RogueRyter
Hey they call me Rogue, and here's a bit about me. I'm a lot depressed with a bad case of A.D.H.D. I like video games and love comedy, some science fiction, and a little history. I think I'm fairly smart. I analyze everything. I've lost all motivation, yet still I'm full of dreams. Life just seems so pointless. What does it all mean? I just don't seem to get it, so continues my misery. The simplest excuses seem to comfort me. I just want to be normal, to say the very least. But I'd love to be special, so they say I'm needy. They call it "Hero Syndrome," I just call it dreaming. I know I'm nothing special, though I wish to be. Maybe they are right. Maybe I'm just crazy. Maybe I'm immature...but I gotta be me.
These are lyrics for a song. A friend wrote a beautiful melody and recorded it. I then wrote these lyrics to go with the melody. You can listen to the music to it @ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZphVqGer5M. Thanks for the read guys and please let me know what you think.
-Verse 1-
I know that everyone has an answer for me,
Just keep it to yourself
Everyone thinks that they know what's best for me
They don't know me at all
You think that everything you do benefits me,
You're just out for yourself
Every time you try to do something for me
I pay for it in the end
-Chorus-
You think you know it all
But you could not be more wrong
I can see right through your wall
'Cause
I'm smarter than you all think
Standing on top of the brink
It's kinda like Tesla's dream
-Short Verse 2-
I'm not afraid to die
When I'm gone you'll cry
My name
To the stars
'Cause that is who you are
But no one else can see
That life is energy
While I'm
Everywhere
You'll remain unaware ('cause)
-Chorus-
You think you know it all
But you could not be more wrong
I can break right through your wall
'Cause
I'm smarter than you all think
Standing on top of the brink
It's kinda like Tesla's dream
-Bridge-
When I'm gone
You'll cry my name and...
When I'm gone
You will remain unaware
That while you selfishly
waste all of my time
comparing me to you
I pay for it in the end.
-Verse 1-
I know that everyone has an answer for me,
Just keep it to yourself
Everyone thinks that they know what's best for me
They don't know me at all
You think that everything you do benefits me,
You're just out for yourself
Every time you try you do something for me
I pay for it in the end
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 3:13 PM UTC
There is something that you should know
The beast inside me is taking control
I can feel it fill with anger
Enforced by hatred Increasing danger
So you see its inevitable
The downward spiral of my ****** soul
I keep climbing to no avail
Every turn leads me off the trail
I'm just tired of all the sh!t
All the a$$holes get me so ******
Can't you hear the the devil's call
There's a little evil inside us all.
So keep up your sh!t and play your games
Cause yours is coming, yeah things have changed
When Karma comes knocking upon your door
You won't be laughing anymore...
Jun 8, 2014
Jun 8, 2014 at 8:49 PM UTC
Angry and hollow inside
I'm lost within my head
Everything seems such an effort
And I don't seem to want to bother
I don't want to wake up
I just want to sleep
I don't want to be here
Someone help me
Tell me what is wrong with me
Sometimes I try and get somewhere
And then everything falls apart
Sometimes I think it must be my fault
Why can't I be ******* normal
I wish I new the reason
I'm so unmotivated
Like I'm afraid of trying
What's the point when we're all dying
I don't want to wake up
I just want to sleep
I don't want to be here
Someone help me
Tell me what is wrong with me
What's the point of life anyways
Lost without any faith
We all live and then we all die
And in between we laugh and we cry
I don't want to wake up
I just want to sleep
I don't want to be here
Someone help me
Tell me what is wrong with me
I don't want to wake up
I don't want to sleep
I don't want to be here
Someone tell me
What the f#@k is wrong with me
Jun 5, 2014
Jun 5, 2014 at 4:16 AM UTC
Today is the day
That I find myself
Today is the day
I clean off my shelf
Today is the day
That I see the truth
Today is the day
I tie my own shoes
Today is the day
That defines my life
Today is the day
I fight my last fight
Today is the day
That I find my path
Today is the day
I get off my ***
Jun 4, 2014
Jun 4, 2014 at 1:59 PM UTC
I lost myself a time ago, I don't know who I am
I used to be someone else, I used to be a better man
It just got so complicated, it was more than I could take
So I slipped further away with every decision that I made
I never thought about the consequence as I lived day by day
I never considered the man I'd become or the bed I'd lay
Now I try so f#@king hard to remember who I used to be
Cause I don't recognize the man in the mirror staring back at me
Welcome to my crazy life
Welcome to the fear I hide inside
Do you know what it's like
To hear the screams I hide inside
I try to hold my head up high and I try to chase my dreams
But it seems the more I try I just get by with broken wings
So I find it hard to get up and face another day
I just lay there in my bed wishing that I could stay
At least I can say that I have perpetual love
Thanks to my heart, our two awesome boys, and my angel from above
They give me reason to live on and they give me reason to breathe
They are my motivation when I'm out of gasoline
Welcome to my crazy life
Welcome to the fear I hide inside
Do you know what it's like
To hear the screams I hide inside
I began making changes in my life in the past few months
I quit the drugs and the lies along with other stuff
Though its still hard to get by I swear that I won't quit
I'll keep fighting the urge everyday and dealing with the ****
And if I never make it big and no one knows my name
I'll still know that I tried and be happy just the same
Because I'll still have the love of my friends and family
No matter how successful I am they will always be there for me
Welcome to my crazy life
Welcome to the fear I hide inside
Do you know what it's like
To hear the screams I hide inside
Jun 4, 2014
Jun 4, 2014 at 4:42 AM UTC
I am a man of unknown fortune
Who lives life by the turn of the sun
I guess I will always be the one
Lost in life and known by none.
My mind is a scary place
One of a completely different taste
Most of its use has gone to waste
And disappeared without a trace
My heart is one of purity
I wear it on my sleeve for all to see
It branches out just like a tree
Sadly this is the downfall of me
My soul is lost as I like to say
In a new place each and every day
I couldn't say where it is today
I wish it would choose someplace and stay
I am a man of unknown fortune
Who lives my life by the turn of the sun
I guess I will always be the one
Lost in life and known by none.
Jun 4, 2014
Jun 4, 2014 at 4:35 AM UTC
Savoring the scent of my fear
Patiently you wait as I near
Kraftly hiding your true intent
Pretending awhile to be my friend.
In line to fate's checkmate
Imprisoned you recreate
To conjugate my soul
Your wake takes it's toll.
Twisting my insides out
Playing my every doubt
Closing in for the ****
Against the remnant of my will
Reality has become my fear
The end is already here
Jun 3, 2014
Jun 3, 2014 at 1:09 PM UTC
Every night I lie awake
Thinking of the all plans we made
Some were big and some were small
I just wish we could have done it all
I should have seen all of the signs
I should have read between the lines
Of every laugh that hid the pain
And now it will all never be the same
How did it all end up this way
How did we all get so far astray
Unaware and caught offshore
In another winter downpour
You were there when no one was
Without even the slightest fuss
All it would take was a call
And you would smile trough it all
I only want to give back the same
Bring you back and ease your pain
Give you the life that you deserve
Give you everything on this earth
Every night I lie awake
As the day's about to break
I try to think of what you'd say
How I can face another day
And right before I fall asleep
I hear a voice it speaks to me
Live your life to the extreme
I fall asleep and begin to dream
But how did it all end up this way
How did we all get so far astray
Close your eyes and dream some more
Through another winter downpour
May 26, 2014
May 26, 2014 at 1:27 AM UTC
What it is to be desired
I will never know
No one's ever longed for me
I've spent my life unknown
I long to know a love
That cares for what I feel
That finds me attractive
And is actually real
Someone to fight for me
To never let them go
Someone to believe in me
Stand by me as I grow
But life has other plans for me
Than this impossible dream
To pull apart my inner soul
And rip it at the seams
In this sorrow I survive
To be ridiculed and teased
My heart infected by loneliness
I spread the hate disease
Outside I may seem cold
Robotic some would say
But inside I am crying
In misery where I stay
Waiting to be noticed
For someone to finally hear
My silent screams of agony
And my retired rivers of tears
May 26, 2014
May 26, 2014 at 1:22 AM UTC
Ever have a moment
Where the mind runs dry
A seemingly endless void
Like of that beyond our sky
Ever have a feeling...
Unable to describe
A secret within your heart
You carry until you die
Ever have a craving
You can't quite explain
A specific unknown taste
Unquenched without a name
Ever have a vision
That you cannot see
A blurred gray passing image
Of a future you or me
Ever have a nightmare
You don't quite recall
A subtle subconscious fear
Embedded behind a wall
Ever have a sadness
You refuse to share
A hidden infinite pain
Disguised with a smiling stare
Ever have an insight
Shake you to your core
If you don't get the message
"You're not alone anymore."
May 26, 2014
May 26, 2014 at 1:16 AM UTC