Not the voice—
though I still hear it
in the way wind moves through curtains
on certain afternoons.
Not the hands—
though I still feel them
when I lift something heavy,
when I hold something breakable.
What remains is stranger.
The way he tilted his head
before answering a hard question—
I do that now.
The way he hummed without knowing,
a tuneless thing,
while reading the morning paper—
I caught myself doing it
last Sunday,
and froze,
and listened
to the ghost in my throat.
He taught me to tie a tie
by standing behind me,
our hands moving together
in the mirror.
Now every knot I make
is his hands
repeating their lesson.
He never said "I love you."
Not once.
But when I fell from the bicycle,
when the skin peeled from my knee
like wet petals,
he picked me up
not with his arms
but with his voice—
steady, unhurried,
as if falling
was just another way
of learning to rise.
I understand now.
Some men keep their love
in a locked drawer.
They open it only
when no one is watching.
They leave it open
just long enough
for the air to change.
Once, I found him asleep
on the couch,
the newspaper spread across his chest
like a second skin.
I watched his breath go in and out,
in and out,
and thought:
this is what holds the world together—
not prayers, not promises,
but a man breathing
in a room full of people he forgot
to tell he loved them.
He is gone now.
The house feels taller,
emptier,
like a body that has stopped breathing.
But sometimes,
when I am alone,
when the phone rings at the wrong hour,
when I solve something difficult,
when I laugh too loud at my own joke—
I feel him turn
in that vast earth,
turn toward the sound of me,
and smile
the way he smiled
when I wasn't looking.
Father,
you did not leave me.
You simply changed addresses.
Now you live
in the space between my bones
and my skin,
in the pause between my breath
and my next breath.
I carry you
the way the earth carries water—
invisibly,
essentially,
always.
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 6:25 PM UTC
There is always a bit of fear when it comes to falling in love. As scary as it is there is nothing better then feeling the electric shock and awe of finding new love and there is no denying the spark of a new love. A new love that takes your words and breath away is as pure as the heavens themselves
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 6:25 PM UTC
I went driving down that old road. Life passing me by like an old film black and jagged. Static like snow fall on over my eyes. The memories flooding me out like heavy rain
Mar 16
Mar 16, 2026 at 7:12 PM UTC
Someone I used to know a long time ago and I had a complicated relationship all these years I carried that weight as to never forget how bad I hurt them. But recently I’ve learned new things about them and regardless of the past they came a long way. As little as it’s worth from me they are stronger braver and as a whole better than all of y’all. But that growth comes at a cost of the weight and burden of pain. Something some of y’all know very little about.
Mar 6
Mar 6, 2026 at 4:44 PM UTC
if i had chosen
i would not have met you
i would have chosen a plain with no name,
a sky with no weight,
a day no one remembers
i would have chosen a silence
no one guards
i would not have met you
not because you are you
but because after you
i don’t know how
to live in a world with no after
every day now has a name
every silence waits
every threshold
someone already there
i could have been a man
who didn’t know
a man with no address in his own chest
a man whose palm was only for holding
but you came
now i know
i would not undo it
i would not have met you — if i had chosen
but i didn’t choose
you did
here i am
a man who thought he guarded silence
now silenced
by your name in me
i don’t speak it
not to spare you
to spare the world
the sound of it,
said as if for the first time
still i say it
inside
always
and each time
silence doesn’t leave
it gathers in my palm
and waits for you
to open it
i would not have met you
i didn’t want to
but now that you are
how could I want anything
before you?
how could i choose
not to be
when you are?
i would not have met you
that’s the last lie
i still tell myself
truth is:
nothing before you waited
nothing after you will come
and you — you are here
on the threshold
as if you’d always sat there
as if the gate wasn’t there
until you came
to open it
not with your hand
with you
it opened
metal sighed
iron remembered
it wasn’t iron
just something
waiting
to be touched
i would not have met you
but i did
no more questions
Mar 6
Mar 6, 2026 at 10:47 AM UTC
My friends are tumbling down
Like jack and Jill
Their arms are bruised and bleeding
All for that painful thrill
And I can’t help them
No matter what I say
They don’t trust a kid
Who looks forward to each new day
I dig my nails into my skin
But I stop before it bleeds
Because I’m afraid of what may happen
If they look and see
And they don’t talk to me
They prefer to post online
Their desperation grows
But in real life, it’s “fine”
I try and ease it with humor
But alas I am talked over
Because they don’t trust a kid
Who really is a pushover
We really are just kids
I wish they could understand
We haven’t lived long enough
Is this really all they’ve planned?
Mar 6
Mar 6, 2026 at 10:47 AM UTC
when god lets my body be
from each brave eye shall sprout a tree
fruit that dangles therefrom
the purpled world will dance upon
between my lips which did sing
a rose shall beget the spring
that maidens whom passion wastes
will lay between their little *******
my strong fingers beneath the snow
into strenuous birds shall go
my love walking in the grass
their wings will touch with her face
and all the while shall my heart be
with the bulge and nuzzle of the sea
Jan 29
Jan 29, 2026 at 2:21 AM UTC
I went back to old habits. Burying demons and emotions. Cutting my own heart. Personal demons led to a broken mind. My weakness led to a shattered heart
Jan 28
Jan 28, 2026 at 5:00 PM UTC
If the choice were ending the rest of the world or keeping only you, I would erase the spine of time itself, let every future collapse into silence, and stand unashamed beside you as the last two beings in existence.
—InkWept
Jan 22
Jan 22, 2026 at 2:34 PM UTC