PointlessRomance
My favorite color is black, I'm a female, I love literature and hate improper grammer...and I'm a bit obsessed with anime! ^-^ / I think romance is a pointless dream...and yet like most girls, It's on my mind constantly, I daydream of course. / If you were to ask me about it I'd say true love is a joke...nothing more than a thought. / Love is an overused word that's meaning was set on fire and neglected...
You kissed me all better
At least that's what I thought
You blew through my life
It just couldn't be faught.
You kissed down my neck leaving bruises along.
You made me a wreck,
It all went to wrong.
I loved you so deeply
We were the perfect love song
You said you'd never leave me
We were together so long
I still miss your body
Being pressed against mine
But our time is over
Minus the fairy tale line.
Jul 2, 2015
Jul 2, 2015 at 4:41 AM UTC
I don't know how I was made to believe,
That you were to never deceive,
We were always together and all the time very strong,
I think I was holding on for a bit too long.
All the time I moved on and I had hope,
When people told me that with that I shouldn't cope,
You made me believe that my dreams would come true,
With your own serpent ways too
I thought you were the one all along,
But now it's proven that I was totally wrong.
Every time you make a mistake, you promise that it's your last,
And I don't know how you made me forget so fast.
All the time you were trying to change me,
When I was trying to be the best anyone can be,
All you think about is how to use me, I can now see
To get the satisfaction you want for free,
At first I thought this made me so special,
You mde me feel so confused at times,
That I felt like committing the worst of crimes.
Why was I holding on? I really have no clue,
When my heart and mind confirm that nothing is true.
Jul 2, 2015
Jul 2, 2015 at 4:32 AM UTC
I wake as your friend You wake as my lover
I speak as your lover You speak as my friend
I act as your possession You are my possesion
I rebel as your cover A means to an end
I hurt for your compassion You live for my acceptance
I injure for your respect Though it's never been withheld
I confide for your emotion You crave my direction
I give and you collect Never will you rebel
This is madness This is Sparta
This is insanity This is the price of exellence
I can't be everything for you I am your everything
You can't be everything for me I am magnificence
You treat everyone the same I am fair and righteous
As a friend, yet as a lover And yet you seek more
And it's a cruel, cruel game Dare you grow capricious
From your twisted love, no one recovers You'll become one I abhor
I am done You are confused
(I am never done) And I will not calm you
I am sick *As I am amused*
(But I'm not tired) As I drop little clues
I will run You'll never leave me
(I won't run) But I'll abandon you
Because I love you You'll always need me
(A better word is 'desire') And I'll never need you
Let me go! My grip is vice-like
(But you're not holding me) I'm not ready to let you go
Bring me back! If I lose you, 'my dear'
(But I never left) I must find yet another 'beau'
Love me only! And I've not the time to put effort
(But you love equally) In little minions like you
Push me away! I've not a care to give for
(Or bridge this rift) You insects I never knew
Please, disappear I am your torture
One day you'll understand But I am your salvation
That the twisted way you love I am your executioner
Could coax death from any human And I am your redemption
Please, disappear! You'll wish me dead forever
Though I'll weep when you're gone You'll wish me dead I know
I know sanity will return And you'll wish yourself deader
And I'll eventually move on. When away I finally go.
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 3:38 PM UTC
Insanity,
Insanity.
Who knew that you'd be my clarity?
From the lies,
the I wonder why,
I've finally seen that the sun doesn't shine.
The moon glows,
the depressed take their blows,
and no one else knows.
Insanity,
Insanity.
Who knew that you'd be my clarity?
Death,
Oh Death.
Who knew you'd make me happy during my final rest?
Being alone,
eyes of stone,
I've broken every single bone.
It starts with a twitch,
when they call you rude names like a *****
and here comes your one hundredth stitch.
Death,
Oh Death.
Who knew you'd make me happy during my final rest?
Heart,
you poor aching Heart.
How long will it take you to fall apart?
I cut!
It's my mouth that I keep shut!
You're nothing but a ****** and clogged up rut!
You make me want to find the rope,
the stinging pain when you're rinsed with soap,
**** you and all your hope!
Heart,
you poor aching Heart.
How long will it take you to fall apart?
Blade,
the very sharp Blade.
Why do you always make me cave?
Worse than pills,
I'm addicted to the chills.
The loss of blood is what is making me ****
I'm completely done,
you've finally won.
Can I at least say goodbye to the sun?
Blade,
the very sharp Blade.
Why do you always make me cave?
Memories,
the flashes of Memories.
Why did you add to the painful casualties?
Remembering you,
I had thought it was all through.
Never thought you'd come back so soon.
The messages I never sent,
the revenge I wished I had vent,
and the little sanity I had left, you bent.
Memories,
the flashes of Memories.
Why did you add to the painful casualties?
Plants,
the powdered and processed Plants.
Why did I even give you a glance?
Addicted,
eventually evicted,
appearance now withered and wicked.
Not a soul in sight,
no money for a bite,
and trying not to go down without a fight.
Plants,
the powdered and processed Plants.
Why did I even give you a glance?
Jealousy,
sweet and fiery Jealousy.
How'd you give me strength as I looked at this reality?
Hated!
Completely out jaded!
I'm nothing but a memory faded!
Filled with hate!
A fight will break out at this rate!
Why can't I remember the last time I ate?!
Jealousy,
sweet and fiery Jealousy.
How'd you give me strength as I looked at this reality?
Suicide,
sweet sweet Suicide.
It is now you that I decide.
Always there,
I knew you were waiting for me somewhere.
You were watching me from high above air.
You're an angel,
no matter how painful,
you've kept me stable.
Suicide,
sweet sweet Suicide.
It is now you that I decide.
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 3:35 PM UTC
Sometimes you think
you are going insane
flinching from the sink
though it is most mundane.
You could swear that
you had seen
a strange shimmer,
a reflection, or a gleam.
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 3:27 PM UTC
A place with elves
dwarves, hobbits and men
A place with tales
We hear again and again
A place with adventure
That will never die
A place to laugh
And a place to cry
A place with songs
Of ancient days
Sung by elves
Merry and gay
A place where you hear
The hobbits laughter
Where they live
Happily ever after
Where mountains are filled
With silver and gold
Where the dwarves mine
Mighty and bold
A place with men
In cities of stone
And their great king
Sits on a beautiful throne
A place with lore
To others unknown
A place that I love
A place that's my own
There I live
And there will I die
In middle earth
My heart will lie
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 3:25 PM UTC
5th grade...
Moments of pure happyness
Joy was almost inevitable
things we're almost perfect
beautiful
I had THE best friends in the world
middle school is when **** hit the fan
people moved away
I lost contact with almosy everybody
friends thinking about suicide
and our happy little "family"
Has crumpled to dust and ash
by a fire we ignored
and let stay ablaze
for far to long
I miss the simplicity of 5th grade
I had all the friends I would EVER need
I was almost top of the class
life was all around good
Because high school just ruined everything
boys make things ten times more complicated
and now I'm in college
wonder what will go wrong next..
Because some days
I just feel like hiding under the covers
Hiding from life
and it's wicked games...
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 3:22 PM UTC
Let me stay amont my books
Let me play pretend
For when I leave my perfect world
I'm bound to meet my end
Jun 4, 2015
Jun 4, 2015 at 4:24 AM UTC
Love is overrated
It's never how it seems
You convince yourself
You're happy
But it's just another dream
You don't know how to tell them
You don't feel the same way
When they ask if you're alright
You lie, every things OK
What are you supposed to do
When the magic disappears
When the only thing they give you
Are insecurities and fears
They have simply no idea
On the way they makes you feel
You can't believe you ever thought
This love was really real
You wish with all your heart
Things were like they were before
But the way that things are going
You're being driven to the door
Love is overrated
Of that there is no doubt
But you need
To have a broken heart
Before you find it out
Jun 4, 2015
Jun 4, 2015 at 4:08 AM UTC
Forget forever; love people as long as they're deserving of love.
And as soon as they're not...set they're house on fire and walk away with a sadistic smile :)
Jun 4, 2015
Jun 4, 2015 at 4:00 AM UTC