I close my eyes to nothing
A dreary darkness holds me until
I find myself falling into the distance beneath
Falling into the chasms of broken hopes and dreams
Falling into nowhere
Until I have lost touch with reality
Until my whereabouts are disconnected
Torn into shreds of existence, where no one may locate them again
Until I feel that I stop
Stop in the middle still floating into the inky black of the chasms that endeth not
Stopped at the very fabric of a world we live in
Completely stopped
Until I see shapes
Iridescent triangle and out of these mere triangles more come out
Until they become kite shaped
Of the deepest hues of black and white
Circling me surrounding me
Suffocating me
Until they then knock some common sense into me
I float there and realize
Like a stationary doll that has unwinded its troubles into the owner
Like hamster that lay there defenseless from the predator
Useless in all realization
It is then and only then, I find myself what fear really is
It is simple
You are not scared of the dark nor of creepy white being that haunt our lives named ghosts
No, you are not
You are scared of the moment when you realize your fear is there
Living with you, breathing with you
Yes, the moment you realize
That is what you truly fear
That is what I happen so to realize in that very moment
As I lay there floating
Floating in a world of white and black diamonds
Circling you, surrounding you
Suffocating you
Realization lies there waiting for your presence
It lies there stealthily
Biding time as it is
I soon find myself regaining simple cultures of the past that had been taught to me
Began to sit upright, folding my hands in my lap
Staring into the face of precisely what fear accommodates
The thing that has been established by many
But many have gone insane after addressing the true fact of the existence of fear
Though I am not here to tell you the sorrowful tales of such
I am not here to recite the journeys of others
And of those did not go insane at the thought of such revelations
Stand tall in front of it
But they cannot hide it forever
Until they cower back, seemingly shrinking in size
Because no one lives without fear
Therefore no one lives without realization
Therefore no one lives while glaring realization in the eye
Not because of ****** that they cease to live
Realization itself does not admit to killing these innocent beings
No, they **** themselves
They realize their dangerous feat and therefore cannot bear the realization
They have always been frightened of realization
But to realize that one is challenging it
Is the fate of the brave
‘Tis not why here I am
Telling you this tale of valor and possible stupidity
Alas, I’ve strayed off the point
Distracted in perils before us, any of us in fact
As I fixated my eyes on the perfect form of realization I seem to realize what others perished to
They also could have died by the next processes as your brain begins to comprehend
Questions that is
Many, many, many, oh so many questions
Popping into your noggin
Or perhaps your heart
l bet l could find them in your stomach
Everywhere and anywhere, not just your usual questions
But they were different
Very, very different
Not slightly different because l can’t tell if l have made this clear enough
But they are very different
Is this really real, or is it an optical illusion?
Am l living in a hallucination?
Could everything be a figment of my imagination?
Are people really there, or am l mentally ill?
Do I really see things, or could l be imagining them as if l am blind?
Is this really real, or is it an optical illusion?
Questions of the end of the world these are
Namely the last one
“Is this really real, or is it an optical illusion?”
Jan 28
Jan 28, 2026 at 9:32 PM UTC