Pen_Cris-Blu - Hello Poetry

It’s hard to wake up... All I want is sleep Heavy are my eyes... My body unfeeling The day ends... My pain is revealed Flowing streams of tears... Chest hurting Until sleep comes No more smiles again... Trying not to care Pretending I’m ok... Alone in the dark The days feel the same... There’s no one left Thoughts tear through me... Too many emotions run Until sleep comes again Everything is torture... Sometimes air doesn’t exist Time is slow... Zoning out is constant Or my heart feels as if it will take its last beat... Headaches are ruthless Skin untouched and cold... Cries and unheard screams In sleep pain feels distant... Nightmares still occur The wait unknown... So I’ll suffer Until sleep comes again and again

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Apr 2, 2019

Apr 2, 2019 at 4:19 AM UTC

When sleep comes

It’s hard to wake up... All I want is sleep Heavy are my eyes... My body unfeeling The day ends... My pain is revealed Flowing streams of tears... Chest hurting Until sleep comes No more smiles again... Trying not to care Pretending I’m ok... Alone in the dark The days feel the same... There’s no one left Thoughts tear through me... Too many emotions run Until sleep comes again Everything is torture... Sometimes air doesn’t exist Time is slow... Zoning out is constant Or my heart feels as if it will take its last beat... Headaches are ruthless Skin untouched and cold... Cries and unheard screams In sleep pain feels distant... Nightmares still occur The wait unknown... So I’ll suffer Until sleep comes again and again

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I still taste you and I savor the passion that burns inside for you Your soft almost angelic lips still caress mine even when there’s no kiss Your smell stuck in my memory continuously haunting the air I breathe If I close my eyes I can still feel your hands roaming my skin searching but never finding And your voice forever echos in my ears the words you spoke a lullaby to my brain The image of your face becomes the center of my dreams as everything else fades away I realize the security and comfort found In your arms is like the place they call home The rhythm of your heart beat is as beautiful as the sweetest melody to me The smile on your face melts me as if I was ice and you were the blazing sun I’ll never forget these things they will always be a thought These are my forevers forever... can I be your forever too?

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Mar 21, 2019

Mar 21, 2019 at 6:11 AM UTC

The Forevers

I still taste you and I savor the passion that burns inside for you Your soft almost angelic lips still caress mine even when there’s no kiss Your smell stuck in my memory continuously haunting the air I breathe If I close my eyes I can still feel your hands roaming my skin searching but never finding And your voice forever echos in my ears the words you spoke a lullaby to my brain The image of your face becomes the center of my dreams as everything else fades away I realize the security and comfort found In your arms is like the place they call home The rhythm of your heart beat is as beautiful as the sweetest melody to me The smile on your face melts me as if I was ice and you were the blazing sun I’ll never forget these things they will always be a thought These are my forevers forever... can I be your forever too?

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We fight to stay afloat Standing in a boat called life Only able to leave behind a note Scarred from the cuts of a knife Once they said to me: Life will only become harder Beyond comfort is a never ending sea Swayed back and forth; pushed out farther Drowning and then saved A repetitive vicious cycle Wanted then no longer craved But surviving this life is crucially vital We all try to go with the flow Pressured but never forced Just trained to believe we know Our minds taken never endorsed.

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Jan 14, 2019

Jan 14, 2019 at 1:54 AM UTC

Going with the Flow

We fight to stay afloat Standing in a boat called life Only able to leave behind a note Scarred from the cuts of a knife Once they said to me: Life will only become harder Beyond comfort is a never ending sea Swayed back and forth; pushed out farther Drowning and then saved A repetitive vicious cycle Wanted then no longer craved But surviving this life is crucially vital We all try to go with the flow Pressured but never forced Just trained to believe we know Our minds taken never endorsed.

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Air cold Breathe visible Sounds dormant Thoughts grow loud The cold cuts, Sharp and deep Reminding the pain lives No matter how suppressed Feelings pour out What was unseen Secrets, lies, dreams Now lay exposed Conflict settles in True discovery Or another masquerade Choices pending Actions frozen Fix it Make it stop Cover up Pretend it’s not happening Just keep going.

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Dec 17, 2018

Dec 17, 2018 at 1:49 PM UTC

Unsettling

Air cold Breathe visible Sounds dormant Thoughts grow loud The cold cuts, Sharp and deep Reminding the pain lives No matter how suppressed Feelings pour out What was unseen Secrets, lies, dreams Now lay exposed Conflict settles in True discovery Or another masquerade Choices pending Actions frozen Fix it Make it stop Cover up Pretend it’s not happening Just keep going.

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Here and then gone. Love me or love me not. Your partner then your pawn. Left as nothing but a thought. Drowning then saved. A gasp of air just to go under. Lungs full and air again craved. Pulled deeper what a wonder. An inconsistent taste now. & the aroma of sweet lies. Heard is the break of a vow. & felt are the screams and cries. Wanting me then no more. So much of myself wasted. Denying the truth in my core. You were the best thing I should have never tasted.

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Dec 17, 2018

Dec 17, 2018 at 1:47 PM UTC

Inconsistency

Here and then gone. Love me or love me not. Your partner then your pawn. Left as nothing but a thought. Drowning then saved. A gasp of air just to go under. Lungs full and air again craved. Pulled deeper what a wonder. An inconsistent taste now. & the aroma of sweet lies. Heard is the break of a vow. & felt are the screams and cries. Wanting me then no more. So much of myself wasted. Denying the truth in my core. You were the best thing I should have never tasted.

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