Light
I tried
The curtains as my witnesses
Tried to bail out my banned soul
The moon hears all the whisperers
Breathing thicker air than us
Hear the groans and moans of wolves
Across my river's path of tears
Crushed under wheels of carrousels
Like anyone hold near
These horrid beasts under my dirt
Spare me my troubled sin
It's not a soul I hide in there
For I never let light in.
Oct 21, 2018
Oct 21, 2018 at 1:12 PM UTC
Dead inside
Just want to die
See my thick blood drip to the floor
Drizzling over those fake memories
Fake love
Fake remedies
My heart still at war
Slit my wrist
Just one more time
I can't bear, I can't exist
Blood dripping down the drain
Rusty old pain
Take away yesterday
So I can't get hurt tomorrow
Please
Stab me
Slice me
Don't want to stay
I cannot belong here
Won't survive either way
Hand me the knife, will ya
No worries
I am doing great.
Oct 16, 2018
Oct 16, 2018 at 9:12 AM UTC
**** me please
I can't endure
All this pain you put me through
Shoot me now
And you will see
The soil flowing out of me
Dead flowers drying in the heat
My grave filled with deceit
Rotten hope
Not build to last
Ghost that'll hunt you
From my past
Thinking you did the right thing
Still your actions sting
Poison in my long cold heart
Like that we'll never be apart.
Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 10:37 AM UTC
You broke my heart
But I love you
With all the pieces
Shattered 'round
This walking carcass
Hollow eyes
Still blossoming
With bright purple flowers
All I need
Is to think of you
The shards of my heart light up as one
Make me whole again
Jul 1, 2018
Jul 1, 2018 at 6:27 AM UTC
Almost expecting you to pull up my drive way
Like nothing happened
Like nothing's broken, nothing's scarred
Here to light my heavy heart
Songs I've never heard
Doing their best
To tell me their meaning
Screaming, yelling, weeping
Your message through the skies
Of incomprehensible loneliness
Feelings travel through the mists
Unsure if they even exist
I feel my mind
Gliding down
Deeper and deeper I am sinking
Into this state of wishful thinking.
Jun 23, 2018
Jun 23, 2018 at 1:40 PM UTC
Still've got your voice inside my head
Saying all these beautiful things
Funny, heartbreaking, loving things
Memories I can't forget
Not strong enough yet to accept
You're no angel, ain't got no wings
Everytime my phone rings
A part of me believes it's you
To tell me you do love me
That there's truth in said things
But it's never you.
Jun 16, 2018
Jun 16, 2018 at 2:49 PM UTC
Oh, raise your hand up child
Hold it up to the light
Those sparks in your eyes
Don't let them dim tonight
I know your eyes see fear
When lost they look around
Can't hope for too much dear
Your heart remains unfound
And cold
Is what wraps around you
To hold
Those wolves that hound you
Hear them howl
See what it amounts to
I know that scowl
I've worn that mask too
Gathered here, miles from home
Aching feet through the dirt
Dragging hearts around like stone
Notes of pain written on your bones
So raise your hand
So that I might find you
Not all roads should be walked alone
Sometimes the company we keep
Is what we end up calling home
Jun 13, 2018
Jun 13, 2018 at 7:15 AM UTC
Longing to tell you everything
All that's hiding in my mind
All the spiders in my brain
And all the songs that are left to sing
My words so meant for you to hear
Explaining why my heart is so pitch black
At the same time, glowing with this deep red love
I just desperately want you near
Thinking of your loud sweet voice
And your scarred heart, broken so many times
In so much need of healing
I don't think I have a choice
But to lay awake
Worrying about your troubled mind
Feeling all your pain inside
Both our hearts and lives at stake.
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 4:07 PM UTC
Hated you a thousand times
Called you a million names
Now hating you into a rhyme
With every word it takes
I hate the way you tell your jokes
Hate even more that I smile
Can't stand the way you roll your smokes
And how you never walk the line
I don't even like your golden hair
And how it never looks the same
Despise the way you live so free
How you know no shame
I hate the way this poem makes me feel
My anger fades away
I know and knew this long before,
I could never hate you a day
I loved you a thousand times
Whispered a million sweet little names
While hating you into a rhyme
With every tear it takes.
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 3:25 PM UTC
There you are,
Long-awaited gentleman
Black figure in the shadows
I know you
Know what you do
While you wait there in the black
You do not scare me
No grief
Part of me is you
You will always be there
Always exist
Without you, no me
Dark and yet familiar
But I'm not making a mistake
I'm not going with you.
Jun 10, 2018
Jun 10, 2018 at 9:35 AM UTC
