I see the tilt of your shoulders,
When you’re in a rush-
The impatience in your voice,
When you’re barking “medium dark roast”
I know you have a million places to be,
But at the moment, you’re in this one
Why not embrace your presence,
Rather than, expedite its exit
You are welcome to take up space,
Here and everywhere you go
To the girl who accusingly says,
“She made it wrong again”
I see that you have been deeply hurt,
And I hope you heal from that pain
When I see your impatience,
I see your fear
When I feel your judgement,
I feel your pain
You are human and so am I,
Can we not honor and treat each other as such?
Apr 3, 2019
Apr 3, 2019 at 3:05 PM UTC
Beautiful, sad girl
If I could kiss away your sorrows, I would
If I could go back in time and tell you
That it will all be over soon, I would
If I could wrap you in my arms
And say that you are stronger than you realize-
I would tell you that your fears are warranted,
But you will not fear them forever
I would scrape my nails ******
At the coffin of your pain,
Just to give you a single moment of relief-
I would do this for you, but I know I am helpless
I cannot hold you in my loving embrace
I cannot lift the boulder from your back weighing you down,
But I can feel your pain and I honor it deeply
A woman, still armored with a child’s wounds
Apr 3, 2019
Apr 3, 2019 at 2:45 PM UTC
I think
Some part of you
Still keeps itself
At a distance,
Just in case
I think
You might not care
About getting to know my world
My friends,
And who they are
I think
You haven’t tried
To know them
And some part of you,
Probably doesn’t want to
I give every effort
To know your friends
And your family
And what makes them,
So special to you
What is holding you back,
From getting to know me?
Dec 16, 2018
Dec 16, 2018 at 1:56 PM UTC
I feel you in the wind
And in the grass
That dances beneath my toes
You are the moments of joy
And the days filled with sorrow
Always a reminder
I look up at the evening stars
And there you are, staring back
You are every star, in every constellation
Even when I cannot spot
Your special celestial design
I see you in everything
I do not weep for my pain
I weep for joy because your pain is gone
I weep for love because our love is everlasting
My first best friend,
My beloved brother,
Goodbye, for now.
Dec 6, 2018
Dec 6, 2018 at 10:48 AM UTC
I left and
Broke a heart
I took what I
Desired
And forgot what
Weighted me down
And now,
I’m here
And I realize
That must have hurt
Your pain was real
And now, so is mine
With all my heart,
I am so very sorry
Nov 6, 2018
Nov 6, 2018 at 5:16 PM UTC
I recall:
Sitting on that tan couch
With the cushions
That would always stain
Our toes
Entangled with each other
Dancing over the covers
Of a microfiber blanket
Your playful smile
Caught off guard on camera
A moment frozen in time
Solidified into a memory
You fall asleep like you’re one to do
And I watch as your heavy eyes droop and close
I’m reading but I have no idea what the page says
All I remember is the soft lines of your face
Nov 3, 2018
Nov 3, 2018 at 9:48 AM UTC
In the process of becoming
I have seen the worst in me
Mix with the worst in others
In the light of awareness
I have felt regret
Regret beyond any prediction
In the solitude and silence
I have brought myself
Closer to myself- closer to god
In the wake of anger
I have fueled the fire
I have kissed the scorched earth
I have begged for forgiveness
I have asked for answers
I have sought revelation
But only found more questions
Is this my answer?
Is this the journey?
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 9:02 PM UTC
When the sun doesn’t shine
I take a break from life
And I smoke a last cigarette
And I listen to sad songs
You were dying for so long
But now, it’s like you vanished
And I don’t know how-
Or where to begin
When you left in your way
You took with you, a piece of me
And so I keep the best of you
Always
But the sadness will fade
And I’ll keep what remains
Because you, will always be
A part of me
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 8:43 PM UTC
When I think of you,
I still hear your deep rasp
A muffled, familiar roar
Carrying the weight of your words-
Yes, when I remember you
I smell your half extinguished cigarette
And feel your warm touch
A familiar burn
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 8:35 PM UTC
I listened to your vinegar words
Tell me how to miss you,
Pleased to learn
When you break something
It grows back stronger
If I could ask any question of you
It would have to be,
Do you remember, when you decided
I wasn’t worth
Your precious time?
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 8:26 PM UTC