Dad...... Daddy..... father? what does that even mean?
Disappearing act from the jump pretty obscene i mean
fair
it just wasnt fair but i ask myself was he not prepared
consequences was known so i can only think he was scared i mean
afraid
its easy to say the role he never got a chance to play
was not something he could of judged to this very day i mean
night
as it came down right on my head the pressure was so tight
people tryna fill a slot giving me a tunnel so i can see the light i mean
dark
so dark i had to spark my inner man so little so i had no bark
sacrificing my childhood somewhat, that means no games no park i mean
seclusion
trapped in this illusion that i would be in this institution
the visions of death shower me so i call it my mental pollution I mean
fresh air
so new that i couldn’t bare to know i was getting stronger even tho my cowardly father wasnt there
the anger that once was there was gone so now i dont care i mean
Where Are You?
Mar 30, 2014
Mar 30, 2014 at 6:35 PM UTC
A political leader
Kind
Compassionate
A walking contradiction
an angel
a devil
someone who realized the ****** up world that he lived in
harsh
conflicted
adoration for women
hustler
hard-worker
he truly loathed petty *******
REAL
TRUE to himself
always kept it a buck
uplifter
motivator
crossed him the wrong way just know you was ******
misunderstood
over all twisted
but remember me always so no one else can miss it
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 4:58 PM UTC
I know it'll be hard to let me go when the day comes
Just think about the times we shed tears and had fun
Just know i can finally have my proper rest
I can roll on, be a "G" and no stress
I will see a place where equality reigns
no rain and no pain nobody tryna play no crooked games
(GUN SHOT)...........
Dear who it may concern just know I’m happy up here
It ***** to know i had to die for people to care
It’s cool tho but i know it ain't fair
When i got shot i was alone, nobody was there
Dear mama, aunt Sonia still strong as ever
Grandma Gordon still praising like she aint in heaven
im glad i made it so i can kick with da fellas
Should of listen when god told me eternal life was better
(WAKES UP)..........
Got a glimpse of it all but was it worth it
It was just a dream but i cant interpret it
Will i survive will i die, will i stay, will i go
Heaven felt so good please open the door
I tell my mama my dream she didn’t wanna believe
That her son was a prophet
And that he wanted to leave
My message to all try to live life right
Live life to the fullest and hold on real tight
You’re not promised tomorrow, not even today
When i go to heaven, what will you say?
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 2:09 PM UTC
Ladies..... for the ones having babies
it aint crazy your strong believe me
and if you dont i wont feel different
but let me give it to you real simple specifics
you dont need a man who aint got no plan
he aint worth it if he cant understand
dont ever let em make you feel low
got you feeling all wild and out of control
time to let em know you dont need no help
throw ya head back and scream "im bad by myself"
he'd get it and then walk right out
now he left you alone to work things out
now we all know your strong and independent
and you proved him wrong cause he thought you was dependent
go ahead women and take care of that girl
and let em know it's you against the world
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 1:54 PM UTC
Selfish ************* around me its suffocating
Thats why we cant get no where as a people its aggravating
Im at a point where if i can't trust em **** em
or ill treat them like the trash they are thats on them
im a survivior and ill protect whats mine at all times
doing whats necessary to find a solution even if im blind
to the consequences of my hateful actions
reactions to my evil ways gives me satisfaction
the bashin i do results in my enemies becoming ashes
so the clashing between us leaves me no air asthmatic
(Takes a deep breath)
Thats a load off
Let me unwind and take my shirt off
first off im a real dude with a ******* problem
America put me on top then changed me to the bottom
No fame its ok no change its strange
No play no way black pride all day
Now as I go
Being Hateful is easy and know where near hard to show
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 4:17 PM UTC
The saying goes 'even genius asks questions"
My quest to be the best is one of my stresses so my question is
When will i be able to breathe (huh)
I’m at war with myself continuously and nobody sees
The hurt, no one deserves to live cursed
but strangely enough i was prepared for the worst
Sure nuff society has taken me for granted
I’m slanted the rose in the concrete feeling abandoned
it was handed to me to live this filthy life of grief
my prophecy fulfilled but the stress is killing me
please lord when you take me, that day i die
how long will they mourn me, how long will they cry?
Mar 17, 2014
Mar 17, 2014 at 4:02 PM UTC
I was nothing 24 years ago
what i would become, no one could ever know
2 years later i was nothing but considered a miracle
cultivated in tough realities if i could make that applicable
at the age of 5 still was nothing but i was somewhat talented
moving the way i was no one could ever fathom it
Age 10, i was a role model for my sisters
still nothing but had to be about my dead beat fathers business
he was never there so i had so many things to bear
so i sold dope at 14 to keep all my so called friends near
lost an angel, so i felt like i was nothing without her
15 yrs old and i told very few people about her
18 started making tough choices on my own
21 i actually got the courage to live all alone
Started my own foundation, i conceded temptation
stayed true to my black people in every situation
23 i made a life changing choice
did it as a stepping stone so my kids can have a voice
now im 24 and im still nothing
but i figured i could say a little something
Mar 12, 2014
Mar 12, 2014 at 7:14 PM UTC
My deepest thoughts consist of a world filled with equality
walking down the street without a police man stopping me
As time goes by the worlds mind continues to be amputated
stripped of its freedom, something that has been tolerated
For many years, people shedding so many tears
the damage has been done and now we all fear
What we can't see but we know it exists
even tho this world is broken it can be fixed
Take our pride and lift it high
the opressors couldn't even wrap thier head around why we sit and cry
fight back, think ahead and speak up
keep composure but believe me i know your fed up
live your life doing the things you want to do
being happy sometimes it means just being you
Real people do what they want, opressed people do what they can
We are the people that make up this world so lets take a STAND!
Mar 12, 2014
Mar 12, 2014 at 4:20 PM UTC
Her eyes are the window of a soul
Where only the white thoughts spring
And they look, as the eyes of the angels look,
For the good in everything
Her lips can whisper the tenderest words
That weary and worn can hear
Can tell of the dawn of a better morn
Till only the cowards fear
Her hands can lift up the fallen
From an overthrow complete
Can take a soul from the bottom of sin
And lead it to christ's dear feet
And she can walk wherever she will
She walketh never alone
The work she does is the master's
And god gaurds his own
Mar 11, 2014
Mar 11, 2014 at 12:49 PM UTC
i wanna live cause i got so much to offer
i wanna die cause i got nothing to give
i wanna live cause i care about my community
i wanna die cause they dont care about me
i wanna live to change the world
i wanna die cause the world doesnt wanna change
its all a trick, this game we call life
what goes on after it
we believe or have faith in what we think happens after we die
that in itself lets us know if we want to live or die
i wanna live but yet i wanna die
its just that simple but yet complicated
contradiction
Mar 11, 2014
Mar 11, 2014 at 9:12 AM UTC