Resilientinnerhealing - Hello Poetry

I remember you I can only keep you in my heart If you don’t find yourself It’s okay But my love was never gone It was unconditional It was magnetic I remember the white tee you gave me The kiss goodbye I remember seeing you again I remember the same energy I thought it was just me who felt the spark I didn’t realize how much I meant to you You said you still loved me but I didn’t know I meant so much until you came back to me You asked me to be yours again but I had so much growing up to do I didn’t drive I wanted more for myself I just didn’t know how then to express my thoughts You saw through my masks You knew I loved you Like I loved you But we couldn’t hold on We had to let go We had different journeys Years went by but our love stayed the same I let you go to find yourself The you you had to heal inside I remember the hotel cameo Sometimes I drive by Feels like so long ago and it is but not in my memories And the hotel when I saw you last The feelings and watching a movie not knowing how to say goodbye Trying to be present so I could remember you Your touch smell and face The way I felt with you How u held space for me How we talked How safe I felt How I can love you and other ppl Only u can understand if u remember yourself If u search for yourself Free choice Free love Freedom

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May 18, 2025

May 18, 2025 at 7:20 PM UTC

Sovereignty

I remember you I can only keep you in my heart If you don’t find yourself It’s okay But my love was never gone It was unconditional It was magnetic I remember the white tee you gave me The kiss goodbye I remember seeing you again I remember the same energy I thought it was just me who felt the spark I didn’t realize how much I meant to you You said you still loved me but I didn’t know I meant so much until you came back to me You asked me to be yours again but I had so much growing up to do I didn’t drive I wanted more for myself I just didn’t know how then to express my thoughts You saw through my masks You knew I loved you Like I loved you But we couldn’t hold on We had to let go We had different journeys Years went by but our love stayed the same I let you go to find yourself The you you had to heal inside I remember the hotel cameo Sometimes I drive by Feels like so long ago and it is but not in my memories And the hotel when I saw you last The feelings and watching a movie not knowing how to say goodbye Trying to be present so I could remember you Your touch smell and face The way I felt with you How u held space for me How we talked How safe I felt How I can love you and other ppl Only u can understand if u remember yourself If u search for yourself Free choice Free love Freedom

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To My Love, We survived. Through the storms, through the silence, through the ache of not being understood we are still here. Not perfect, not untouched, but held. By something greater than both of us. We searched for freedom, both in our own ways, and we didn’t know it then, but the search was the meaning. In that longing, we found God. And in God, we found that we were already whole. The devil tried to break me. Tried to convince me that pain was my portion. But he didn’t see the strength of the Spirit living in me. Or the quiet, stubborn hope that still lives in you. We pour into each other, even when we feel empty. And somehow God fills us back up. We still hope for one another. And that hope? That’s love. That’s grace. That’s us. I believe in who we’re becoming, not by force, not by fixing but by remembering who we already are in Him.

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Apr 15, 2025

Apr 15, 2025 at 11:55 PM UTC

Gods Plan

To My Love, We survived. Through the storms, through the silence, through the ache of not being understood we are still here. Not perfect, not untouched, but held. By something greater than both of us. We searched for freedom, both in our own ways, and we didn’t know it then, but the search was the meaning. In that longing, we found God. And in God, we found that we were already whole. The devil tried to break me. Tried to convince me that pain was my portion. But he didn’t see the strength of the Spirit living in me. Or the quiet, stubborn hope that still lives in you. We pour into each other, even when we feel empty. And somehow God fills us back up. We still hope for one another. And that hope? That’s love. That’s grace. That’s us. I believe in who we’re becoming, not by force, not by fixing but by remembering who we already are in Him.

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Ponder this… We were never born of sin.  We were born in God’s image.  And God is not broken. He is perfect.  He is love.  He is good.  He is whole. So we were born whole. Sin is real… But it is not our origin.  It is not our identity.  It’s a distortion, a distraction— A veil over the truth. And the truth is… You were never broken.  You were always loved. You are still whole. Remember who you are.  Remember that inner voice calling you back.  Heal this generation.  Rewire our children to know:  We are not born of sin.  We are born of wholeness. And if we remember… Our children’s children can know generational peace.

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Apr 15, 2025

Apr 15, 2025 at 6:58 AM UTC

Returning back to you

Ponder this… We were never born of sin.  We were born in God’s image.  And God is not broken. He is perfect.  He is love.  He is good.  He is whole. So we were born whole. Sin is real… But it is not our origin.  It is not our identity.  It’s a distortion, a distraction— A veil over the truth. And the truth is… You were never broken.  You were always loved. You are still whole. Remember who you are.  Remember that inner voice calling you back.  Heal this generation.  Rewire our children to know:  We are not born of sin.  We are born of wholeness. And if we remember… Our children’s children can know generational peace.

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I went to church today after years of not going. I talked to the pastor and poured my sorrows to him. Something hard to do is asking for help and suffering in silence. We aren't meant to suffer in silence. I've learned a lot about accountability finding others we can trust to help us because we can't do things alone. Thank you friends for holding your men accountable and trying to get them to meet men who can hold each other accountable emotionally and physically. I know who I am but it was also because I've suffered and sought myself. I love you ladies

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Apr 13, 2025

Apr 13, 2025 at 4:34 PM UTC

April 13

I went to church today after years of not going. I talked to the pastor and poured my sorrows to him. Something hard to do is asking for help and suffering in silence. We aren't meant to suffer in silence. I've learned a lot about accountability finding others we can trust to help us because we can't do things alone. Thank you friends for holding your men accountable and trying to get them to meet men who can hold each other accountable emotionally and physically. I know who I am but it was also because I've suffered and sought myself. I love you ladies

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Went to therapy But therapy is really self reflection A therapist just helps guide you see what you're thinking asking questions to help u dive into your thoughts What you put in is what you get Talking to others I trust I love my spouse But we’ve hurt each other Evolving comes with transition We both needed to heal individually When I react he shuts down When he shuts down Old patterns sweep in Anxiety hits I feel controlled Am I able to be myself Arguments without resolution creates turmoil Conversations with understanding bridges the gap Emotional connection requires u to look at yourself in how u show up for others how u perceive things to be and why u feel that way I am whole because I am not my conditions anymore I am still w flaws but I accept them and I'm learning and growing I have always been me but without the upbringing I grew up in I realize I was able to change because I had others who believed in me Others to challenge the normalization of my conditions Others who gave me a new perspective a new outcome I looked and I found Intentions Manifesting Courage Resilience Strength Love Compassion Encouragement Trust Awareness

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Apr 10, 2025

Apr 10, 2025 at 9:15 PM UTC

Change

Went to therapy But therapy is really self reflection A therapist just helps guide you see what you're thinking asking questions to help u dive into your thoughts What you put in is what you get Talking to others I trust I love my spouse But we’ve hurt each other Evolving comes with transition We both needed to heal individually When I react he shuts down When he shuts down Old patterns sweep in Anxiety hits I feel controlled Am I able to be myself Arguments without resolution creates turmoil Conversations with understanding bridges the gap Emotional connection requires u to look at yourself in how u show up for others how u perceive things to be and why u feel that way I am whole because I am not my conditions anymore I am still w flaws but I accept them and I'm learning and growing I have always been me but without the upbringing I grew up in I realize I was able to change because I had others who believed in me Others to challenge the normalization of my conditions Others who gave me a new perspective a new outcome I looked and I found Intentions Manifesting Courage Resilience Strength Love Compassion Encouragement Trust Awareness

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Those who haven’t done self healing will never be at peace in their minds Spiritually god is always with us in our minds in our thoughts and the devil is winning because Society is man, not God Society made the Bible fit their purpose The Bible was always a book on self love, Self reflection The pain, the guilt and shame you feel Is the conditions or trauma you've endured Society used it to control and manipulate which is what our world has become. We're a world leading lost sheep. Generations lost because we don't know who we truly are. Only those who gain understanding of themselves will find Gods words in the Bible were for you. The Bible is not to be interpreted by man to use for their own gain. Society lies. We need connection We need community We need each other We are humans who need community Church is not just a temple If you ever do the work to heal your inner wounds you will find peace Peace in your heart Society…you have to question everything u were taught but u also have to see past your perception of reality

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Apr 10, 2025

Apr 10, 2025 at 6:25 PM UTC

Religion & Society

Those who haven’t done self healing will never be at peace in their minds Spiritually god is always with us in our minds in our thoughts and the devil is winning because Society is man, not God Society made the Bible fit their purpose The Bible was always a book on self love, Self reflection The pain, the guilt and shame you feel Is the conditions or trauma you've endured Society used it to control and manipulate which is what our world has become. We're a world leading lost sheep. Generations lost because we don't know who we truly are. Only those who gain understanding of themselves will find Gods words in the Bible were for you. The Bible is not to be interpreted by man to use for their own gain. Society lies. We need connection We need community We need each other We are humans who need community Church is not just a temple If you ever do the work to heal your inner wounds you will find peace Peace in your heart Society…you have to question everything u were taught but u also have to see past your perception of reality

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If you could see yourself reaching to your sisters for connection to let them know you're thinking about them Is it possible or too scary to think about? To be vulnerable and honest with them about your thoughts You are capable of love and compassion I know this because I have this with you I know every relationship is different When communication is built on assumptions and perceptions rather than clarity and understanding it's so easy for feelings to get hurt and for conflicts to go unresolved You are a good person You have good intentions I hope you reach out to your sisters We all need connection

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Apr 10, 2025

Apr 10, 2025 at 4:03 AM UTC

Depression

If you could see yourself reaching to your sisters for connection to let them know you're thinking about them Is it possible or too scary to think about? To be vulnerable and honest with them about your thoughts You are capable of love and compassion I know this because I have this with you I know every relationship is different When communication is built on assumptions and perceptions rather than clarity and understanding it's so easy for feelings to get hurt and for conflicts to go unresolved You are a good person You have good intentions I hope you reach out to your sisters We all need connection

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It broke me in silence To know he wasn’t aware To pretend and lie to me That I wasn’t truly loved That he used me That everything I felt was true I was gaslit I was duty It was conditional It was all a performance He gave me crumbs to keeps me hoping Words became empty Because the actions weren’t there Awakening to the reality Of what was really happening Broke me And still I hoped he would change I thought his patience meant he cared It was to keep me quiet as he did what he wanted He said why can’t I accept him as he is I said I can’t betray myself anymore

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Apr 9, 2025

Apr 9, 2025 at 4:55 PM UTC

Betrayal

It broke me in silence To know he wasn’t aware To pretend and lie to me That I wasn’t truly loved That he used me That everything I felt was true I was gaslit I was duty It was conditional It was all a performance He gave me crumbs to keeps me hoping Words became empty Because the actions weren’t there Awakening to the reality Of what was really happening Broke me And still I hoped he would change I thought his patience meant he cared It was to keep me quiet as he did what he wanted He said why can’t I accept him as he is I said I can’t betray myself anymore

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I'm not rejecting you I just don't want to be made small anymore. There's things you kept hidden from yourself and I'm seeing it for what it is. I'm not against you but I know I can't do the work you need to do for yourself. It's never been about not accepting you it's that I had to shrink myself to fit what u wanted and I can't do that anymore You already have your gifts and strengths. If you feel good it's an illusion because I've told u I've been neglected and I can't do it anymore. It's not enough

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Apr 9, 2025

Apr 9, 2025 at 11:40 AM UTC

Goodbye comfortable

I'm not rejecting you I just don't want to be made small anymore. There's things you kept hidden from yourself and I'm seeing it for what it is. I'm not against you but I know I can't do the work you need to do for yourself. It's never been about not accepting you it's that I had to shrink myself to fit what u wanted and I can't do that anymore You already have your gifts and strengths. If you feel good it's an illusion because I've told u I've been neglected and I can't do it anymore. It's not enough

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It's interesting to think of war and how it shows so much of the destruction others can do and how there's so much evil in war itself because there's no rules only when u come back home do you come back to the structure of rules and regulations placed. You feel like a different person yet u have to pretend like nothing happened. You have to forget things that have changed you because others don't understand what happened to you in war. I guess there's the guilt and pain of loss. Did you get to grief or are you holding in the grief? Have u forgiven yourself or those you had to leave behind? There's so much balance needed in how you buried the pain that needs to come to light that made you who you are. I guess what I'm sensing is there's a lot of unspoken things you wish you could express but haven't had a chance to say and it could feel like betraying ur family but it's really betraying yourself if you don't address what it is you had to let go of. I also don't need to know it's between you but if you wanted to journal or just be in your thoughts, I think it would help you sort what you may have suppressed. You feel just as much as anyone and love even in your quiet state. You aren't an inconvenience Your voice matters. When u find your voice you can tell others what you think and there will be no fear or doubt. Don't let your insecurities or conditions growing up dictate how u show up for yourself and others

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Apr 7, 2025

Apr 7, 2025 at 9:19 PM UTC

Grandpa

It's interesting to think of war and how it shows so much of the destruction others can do and how there's so much evil in war itself because there's no rules only when u come back home do you come back to the structure of rules and regulations placed. You feel like a different person yet u have to pretend like nothing happened. You have to forget things that have changed you because others don't understand what happened to you in war. I guess there's the guilt and pain of loss. Did you get to grief or are you holding in the grief? Have u forgiven yourself or those you had to leave behind? There's so much balance needed in how you buried the pain that needs to come to light that made you who you are. I guess what I'm sensing is there's a lot of unspoken things you wish you could express but haven't had a chance to say and it could feel like betraying ur family but it's really betraying yourself if you don't address what it is you had to let go of. I also don't need to know it's between you but if you wanted to journal or just be in your thoughts, I think it would help you sort what you may have suppressed. You feel just as much as anyone and love even in your quiet state. You aren't an inconvenience Your voice matters. When u find your voice you can tell others what you think and there will be no fear or doubt. Don't let your insecurities or conditions growing up dictate how u show up for yourself and others

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