a
deafening
silence
screams
between
them
he sits
looking
at her
with an
open mind
and an
open heart
she sits
looking
down
hiding
behind her
barriers
one day, he thinks
one day
she will
break through
the barriers
she will
break through
any afflictions
that may exist
he smiles
at her
knowing that
she
is
beautiful
through
the pain
through
the sadness
through
the emotions
through
the fear
she
is
beautiful
for her
his arms
will be open
his mind
will be open
his heart
will be open
he will
give her
the
love
that
she
deserves
Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 9:44 PM UTC
from my book "this and that and everything in between" - https://www.amazon.com/author/rickadamspoetry
each night
when I go to bed
I lay on my side
because there are
knives in my back
and knives in my heart
lying on my back
or on my chest
would only push the
knives in further
and deeper
as if they’re not
far and deep enough
I have managed to
remove some of
the knives and
continue to live
while bleeding through
the open wounds
although I suppose
removing the knives
doesn’t matter
at this point
for every knife that
I remove
there’s another one
or two or three that
are stuck in me
I don’t even feel
the pain anymore
I just know that the
knives are there
and so do those who
stuck them there
I remember who
stuck each knife
and when they
stuck it in
and stupidly I forgave
a couple of them
only for them
to stick the knife
in me again
never trust the hand
that stabbed you
even once
if they stab you
once they will
stab you again
some may remove the
knife and heal the
wound themselves
but this is rare
the majority
if not all
of those
who stuck the knife
in you would rather
watch you bleed to
death than remove
the knife and heal
your wound
yet
I am not
bleeding to death
I am
not dying
so
with that
I shall remove
each and every
one of these knives
if anything
each one of
these knives
has only made
me stronger
if I can
survive this
I can
survive anything
Aug 22, 2018
Aug 22, 2018 at 10:24 PM UTC
no matter
the
personal situations
no matter
the pain
no matter
the sadness
no matter
the conflicts
no matter
the frustrations
no matter
what lies
on the surface
beneath
all of that
is pure
beauty
your heart
wants to be
filled with love
and my heart
has love
to give
so
come
to
me
we shall
complete
one another
we shall
make
each other
whole
our
hearts
shall
become
one
our
love will
remain
strong
no
matter
what
Aug 11, 2018
Aug 11, 2018 at 9:00 PM UTC
thirty years, it has been
thirty years of pain
thirty years of wondering
thirty years of questioning
thirty years of not knowing
thirty years of crap
just plain old crap
the same crap
over
and over
and over
and over
thirty years
thirty years
of feeling
like
I don't
belong
belong here
belong there
belong anywhere
I'm smart, I've been told
I'm nerdy, I've been told
I have goals, I've been told
I know what I want in life, I've been told
those things I've been told
as if they are bad things
negative things
the wrong things
as if to say
"no, no, no,
you're not cool
unless you're a
lazy unmotivated
********
that's not me
never was me
never will be me
so to those
who told me
those things,
the hell
with them
their attitude
stinks worse
than a beer ****
Aug 5, 2018
Aug 5, 2018 at 8:42 PM UTC
she and I argued tonight
we were going out to eat
I wore black pants with white socks
she said that I looked stupid
this is how I dress, I said
you can’t go like that, she said
I can and I will, I said
we argued, argued, argued
she had enough and she left
I drank wine and ate pizza
and I wrote a few poems
one of them being this one
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 11:07 PM UTC
I live in 2300 square feet
of dark cold house.
there are steel canisters
of fresh ground coffee.
there is a coffeemaker
that is old but working.
there is a cedar box
full of discount cigars.
there is a wooden rack
stocked with cheap varietals.
there is a media player
with hours of blues tunes.
there is a desk with pens
and reams of lined paper.
take those away from me
and I will have nothing.
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 10:57 PM UTC
last night was our night
we went to a show
and the show started
and we watched the show
and we liked the show
and the show was over
and so was our night
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 10:55 PM UTC
twin brothers were out
celebrating their 40th birthday.
to their left
there were babies and toddlers in strollers.
to their right
there were elderly people in wheelchairs.
when the brothers were leaving
they turned out of the parking lot
onto a three-lane highway.
they were in the middle of the road.
Jul 30, 2018
Jul 30, 2018 at 10:54 PM UTC
last night was spent with my five friends;
my five best friends in the whole wide world.
their names are Cabernet,
Pinot,
Merlot,
Bordeaux
and Shiraz.
they are always there when I need them;
they relax me
and soothe me.
they help me through my problems,
dull my pain,
and help me sleep at night.
they will never ignore me,
avoid me,
desert me,
deceive me,
lie to me
or steal from me.
we were all together late last night,
my five friends and I.
when we started the night,
they were full of body
and color.
before I knew it,
four of my five friends
were gone.
the only one left
was Merlot.
it was late
and I was tired.
they’re good at that,
my five friends.
they’re good at
making me feel tired
and sleepy.
they’re good at playing tricks on me too.
“how do you feel?” asked Merlot.
“I feel good,” I replied.
“well,” said Merlot,
“just wait until morning…”
Jul 19, 2018
Jul 19, 2018 at 10:30 PM UTC
I take a break from writing,
go to a diner not too far
from my house.
I walk in and grab a
local newspaper and
sit down at the counter.
I order a ham and cheese
sandwich on toasted wheat
and a water.
I open the local newspaper
and start reading.
a man is sitting a couple
seats down on my left
having a cup of coffee
and also reading the
local newspaper.
“everybody’s crazy,” he tells me.
“I guess so,” I tell him without
looking up from my paper.
“must be something in the water,” he tells me.
I just smile and nod.
he finishes his coffee,
folds the newspaper
and tosses it aside,
drops fifty cents on the
counter and walks out.
I finish my meal,
pay and leave a tip,
walk out and leave
to go back home.
while I’m driving
my stomach turns
and bubbles and growls
and then it feels like
my insides drop straight
down and overcrowd
my bowels.
must be something in the water.
Jul 18, 2018
Jul 18, 2018 at 10:16 PM UTC