The leaves on the tree
outside my bedroom window
have been yellow for weeks.
I watched them turn
and stagnate
now brittle and quick to crumble.
When they finally stop clinging,
it isn't a float,
or a slow dance to the ground.
They fling themselves
from the edge of the branch,
and plummet
expecting frosted grass.
Instead, they're lodged
in a pile of dog ****
I didn't feel
like picking up this morning.
Feb 3, 2021
Feb 3, 2021 at 10:22 AM UTC
I could stare at myself in the mirror for hours.
It starts in my extremities.
a chill creeps its way into my abdomen,
and cements my joints.
The bacteria residing in my intestines
dine on my organs for supper,
they blow up my stomach until I'm
pregnant with air, my non-existent baby
forcing thick liquid out every orifice.
It tickles,
when the flies visit my rotted skin.
Their steps light and playful,
turn sinister, and force their way into my
open mouth to lay their eggs.
I wait, as the larvae devour
my brain tissue.
When I have nothing left to give,
I'll pull down my lower eyelid
and let the maggots slide out.
Feb 3, 2021
Feb 3, 2021 at 10:17 AM UTC
Face down on my friend's bed
I wait for my shoulder
to lose feeling,
Secretly hoping the pain will last a little longer,
while she drives ink into my body
over and over and over.
I hope she isn't too drunk
to make the lines straight,
because I'm tired of hearing my mother say,
"those look like the tattoos my patients get in prison"
a sentiment always met with
an exaggerated eye roll,
and a stronger desire to let my friends get drunk
and stab me with needles
over and over and over.
Feb 3, 2021
Feb 3, 2021 at 10:13 AM UTC