Every job I done had
I felt i was cursed with
They be snatching my soul
I need reimbursment
Gotta use that for my purpose
I feel like i did it on purpose
Slacked off on my dreams
So it could potentially hurt me
Sometimes I feel
Like im really unworthy
Tried everything in my power
Nothing seems to be working
I'm hurting
I did it to myself though
Lost all of my patience
Cause when i tried it all came slow
And I heard it usually does
To those of us who try to stay true
Its hard to work this job
And still try to subdue
All my demons and insecurities
That constantly try to attack me
Got everything I could ask for
But still something is lacking
The money is good
In my love life im happy
being true to myself
Even keep my hair a lil *****
But deep down in my heart
Seeping into my soul
There's a part of me
That I still got on doze
Im froze in time
Waiting on myself to make it happen
Put in my two week notice
Gather my things and get to packing
I'm lacking the fire
To start my next project
I don't what to do now
What steps do I take next ?
I just need to do it
Whatever this thing is
Trying to be an inspiration
And look out for the kids
Cause I don't see too many
And for that I'm starting to frown
I don't have much more time to waste
I guess I'll start this thing now
Cause if I don't
It'll be another soul wasted
That didn't step up to the plate
And the look out for the babies
Mar 1, 2019
Mar 1, 2019 at 3:13 PM UTC
Leave me alone
I dont wanna do it
Why would i go back
To something that's ruined
Its broken
Its Means me no good
Why wont you just leave things
The way that you should
Last time i was down
Last time I was out
You took my heart
And threw it about
Left me alone
Let me cry tears
I had my hopes up
I did for years
Had to tell myself
That you'd come around
Discover the love
That I've already found
Did it to myself
You told me no
I Woulnt accept it
Didn't think it was so
Told you id leave
You said go
That was the last time
I had done it before
I let you come back
Gave you one last chance
Prove me wrong
Show me you a man
You dropped the ball
Didnt seem to care
Took me as a game
I guess i picked dare
I finally left
Found me another
True as can be
Really my lover
Feelings are mutual
No games to play
No recess break
We stay in all day
Now that you see
That i meant what I said
You running back
On your last leg
I can't allow it
Cant be no fool
You was happy with how we were
Now I am too
Feb 26, 2019
Feb 26, 2019 at 2:10 PM UTC
I need to talk to you
Yeah it's been a minute
I've been distracted by life
I haven't payed you much attention
To be honest. I ignore you
When I'm making some decisions
Because I can't seem to let go
To my bad habits I become submissive
I already figured it out
You know what's best
Give me signals and signs
That's why I always suffer on what comes next
But let's be real
You make bad decisions too
Emotions running you
Telling you when to move
Your heart is big
Which I have always admired
But it causes you to stay
Where love has already expired
It causes you to give
When there is nothing left
Causes you to be someone else
Instead of be yourself
Its causes you to be dumb
A little bit naive
Just because you opened your legs
Don't mean that he won't leave
Just because you have good intentions
It don't mean that they do
You have to use your mind
Don't let them play you
Stand your ground
Don't be scared of confrontation
They may of had the right one before
But let them know with you they've mistaken
I know I have my faults too
I know I dont have to explain
Let's just work as a team
And beat them at their own game
Lets stand strong together
No matter what they throw
Even if we fall down
That's an opportunity to grow
That's an opportunity to show
That during any situation we'll be fine
Its wonderful to have a good heart
But even better to have a strong mind
Sep 13, 2017
Sep 13, 2017 at 6:54 AM UTC
Sometimes seeing is believing
I like to hold you
I like to kiss you
I like to touch you
To remind myself that this is real
That you are real
That we are real
This is the type of thing you dream about
The thing you truly fantasize about
The thing you wait a lifetime for but never comes
You are my best friend
The one I tell my secrets to
The one I share my heart with
So stay close to me
Let me touch you
Feel you
Kiss you
So I know that my dreams are actually coming true
Aug 31, 2017
Aug 31, 2017 at 3:33 PM UTC
I think i know you from somewhere
Farther than what my brain can remember
Haven't been knowing you for too long
But something about you feels so familiar
Were we friends before ?
Way back When I was younger
Your presence alone I recognize
Which brought me to a state of wonder
I can't help but ponder
At every angle of your existence
I usually can keep my composure
Right now my thoughts are way too conflicted
I want to throw off all my armor
Everything I used for resistance
Purposely leave my blueprints on the table
And let you infiltrate every entrance
Money can't buy this feeling
Your richness is way too expensive
I want you to expose it all
Going deeper and more extensive
Lets show our vulnerability
Explore every fossil of our beings
They can't comprehend our chemistry
It goes way beyond believing
Its go ways beyond perceiving
You would have to be us to understand
Intertwined at the soul
Like we share some kind of gland
Aug 19, 2017
Aug 19, 2017 at 4:54 PM UTC
Someone to care
Someone to hold me
Don't play about it
I want you to know me
I want you to be here
When I'm feeling too lonely
Let me know now
Are you real or just a phony ?
If you need it
You can cry to me
I want you to see
What the eyes can't see
Even meeting you
Was a surprise to me
I'm the one you been waiting on
The others were just dusguised as me
I just need you to be yourself
I was there when there was no one else
I hope you can understand my dillema
Sometimes I just don't want to be by myself
Nobody else gets it
You're the only one
When my soul calls out
You're the one to come
I cut off part of my heart
Just to give you some
If you ever met somebody real
You know where im coming from
Aug 14, 2017
Aug 14, 2017 at 6:22 PM UTC
Im short really short
The smallest of them all
I remember being higher
The tallest of the tall
I was too shy at first
To even be set up for the fall
Until they came along
And gave me somebody to call
Every single heartbreak
Cuts off a few inches
Wasnt enough left for a full repair
All they could do was stitch me
Hurt too familiar
It became so persistent
Hoping that you would realize your wrong
And start to miss me
You're not around nomore
So now i hurt from a distance
You don't love me today
I wish you would be more consistent
I hate I took all the drugs
Of your hugs and your kisses
Cause now I'm all messed up
Have to get a doctor to fix me
So That's enough for me
I don't want nomore please
Numb to all the pain now
So they cut me off at the knees
Body messed up
Heart turned to stone
It don't make it no better
That I can't walk on my own
Aug 12, 2017
Aug 12, 2017 at 12:30 PM UTC
Dang im unhappy, laying down in my bed
Dont wanna deal with all the thoughts rushing up in my head
Let me find something to do, to pass this little time
Thinking outside the box but scared to cross the line
Im so sick of repetition, aint nothing really to do
My appetite sparking up, i feel the voidness with food
Smoking aint really fun, its just something to do
We all idle right now so of course we thinking its cool
We ain't got nothing to prove, but we try to anyway
Rather try to fit in than be ourselves any day
Aint got nothing in common so we make up something to say
We make fun of any and everybody who won't cooperate
We can't enjoy the time now cause we waiting on another day to come
Can't concentrate on where we going cause we keep looking back at where we come from
I know it's hard to forget because what made us was the slums
But we must keep moving forward and remember that them days in done
Aug 10, 2017
Aug 10, 2017 at 4:44 PM UTC
My life seems to be everywhere
Think im getting lost in a maze
Parts of my life don't seem real
A phase within a phase
Looking at the mirror
Staring myself in the face
Been wondering who I am for so long
And how did i get to place
Im stuck in a space
Trapped behind the walls
There's no rock bottom
I just continue to fall
A bottomless pit
Is what this feels like
Got a smile on my face
Knowing i don't feel right
Im blacking out and getting nauseous
Questioning everything I see
Wondering how we were all created
And how did he come to be
Its hard to keep focus
I been thinking bout this for weeks
Seeing things that I can't explain
Every time I go to sleep
I have no control sometimes
My flesh is too weak
I can't ask anybody questions
I know they don't have the answers I seek
When I speak
I sound more than insane
But I have to be right ?
For unlocking that part of my brain
My mind is not the same
I've realized that much
But I feel it within
The things that can not be touched
I know it can't be rushed
But im ready to see what's happening
Haven't talked to nobody lately
They suggest that im mad at them
Its not even close to that though
Im just trying to figure it all out
What's going on around me ?
What is it all about ?
Cause if i tell you
What i been going through
It won't just be me anymore
You'll think im crazy too
Aug 6, 2017
Aug 6, 2017 at 9:49 AM UTC
You know I don't believe in marriage
Well not in the tradition
I don't think it's a goal
Or one of life's missions
Or something that you do
When you feel your life has gone missing
Or when you got a lot of bills
That you need some assist with
I don't think its something you do
When your in a certain religion
Or some move that you make
To further your commitment
Why do I have to sign a paper
Just for us to go the distance
I want to be with you for life
I don't have to walk down an isle to admit it
I wont change my last name
Cause im not your property
You may not get it right now
But can you see it my way possibly ?
I shouldn't have to do the extra
For you to acknowledge me
Im sick of everybody around me
Telling me who I gotta be
My love is worth more than a ring
Or some pearly white dress
You can't set my love up in a church
Like its some kind of project
You can't tax my love
And make it one of your fees
My type of love is too strong
Itll make you get down on my BOTH knees
I shouldn't have to beg
I shouldn't have to plead
I know im worth it all
I have everything that you need
You mean I have to go through a court
Just to prove my love
And use the petty excuse
Of "you doing it in front of the one above"
You know that im yours
And i know that your mine
Im completely happy with you
I guess that'll show over time
Ill always love you
You should trust that
And if most people did
They wouldn't have to sign a contract
Jul 29, 2017
Jul 29, 2017 at 3:58 PM UTC