My wrists throb as my exhaustion and pain flow out like the rain that caresses my cheeks as I sit there cold and shivering, watching the waves crash and hit the rocks with a sound as melodious as the sound of my blood pushing through the valves of my heart. O love, how sad it is that while you ran- they left.
Aug 12, 2017
Aug 12, 2017 at 11:28 AM UTC
*You shouldn’t be there
At the back of my mind
You shouldn’t be
My morning and waking hour thoughts
You shouldn’t be
my 11:11 mantra
You shouldn’t be
my wish upon a shooting star
You shouldn’t be there
It’s very unconventional
You should be here, right here
Right beside me, here in my arms*
Apr 5, 2017
Apr 5, 2017 at 4:12 AM UTC
Out on the dock
You asked for my heart
So many times it was torn apart
This one is different
I lied to myself but it was ok
Sometimes smiles minimize pain
Doubt in the back of my mind
I show you my scars
My ocean of secrets
My oasis of truth
My bottles full of past things I never let go
Reopen old wounds for you
Very unconventional
But it was you and you deserved to know
You broke bottle after bottle when I begged you to stop
Tore out my heart and left me dying on the dock
No tears fell from my eyes
You looked into mines, turned around and never took a second glance
But I begged for you to come back and help me
Screamed your name but you ignored
As my blood mixed with the salt in the ocean
I saw into the future
You with another girl
Where was I
Out on the dock
Waiting for something that wasn't going to happen
Unconventional and unintentionally
I cut off anything that could've healed me
Surrounded my self with glass
Bound by the past
Love I couldn't let go of held me back
Apr 5, 2017
Apr 5, 2017 at 4:08 AM UTC
And I had to walk away
I was just hoping at least he noticed I didn't run
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 1:57 AM UTC
*as the birds still sing, as the children still play, as the lovers still kiss, and as the poet still picks up his favourite pen to write, i'll love you forever as though it is my second nature, for you taught me how to love -- with every ounce of my body and every drop of my blood -- you taught me what love is*
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 1:56 AM UTC
I will always be too much for some people.
I will always be too emotional.
Too affectionate.
Too clingy.
Too needy.
I will always not be enough for some people.
I don't emote enough.
I don't display enough affection.
I don't touch enough.
I don't articulate enough.
I will always be too much.
Too damaged.
Too guarded.
Too cold.
Too paranoid.
I will always be too much.
Too strong.
Too opinionated.
Too passionate.
Too forgiving.
I will always be too much for some people,
But I'd like to think that maybe
For you,
I am just enough.
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 1:55 AM UTC
It's our memories that I'm still in love with,
The ones I can't let go of.
I've been telling myself that it's love,
That I still love you.
but honestly after all this thinking,
I can see clearly now.
You were my first love,
And that's why I can't let go-
But that doesn't mean I love you.
I love you, and I always will,
But between choosing loving myself and letting you go,
Or instead loving you and holding on to you,
I'll choose the former cause I don't think there was anything worth fighting for.
There was for me, there was so much for me,
But to you I was nothing. So its time I learn to forget
Sep 5, 2016
Sep 5, 2016 at 5:58 AM UTC
He may still love you. He probably still does. He probably doesnt know what he wants. He probably still thinks about you all the time. But that isnt what matters. what matters is what he's doing about it, and what he's doing is nothing. And if he's doing nothing about it, You most certainly shouldn't do anything. You need someone who would go out of their way to make it obvious that they want you in their life.
Sep 25, 2015
Sep 25, 2015 at 10:41 PM UTC
I tried so hard to wipe away
Those tears falling from my eyes,
I felt your hand hold mine
Then I finally saw paradise.
‘Twas the loveliest day of my life
When auburn leaves tend to fall,
And we were each other’s remedy
From the heartbreaks we had before.
Along the drive we used to tread
Despite our busy days ahead,
We’ve had enough of a sweet talk
A cup of mocha to keep us from cold.
I felt the warmth of your embrace
Beautiful times I’d forever treasure,
Those tender words your lips can’t miss
Not even the genius can measure.
It was not a piece from so-called forever
We never vowed of anything fake,
We’re just off to cherish moments together
Never thinking of such a blue fate.
We gathered each chronicle we get
From the perfect portrait we made,
As it showered upon us with gentle haste
We never thought it would fade.
The clock continued to take control
Of the love we both loved to have,
But the world seems to have taken its toll
We weren’t meant to last, no, I guess not.
Slowly, smiles were all for pretense
Distance were made between two hearts,
Conflicting thoughts then grew immense
Seems like it's all going to fall fast.
Million miles away from each other
Cried in vain, we’re drifted apart,
Just cannot think of any better
Watch the raindrops fail to stop.
Soon it was winter in the city I’m in
A snowflake formed a cut on my cheek,
But it was nothing compared to this pain
A delightful stuff that proved me I’m weak.
I tried to run away from the lame scene
Millions of footprints behind me were seen,
I don’t know where to go or where to hide
I just have to cry but no one’s by my side.
Tears rolled over my forever bleeding scar
I wiped it away and it hurt so much more,
I knew I will never find comfort again
Staying miserable for life, sure as said.
And then again, I felt that same old warmth
Only to realize that in your arms, I was wrapped,
You said you just can’t make another start
Without me, our days only seem lonely apart.
That was the day I realized once more
Just like the old memories of us before,
A sip of love will surely take it all
And in love, I know, we will forever fall.
Jul 30, 2015
Jul 30, 2015 at 11:48 AM UTC