Sadsalt - Hello Poetry

I'm standing on the top of the cliff breathing. observing. and i'm so tempted to just jump but I'm looking down and I'm scared what if it still doesn't end, after I fall?

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May 1, 2019

May 1, 2019 at 7:51 AM UTC

jump..

I'm standing on the top of the cliff breathing. observing. and i'm so tempted to just jump but I'm looking down and I'm scared what if it still doesn't end, after I fall?

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hiding behind my door listening to the voices screaming outside familiar but they seem so distant. I'm stuck in the middle this happens every night when it's over we sit in silence as night turns to day they start again. where am I meant to go when this place I call home feels like the opposite I don't belong hard for me to comprehend that it's reality. this mess that we're living in some days I think it's over and it starts again ...

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Apr 25, 2019

Apr 25, 2019 at 10:48 PM UTC

mess

hiding behind my door listening to the voices screaming outside familiar but they seem so distant. I'm stuck in the middle this happens every night when it's over we sit in silence as night turns to day they start again. where am I meant to go when this place I call home feels like the opposite I don't belong hard for me to comprehend that it's reality. this mess that we're living in some days I think it's over and it starts again ...

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I saw you drowning so I came to help but you pushed me under and saved yourself instead

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Sep 8, 2018

Sep 8, 2018 at 2:28 AM UTC

save yourself

I saw you drowning so I came to help but you pushed me under and saved yourself instead

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I'm stuck between the past and the future. memories and dreams life and death.

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Aug 31, 2018

Aug 31, 2018 at 6:43 AM UTC

stuck.

I'm stuck between the past and the future. memories and dreams life and death.

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I looked at the sunset all the colours fading away into the night and the darkness starts to take over wiping all the colours away a bit like how i was the sunset and you were the night slowly making me fade away into your presence

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Aug 10, 2018

Aug 10, 2018 at 8:01 PM UTC

s u n s e t c o l o u r s

I looked at the sunset all the colours fading away into the night and the darkness starts to take over wiping all the colours away a bit like how i was the sunset and you were the night slowly making me fade away into your presence

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He loved like a raindrop but I loved like a cyclone - And his eyes were the ocean and mine were tsunamis - but his heart was a riptide and I couldn't escape it .

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Aug 10, 2018

Aug 10, 2018 at 6:51 AM UTC

riptide

He loved like a raindrop but I loved like a cyclone - And his eyes were the ocean and mine were tsunamis - but his heart was a riptide and I couldn't escape it .

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Its been one day, it still seems unreal, you can't be gone. Second day without you, please tell me this is just a nightmare Third day, I told someone about you today, i broke down Fourth day, I cant get through this Fifth day, our story was only beginning, why did it end so quickly? Sixth day, I had a dream about you, it felt too real One week past, I have run out of tears to cry, I'm just empty 8 days, never mind I’m drowning in my tears tonight 9 days, why do I feel like nobody else cares 10 days, someone asked me how you were doing, I didn’t have the strength to tell them u were gone 11 days, I hate being constantly reminded of you 12 days, I have no purpose in life without you here 13 days, my heart is going to be broken forever 2 weeks past, I thought I heard you, but realised my mind was just playing games 15 days, I saw your favourite food today at the supermarket, I almost bought it, then I remembered 16 days, everyone keeps telling me I should be over you by now, but how 17 days, the house has been too empty and quiet 18 days, I have learnt that faking a smile is easier than being sad and getting fake sympathy 19 days, the memories of you are drowning me 20 days, my anxiety is getting worse and you are not here for me to talk to 21 days, people now think im fine, but they really don’t know me at all 22 days, I want to die. Life without you is just not worth it 23 days, I know you would want me to try to be happy, I’m trying hard, that thought is getting me through this. 24 days, someone mocked you, I completely lost it and shouted at them, they deserved it 25 days, I wanted to talk to you, so I walked up to your usual spot, only to realise you weren’t there 26 days, I sang a song for you today my angel. 27 days, I'm starting to feel that I'm not as alone as I think 28 days later, Its almost been a month how did I make it through, my world is never going to be the same, not without you. 29 days, our song started playing on a long quiet drive, i tried to fight back the tears but one escaped my eye. One month later, I don't know how to feel anymore, i feel useless and completely empty, and without you by my side i feel so alone, i'm scared of myself. The future, everything. Its crazy how one little thing can change you forever, but you weren't one little thing, you were m everything and I will be forever scarred without you, I hope one day maybe I will see you again.

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Aug 6, 2018

Aug 6, 2018 at 4:06 AM UTC

Without you

Its been one day, it still seems unreal, you can't be gone. Second day without you, please tell me this is just a nightmare Third day, I told someone about you today, i broke down Fourth day, I cant get through this Fifth day, our story was only beginning, why did it end so quickly? Sixth day, I had a dream about you, it felt too real One week past, I have run out of tears to cry, I'm just empty 8 days, never mind I’m drowning in my tears tonight 9 days, why do I feel like nobody else cares 10 days, someone asked me how you were doing, I didn’t have the strength to tell them u were gone 11 days, I hate being constantly reminded of you 12 days, I have no purpose in life without you here 13 days, my heart is going to be broken forever 2 weeks past, I thought I heard you, but realised my mind was just playing games 15 days, I saw your favourite food today at the supermarket, I almost bought it, then I remembered 16 days, everyone keeps telling me I should be over you by now, but how 17 days, the house has been too empty and quiet 18 days, I have learnt that faking a smile is easier than being sad and getting fake sympathy 19 days, the memories of you are drowning me 20 days, my anxiety is getting worse and you are not here for me to talk to 21 days, people now think im fine, but they really don’t know me at all 22 days, I want to die. Life without you is just not worth it 23 days, I know you would want me to try to be happy, I’m trying hard, that thought is getting me through this. 24 days, someone mocked you, I completely lost it and shouted at them, they deserved it 25 days, I wanted to talk to you, so I walked up to your usual spot, only to realise you weren’t there 26 days, I sang a song for you today my angel. 27 days, I'm starting to feel that I'm not as alone as I think 28 days later, Its almost been a month how did I make it through, my world is never going to be the same, not without you. 29 days, our song started playing on a long quiet drive, i tried to fight back the tears but one escaped my eye. One month later, I don't know how to feel anymore, i feel useless and completely empty, and without you by my side i feel so alone, i'm scared of myself. The future, everything. Its crazy how one little thing can change you forever, but you weren't one little thing, you were m everything and I will be forever scarred without you, I hope one day maybe I will see you again.

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All those little things you say are like little seeds they grow inside of me they sustain me then they start getting too big like my thoughts and it starts damaging me, slowly, over time and suddenly branches have made their way through my fragile skin and I am broken on the inside, and the outside.

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Aug 2, 2018

Aug 2, 2018 at 8:11 AM UTC

seeds

All those little things you say are like little seeds they grow inside of me they sustain me then they start getting too big like my thoughts and it starts damaging me, slowly, over time and suddenly branches have made their way through my fragile skin and I am broken on the inside, and the outside.

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And the realisation hit me you weren't coming back and suddenly my whole world changed the sky was always grey and gloomy and the trees were dying and the flowers had withered the stars didn't shine as bright and the sun was just hiding the clouds clogged up the sky like how my thoughts clogged up my mind and it slowly started to rain a drop at a time and I blended right into the sadness and when you were taken not only did my world change forever I had changed forever.

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Jul 28, 2018

Jul 28, 2018 at 7:18 PM UTC

changed

And the realisation hit me you weren't coming back and suddenly my whole world changed the sky was always grey and gloomy and the trees were dying and the flowers had withered the stars didn't shine as bright and the sun was just hiding the clouds clogged up the sky like how my thoughts clogged up my mind and it slowly started to rain a drop at a time and I blended right into the sadness and when you were taken not only did my world change forever I had changed forever.

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I looked at the bright blue ocean and looked at the calming waves slowly coming, and going and i stepped into the water a cold rush ran up my leg as I continued walking and then those calming waves turned into Big Monstrous waves and eventually I was under them and I reached for the surface but I couldn't make it. And I was left wondering how something so perfect could be so dangerous.

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Jul 27, 2018

Jul 27, 2018 at 5:01 AM UTC

Waves

I looked at the bright blue ocean and looked at the calming waves slowly coming, and going and i stepped into the water a cold rush ran up my leg as I continued walking and then those calming waves turned into Big Monstrous waves and eventually I was under them and I reached for the surface but I couldn't make it. And I was left wondering how something so perfect could be so dangerous.

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