I think about ending my life, daily
The fastest way way to go,
Without hurting others
My self-worth
Will i be missed?
These thoughts,
Shouldn’t be put on paper
But why not?
If more people talked about it,
Perhaps, they would not,
Act upon it
The greatest pain cannot be seen
It hides deep within
A broken bone is easy to mend
A broken mind doesn’t bind
All these thoughts of mine,
Often times i wonder
Have I lost my mind?
Am i only one,
With suicidal thoughts….?
Jul 5, 2022
Jul 5, 2022 at 5:53 AM UTC
I was falling. I was falling in love. I was falling so hard that I couldnt tell when the fall would end, because I was falling for the one person who could break my heart with the most biggest amount of pain I could think of. I was falling in love with my bestfriend, the only friend I had in my life, the only person who understood me, the only person who never judged me, the only person who never shouted at me and the only person who accepted me for me. I had started to feel for him, but more then what I was feeling for him lurked the fear of losing him, because it wouldnt be just the heart I will lose to him, I will lose my whole self. He knows every little secret of mine, he knows who I am, he knows what I am, he knows everything and never judges, he's my secret diary, and those are things which are above love, because love can be found but these qualities are even rarer then love. I had the fear of losing him what if I propose and he didnt think that way, what if I proposed and he stops talking to me and never come back, what if he starts to hate me. All these questions stacked up and I curtailed myself from expressing my feeling for I didnt want to lose my bestfriend for love.
I had fallen in love with the only person who could break my whole existence.
May 12, 2022
May 12, 2022 at 3:10 PM UTC
Are you okay?
Are you alright, are you fine, are you good?
Are you adequate, are you decent?
Are you emotionally stable, sleeping without crying, smiling because you want to?
Are you breathing without questioning, are you waking up without trying, are you eating without throwing up?
Are you reading this poem right now and thinking no?
Are you thinking for the first time, will I ever be okay?
You will be okay.
You will be alright, you will be fine, you will be good.
You will be adequate, you will be decent.
You will be emotionally stable, you will sleep without crying, and smile for the happiness blooming inside of you.
You will breathe without questioning, you will wake up to a new day, you will eat easily
You
are going to be okay.
So please smile sunshine
It’s a fine new day
To be okay :)
May 7, 2022
May 7, 2022 at 3:35 PM UTC
It’s the thief if time,
Who won’t let you be mine.
Keeps stealing you away,
For most of every day.
Why do our moments go so fast,
When all I want is them to last.
Must be the thief of time
Who won’t let you be mine.
Apr 1, 2022
Apr 1, 2022 at 5:21 AM UTC
Happiness is hard
to come by.
People who are real with you
are hard to come by.
Love is hard to come by.
True friendship
is also
hard to come by.
So it messes no sense to me
why good people
get ****** over the hardest.
Why good people
have to go through it
in the worst of ways.
I don’t understand
why people hurt them the most.
Why people are so careless
with the ones who show them
soft, gentle love.
Why people are so senseless
to the ones who make them feel alive….!
Mar 31, 2022
Mar 31, 2022 at 5:32 AM UTC
I think stars have heard more secrets
Than any pair of human ears,
They’re trusted with our troubles
And are the guards of all of fears.
Perhaps we share with them our sorrows
For they too have known the night,
Yet they’ve learnt to let the darkness
Simply emphasise their light…!
Mar 30, 2022
Mar 30, 2022 at 2:15 PM UTC
Was I always meant to fall?
Roses white and dying light
Silver’s sweet forgiving bite
She’ll ask “why”
No answers found
And I’ll rot deep
beneath the ground…!
Mar 29, 2022
Mar 29, 2022 at 10:40 AM UTC
I tell you to be strong
while most days
I feel like I’m one push away
from crumbling?
I’ve been holding my breath
waiting for an impact
Please excuse my silence
It’s hard enough trying to hold it together
without having to also carry your pain….!
Mar 28, 2022
Mar 28, 2022 at 12:54 PM UTC
Dear Future You,
Hold on. Please
Love,
Me.
Dear Current You,
I’m holding on. But it hurts.
Love.
Me.
Dear Past you,
I held on. Thank you.
Love,
Me.
Mar 27, 2022
Mar 27, 2022 at 2:31 AM UTC
Emotions just….falling, one by one becoming non existent all staring with joy and happiness. It won’t stop until I’m empty, nothing there…dead but still here. Disappointed in us. This. Whatever is this anymore? Round and round in circles, the same problem over and over. Time. If that is a problem, why? Why does everyone obsess over time? Screaming at the top of my lungs “help me I’m drowning, drowning in tonight’s thoughts just like yesterday’s” every night dying as I suffocate myself with a pillow just so I don’t worry anybody with my problems. Music is my best medicine and is the only friend I feel I have at the moment. Staring at at the ceiling as I listen to music through my earphones just trying to stay afloat. It’s starting to get gat harder and harder each night to do so~
Mar 26, 2022
Mar 26, 2022 at 12:43 PM UTC