He gave and gave till he wasn't the same
smiles and tears, hiding behind his name
He swears he isn't blue, but I can tell that's not true
He let me in enough to care, but not enough to truly share
Though I suppose it's my fault.
I couldn't really talk
Now we're both hurt, and we're falling aprt
could we ever have a new start?
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 9:52 PM UTC
I am not me
I wonder if you can tell
I hear your silent cry
I see your silent tears
I want to help
But I am not me
I pretend that I am here
I feel I talk too much
I touch your mind
I worry what you think
I cry for you
Because you don't cry for yourself
But I am not me
I understand your pain
I say that it'll be okay
I dream that you'll believe me
I hope that you will trust me
But I am not me
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 9:46 PM UTC
Under the maple tree, where gold lays to waste;
ink on the page, her only escape.
Or putting on the paper, this pretty landscape.
Oh that bright bulb, it shone so bright,
but nothing lasts forever, not even her light.
It faded rather quick, and all went dark.
Now her bare feet brush along the bark.
Under the maple tree, where gold lays to waste;
nurtured by the tears that fell from from her face.
She gave up hope, thus the rope.
The future of her past gone away;
everything black, it fades today.
That soft blue soul has turned to gold;
Her mind, midas and unconsoled.
With the care that she always gave so much,
Her mind went blank, and her end adjudge
Under the maple tree, where gold lays to waste;
one more soul has been erased.
upon the sight of faded light,
she as well gave up her fight
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 9:36 PM UTC
I ******* hate this
Everything
I hate that i can't help
I hate that i starve im ******* empty
Always empty
Can't help
You’re hurting. You’re all hurting
I have nothing to give
I'm so sorry
I want to give everything to you
I love you
But i can’t feel it.
I'm so sorry, you deserve better
You never should have met me.
No
I helped
I used to.
I saved you?
But not anymore.
Don’t you ******* dare think it was your fault.
It was mine, i give up
Everything hurts
This hurts
Not doing this hurt
THORNS
IT ALL HURTS
Empty vocals
I cant cry
I CAN'T
I care but i don't
I care but i don't feel it
I love you but i DON'T FEEL IT
IM SORRY
I'M SO SORRY
You deserve more
But i can't leave you
I CAN'T
You have me on a fishhook
Im around you finger and i'm glad to be there
Not romance but i love you so much
I will always care
I will
Please dont give up
Please
For me
Don't leave
Hold on, for me, for you.
You’re stronger. You always have been
The dark would feel so nice
Empty
Welcoming
No words
I always wanted to be mute
It’d be so simple
But i always come back
Always
Always
Always
Always
Always
Always
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 9:33 PM UTC
Why am i not me?
This hair isn’t mine
These thoughts aren’t mine
This face
These eyes
Arms
Stomach
Hips
But these hands are mine
What they make are mine
But they don’t connect
Why?
Why am i not me?
I hate ‘me’ but it’s better than this
This?
What is this?
It’s not me.
I’m not even sure it’s human
Or alive
Why am i not me?
Why do i feel like a video game character?
Or someone from a movie?
Why can’t i just be me?
Who is ‘me’
Is ‘me’ better than this?
I don’t know
I don’t know
I DON’T KNOW
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 9:31 PM UTC
I can’t
I just can't
I can’t sit still
I can’t move
I can’t talk
I can’t eat
I can’t sleep
I can’t do homework
I can’t keep my grades up
I can’t talk to teachers
I can’t talk to classmates
I can’t stay the same
But i never really change
I can’t care
But I can’t not care
I can’t live anymore
But I can’t die
I live for her,
Even when i can’t
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 9:30 PM UTC
Glass is prettier when it's broken
and eyes, so gorgeous with tears.
A blade when it's failed,
a gun when it's hot.
A ship when it's sailed,
a love when it's not.
Fireflies at night,
to fire and fight;
a feeling of passion, a bird in mid-flight.
Left and gone,
a heart and it's song.
The apple has rotted;
a fleeting swan song.
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 6:56 AM UTC