an isolated place
In my mind
Now you wanna open up the doors
well my doors not
Open it for what, so you can hurt me?
And blame me that you left me?
You should stop watching me
Couse, I won't open
See I chose this
But I'm not safe in there
Misery lives in here
I regret it, I let him in
I open up my doors so he could leave
But he never did
He's to settled in
My mind
Plays like he's kind
He's the kind that isolated me
Became a knife and stabbed me
All over my body until I can't move
My body bleeds like a faucet on high
I lie here lifeless
Put's me in place to either lie here
Let him win
Or put him back outside where he came from
So I can win
But for you to do that
You have to open the doors
Now the misery is talking
I don't know what to do anymore
Jun 25, 2019
Jun 25, 2019 at 8:07 PM UTC
What's the feeling you get when someone you love
Reach success
It's a mess
full of emotion
That gives me motion
To do better
The leather
Becomes metal
Becomes unbreakable because were unbreakable
No touch of the enemies hand can do the unthinkable
We both start at the bottom and now at the top
looking down on those who shot
us down with bullets and digs holes for us to fall in
We won't because we're not going to give in
We keep taking our steps in the real world and we are gonna win
As long as we let on rope tie us in
Darkness
I'm really happy about writing this
Because of someone, I love
It becomes a gift
A gift that is written in all my heart
It started with you
Ever since I was a young kid
Everything we did
We did together
For the better
Talk like no tomorrow
From sorrow to happiness
You say I made it happen
Without you
I never would have new what love felt
In the hell, I'm living in
But now this write breaks in
Frees me from it
And you freed me from it
Because now I know what true love is
And the real me
now I helped you find the real you
Your off doing better
Coming from deadly weather
That phased you
Then I saved you
From the gutter
Now you're beautiful like no other
This writes getting too long
It's going over on two pages
So what I really want to say is
I knew my purpose because of you
I love you
Jun 1, 2019
Jun 1, 2019 at 9:30 PM UTC
What does it takes to understand a man
I ask myself that
Cause I am that
Matter of fact
A man who has lost days
and use pages to break away
From those days
I am glad i stayed among the living
Living in peace
But some doesn't
some living in the streets
Begging for loose change
On streets
Or those who lose everyone they meet
Cause of mental stabilities
It's crazy
Then they get judged
Some treat them like felonies
Or tell them they will never be
Perfect
I'm the voice that when people think things
They never say them
Their lifting weights
Let me weigh them
Cause they need a savior
So I'll save them
You want to head for a perfect life
To suffice your needs
see sights you wanna see
Understand me
I do to
But were human
Failure exists
now you say you never did
Admit it
You're scared to show your insecurities
To Sit down
And take off your crown
And say I fell down
Kings can't rule without his city village and towns
Real Kings made it
You imagined it
Come on now
Fear is an emotion
But you see it as false emotion
I see it as a potion
That grants me
To Push whatever stands in front of me
Before I can make a potion
Had to craft it
Imperfection gave me the material
To master the minerals
I learn that
but you never did
Perfection mangles you
Imperfection embraces you
But you never embraced it
Have you
You have no Idea what perfection is
Until you embrace the imperfection you live
Learn from it
Work it
into a better you
Perfection tells you who you are
Imperfection is what are
what we all are
They say never judge a man
Until you walk a mile in his shoes
Couse Imperfection made his shoes
Now he's bigger than you
Bigger then you will ever be
Since your "Perfect"
You'll never be
The truth is
Perfection
Is a fallacy
Apr 9, 2019
Apr 9, 2019 at 9:03 PM UTC
Back on a page again
Back in my zone
Alone with the pen
And paper favoring
The strokes of a stanza
Hands up and i feel the light
It clense me
From cancerous people telling me
Your nothing but a manufactured felony
Its hell in me
That they tear me apart on days
When your a star
And strike you down
Turn you into a falling star
For what
I didnt deserve a beat down from clowns
Who can just mess around with everyone
I deserve a home and the sounds
Of angels huming tone
But no
What did i do
Hurt you, No?!
Then whats the point of pointing a gun
To me?!
Whats the point saving a bullet for me?!
When i never shot you knee?!
I get it
Its not me
Its for you
Cause this write is a bullet itself to shoot right back at you
A fatel wound
Its real for me
But not for you
So get lost
Fool.....
Hold it
You thought i was finished?
My writes never ends until the paper finish
It isnt
So im gonna let this last thought out
Cause if i dont
Ima fall out
To bullies who think can walk away
From who you put in the trash
Your the trash now
This write will take the trash out
Get out
Good bye
And peace out.
Mar 31, 2019
Mar 31, 2019 at 2:41 AM UTC
What made me write this
Youll never see
But I cant hold this emotion
Or else I'll lose me
So i will rip it out of my chest
And put it on this page
I will not rest
Here comes my voices
"This is it"
Your wrong
"Whats next"
When no one is behind you
Who is behind you
When no one is below you
Who is below you
Who is above you that rains flowers and pedals
And loves you
Its hard to think of that
Wishing that the past would never had come to that
That picture of the past
Won't change
Just the people inside of them do
When he does it hurts you
The love was never there for you
He left you
Then whats the point of having a child
When no love is due
Its disgusting
Think your a man
Your a coward
A waste of space
I hate people who are two faced
So get out of my face
Your nothing
Your a wash up
Who desrved to be tossed up
Moped up
And sent to hell
In a cell
For what you done
Now you want to come back and make it one?!
Are you out of you mind?!
With all the dreams you find
All you do is feed, burn and lie
Your the fall of human kind
With you there is no light
Had to let that out
But wasnt just for me
Its for someone I am close to
If you read this
Grab your own glass and fill it
Dont let your fear destroy you
Hopes this helps you
Feb 1, 2019
Feb 1, 2019 at 8:14 PM UTC
I'm back on the page again
Yet again
Writing about life and how it's been
In the wheather in
Storms of all levels
Facing demons fighting devils
But I'm on my level
But my voices tell me "Your not in level, you should go to your crib and settle"
Like hell I live this
I don't wait for handouts
I go get it
But there's some people I connect with
Who lives in restless nights
And fights for light but never reaches it
Then falls and say "This is it"
It's not it
It's the beginning of the war we're facing
Yeah your not alone out there
But alot of people are wearing mask out
there
How to tell when enemies are coming from down stairs
To break them
To watch them shed tears
I say to them
So this is fun
But then when someone like you
Puts a gun
To your head
Then what words will come out of your mouth
None
Just Had to get that out
For those who are suffering
I'm just like you
I hope this write soothes you
I hope the next verse does to
For example
Whats Inside there is a fire
That burns inside of you
That brings you to higher places
Fire you can walk through
Protect those who are dear to you
If you lose you'll get smarter
The wise never fluants its power
The wicked hides its claws
Fire wins
Fear lost
Jan 21, 2019
Jan 21, 2019 at 6:35 PM UTC
When I woke up today
It didn't feel like it was in my bedroom
I was doomed
In a cage
But the keys are in my hands
It's strange
Am I afraid?
No, but they keep judging me
And my pain
They smile like it's funny
Feeding off my pain
Like they love it
But I'm above it
Feelings sealed tight
But I still fight
I'm gonna touch it
The light
Cause I own mine
And you have no right to judge me
So go mind
Your own business and attack your own kind
That does the same as you do
Those who take their difference
And throws them in their face
To get those to taste your Idealistic waste
You're a disgrace
That doesn't work on me
I am me, nobody else
I'm just being myself
Guess I am an outcast
So I cast it over those
Who dislike it
They prepare their cannons to strike it
It's futile
I have a file
You can never rewrite
Cause It's my write
So good night and sleep tight
Yet I still feel it again and again
It gets under my skin
So I take my pen
Then I'll say to myself
I don't want to fit in
Still, I need to focus
Figuring out my motives
So now I'm a problem when it's locked
Then see it when it opens
I still hear voices
I understand it's complicated
The process of me
Now they are trying to pick apart my lines
Well here's what you can dissect from me
I've always been the reject
Who in the deep shed
The only sheep shaved red
Can you see that
I might fall into my thoughts
Yet your drive is nowhere like mine
So get out of my car
I'm a star
Falling hard leaving the space and time I tore
I'm at my core
I still remember writing "I'm here to stay"
It was therapy for me
"Your days are coming to an end now"
Shut up no one needs to hear your gory
Words, it's insignificant
You'll never win
So pack your bags and leave
To find another mind to settle in
I win
Nov 3, 2018
Nov 3, 2018 at 9:47 PM UTC
It's been a while since I put words on this page
Seems my life is like a perfect stage
Well that's what they say
Cause I haven't been writing in decades
But that doesn't mean I'm not real on what I say
It's not your job to watch every step I make
It's not your job to tell me when to leave and when to stay
I'm sure as hell gonna stay
Until my clay withers away
But I still have a long way
I'm only 19 but the thought of death still clogs my brains
Hard for me to write a single page
When you hear voices in your head saying "Your dying to day"
I can even hear it when writing this page
I know what some might say
That I need help and I need to get a professional way
No way
Why would spend money for personal strength
When I can do something that's free and easy
And self-sustains me
I know some might think I'm crazy
They might see me on the streets and move from me hastily
Even my sister moves from me greatly
Thinking I might snap on her and **** her
Everything is insanely
Going downhill
For those who think of me this way
I just want to say
That submission is not an option
I'm not gonna let these voices telling me that "killing is an option"
I'm not gonna let these voices say that "death is okay"
And get lost in it
cause self-control is something great
So great that no one can take
Cause I use it to break through these voices
That pushes me out of space
So all I can see is darkness
Never again
I will not fall for them
Some of you might think I'm exaggerating
Oh really?
If your hearing voices what path would take
What steps would you make
What weapon would you create
To take them and break them and bring them to places
Where they won't create
Blackholes
It's an art for them you see
Cause when they create it's hard to see
This is getting too long
But before I leave
I hope you understand that I never lost my place
I hope this message conveys this
That I'm here to stay
For all of you who read this
Thank you so much for your stay
Be Safe
Oct 10, 2018
Oct 10, 2018 at 11:42 PM UTC
What do you feel when you hit success
Can't trust these voices that come inside my head
Well I feel success deep in my chest
I'm glad that I passed the test
See I made it
I am Not like the rest
That rest after
Just because it's harder
Naw man to me it's better
You feel heavy
I feel a feather
You think it's deadly
I think it's a latter
So I climb the latter
It's way up
I still put my face up
Never give up
You wonder why I'm always up
Well guess what
There is no fear in me
The darkness is clear for me
My eyes see through it very clearly
It's literally
Nothing to me
Cause when I walk in it
Come from it like
"Yeah I did it"
You might be wondering
why do have no fear of the dark
I'll tell you
See I was born in it
Woke up in it
I was torn in it
It left scars on me
There were hordes within it
Then I made it
I found my light
You see it now
It's not a night light
It's the sun
That Shines over me
Liberates me
The darkness runs
When it does I laugh at it
You can do it to
Have a crack at it
You might like it
Then you strike it
with your light
break it
When you do
You embrace it
Can you feel it
Amazing isn't it
You're all in
Now you can look at the devil and say
"Not this time I win"
It's real
Jul 6, 2018
Jul 6, 2018 at 7:16 PM UTC