At ninety
Lamenting,
I was waiting
For the future
You curse life
Resent life
That brought you here
You waited
The right time
Perfect moment
Suitable soul
To find you
That waiting_
Becomes your misery ending
You lived in a cocoon
Face masked
At every chance
Disguise of introvert
Hiding
You hoped
Someone to find you
Hope without movement
Is just a slow collapse
Make it happen
Make that mistake
Worry later
If consequences cut deep
The next will be better
Dangerous to live
Waiting
On someone else
The hopeless eternity
Will crush you
Into mountains
You never imagined
You could become
Do not wait
Not for the right time.
Not for the right person.
Move—
Before regret
Becomes your only companion
Mar 25
Mar 25, 2026 at 3:54 PM UTC
Never researched this place
All I know is
I want to go
A new environment
What I need
How is life there?
Do they enjoy sorghum?
The way we do_
Or is it milk
That fills their days?
Never left this land
Yet my heart is already traveling_
Restless, excited
Soon will be on the other side of the country,
Living stories
One day,
Tell generations after me
Is it a bizarre place_
Or different?
Do they have rivers
With lovely flows
Or filled with rocks
With hardened steep
Like a child
On the edge of becoming
I am ready
Every stage of growth
Eager.
To see.
To feel.
To become.
This is not just a journey—
It is life,
Reborn.
Mar 25
Mar 25, 2026 at 12:12 PM UTC
Night winds sound_
Clog the brain
Fingers tremble
Breathe unsteady
I can hear my pulse
Beating out loud_
A rising rumble
A mob_
Against me
False accusations
Thrown like stones
No room
No time
To defend
Voices_
Screaming inside my head
I am innocent,
Show me leniency
Piqued faces
Twisted with vex
Chants rising..
Outrage busting
A willing guilt
Placed on me
One_
Against many
No path to run
Worst pain to face
Facing fright
Mar 25
Mar 25, 2026 at 12:10 PM UTC
Wait_
I forgot
The white purse
The last memory
My brother gave me
These wildfires
Won't erase the smallest trace
I'll walk through them
Search through ashes
Pick it wherever it fell
On a random floor_
I got it
I return
Skin burning
Clothes torn
Lungs chocking on smoke
Purse
Still in the right hand,
Unburnt
What is fire
compared to love?
Distance—nothing.
If I were asked
To bring you from the dead
Given a cruel choice
Walk on thorns
Or drown in salt_
I would...
In a micro second
Already be halfway
To you
You would return in royalty
No more sadness
Would ever touch you again
But I cannot
Wish I could bring you back
Because the world,
With you in it,
Felt better
Than this.
Mar 25
Mar 25, 2026 at 9:20 AM UTC
I could stare at a blank page all day
Because I do not have the perfect words
Yet here I am
Wanting to give love a chance
It struck on you
Like water in the desert
I am quick to fall
The only impulse I may never regret
You are like a sanctuary
Meant for two of us
You haven't confessed
But I know
The feelings
I have for you are growing, rapidly
Will you...
Accept
If I said
You're the gentleman
Designed for me
Hold this worried girl
Who is finally giving love a chance
And if you refuse_
Tell me,
How will I try love again ?
All this
Thinking out loud
Alone
Mar 24
Mar 24, 2026 at 4:32 PM UTC
A matter of time,
This misery will end.
They say good things come_
In the end.
But I don't see it
Despair after despair
Worry lining the road ahead,
From dark...
To deeper darkness.
Moments like this,
Mind goes stale_
No ideas, no sparks
Eyes blink slower
Heart denies
The spirit... quietly
Accepts defeat.
There's a bad essence in the air
Like a spell cast for destruction
A few seconds of fresh air
Stretch into hours
Of brokenness
Can't think what comes next
I stay still
As the clock ticks
Loud with uncertainty
I stopped monitoring the weather
Now I wait...
For something good
Anything good
I want to notice everlasting happiness next
Mar 24
Mar 24, 2026 at 7:18 AM UTC
Now am angry.
This afternoon_
Unsettled something in me
I am hot.
Anyone in my way
Should tread carefully.
Tuesday handed me one word:
Unruly.
These rules_
Made me feel foolish
Small
Now_
I'm thinking clearly
Used to be _
Bottom of coward
Overlooked
Taken for granted
Not anymore
Now I want to scream
Let there be sadness.
Let there be regret
for the time of mine
that was mishandled.
This Tuesday
Has me changing
Not the way you'd expect
Too bad _
I'm becoming something else
A bad disciple
Judge me
I won't feel less than
No one here is any better
I feel hostile
My voice trembles
Like it's about to break something open
No one should try me now
I'm figuring out
Will I still make it to heaven?
If I keep on going like this..
Mar 23
Mar 23, 2026 at 4:22 PM UTC
You are no longer in my custody.
Eighteen years have passed_
In my eyes,
You are still five.
How seasons varied
You changed along with them.
I no longer guide your every step,
Nor do I cook your meals
Or choose your path.
Now
I watch from a distance_
As you learn
As you fall
Sometimes you smile from your mistakes
Sometimes resent them
You are your own guardian now,
Creating your own destiny
And I,
Shall be around
When you need me
Know that.
However tall you are ;
How far you go
You are still my little angle
You become your own patron
I am growing older
Sitting quietly in this house,
Learning_
I must now guard myself.
Remember_
You were once mine
I am still yours
Mar 23
Mar 23, 2026 at 3:47 PM UTC
You were my second love,
I chose you to be my last.
It was steady,
Charm_
Made me feel amazing
Engraved yourself into my soul,
Morning after morning.
Couldn't stop wanting you.
Your name_
The most beautiful thing I owned:
Jedidah.
Nicknamed you Soul
You lived in my light,
And I in yours.
We were intertwined
An alibi of love
Wanted you to claim,
To own
This fresh blossom
It felt right in your arms
But now_
I am not who I was.
Fiery chills turned numb
Cannot undo,
No matter how I try
You're no longer
The trophy
The medal
I once saw you as
No amount of repentance
Can soften what has hardened
Allure become repulse
I'm on a different path
One where you don't exist,
And I cannot explain why.
Only this:
somehow,
everything
is lost
Mar 23
Mar 23, 2026 at 3:07 PM UTC
Before we choose allies
Before we avenge
Who never chose us _
Am here
To force diplomacy
Teach peace
A_
you have vendetta against B
B_
You burn to prove power to A
Let me break this spectre
I belong to both of you
Whoever falls
Whoever wins
Hurt is inevitable
You made us hate
Air we breathe
Anxious of our surroundings
Terrified of tomorrow
Rivers gushing with red
Tear glands dried_
With anger
Still this doesn't concern you
Your aim is...
Legends craved in history
But to us_
To the innocent_
Just clowns
On my way here,
I carried news.
B_
Your central land has diminished
The sea now drought
Rage...
A celebrates
Do not celebrate too soon
A_
The western rocks of your land
Crushed every living thing
Lifeless
Because of B
And so it continues—
blame,
revenge,
promises of something worse
Watching ... then
I am the diplomat
I am peace and stability
But hear this :
No allies will form
If you reject reason
Fight
The survivor
A vow
Shall not live
tell me…
who inherits
your poisoned vendetta?
Who carries
this obsession with power?
When both of you are wiped off the universe
Its best we end all this
Rule out as losers or winners
Out of this room
It should be no more
Mar 21
Mar 21, 2026 at 6:49 AM UTC