When I was in 9th grade, I fell in love
Went through the whole chariad
We had matching necklaces
In secret held each other's hands
The necklaces were yin and yang
Darkness and light
I wore it, believing our love was worth the fight
Never took it off because I knew we were right
When your dark chocolate eyes were laced with mine
I saw no lies when you said your heart was mine
But as time flew by, I realised you did not lie
It was just my heart that wasn't worth a dime
I was in Grade 9 when I fell for you
When I thought darkness and light could be two in one
But I was too innocent, I was not a damsel in distress
So your hands laced with someone else's dress
I liked you best
My friends can attest
That I denied when they said you were in her bed
But I guess two worlds can't collide, your words against mine
Now laced with lies, saying there are other guys
But I wanted you
I was a kid, yet I knew what we had was true
Now in the 12th grade
Still writing of you in hidden phrases
I should be over it, I know, but there are times
When I look in the sky, I remember my first love
The dove and the raven are destined to fall
Intertwined as if fate is bored
Feb 11
Feb 11, 2026 at 5:41 PM UTC
It’s been a month since you broke me
Broke me in so many more ways than I could imagine
My self worth is gone
I know im pretty
I know im hot
I know im clever
I know im funny
But im not happy
I dont love myself fully because i dont even know how to love my self completely again
I never knew the parts of me that i unconsciously loved that are now betrayed and left behind
And i dont know how to get them back
I feel unworthy
I feel “not enough”
I cant hold my head up high like i did before
When the problem at hand was way bigger than this small change
But the change was in my heart so now it affects me in every way
I build myself up but it all comes down when i see him again
I feel all over again how i was discarded
how little i meant to him when he meant too much for me
All these feelings come rushing back and i fall back down the stairs i climbed
I dont know how to de attache my name from his
Myself from him
To be me again
And not the girl that was left by him
Feb 11
Feb 11, 2026 at 5:37 PM UTC