She tries to walk
with grace in every step
She tries to talk
with kindness in every word
She tries to move
with gentle and care
She tries to love
with every ounce she can pour
She tries. . .
Oh, how she tries.
She tries to walk
tucking her knees to keep them from buckling
She tries to talk
without spewing out parts of her broken heart
She tries to move
freely while holding back the storm inside her
She tries to love
even when she couldn't have it back the same weight
She tries. . .
Oh, she tries.
Even with a storm
brewing in her heart
Leaving her thoughts into chaos
As her melting soul
Flows out her eyes
She wipes off her tears
She tries. . .
One more
Jul 25, 2022
Jul 25, 2022 at 2:19 AM UTC
I became your nightmare
the disturbance in your slumber
Something you thought good and fair
turned out to be your monster
As the good nights turned sleepless
and tears soaked your pillows
You managed to wake up from this
- from the nightmare that no one knows
Jun 29, 2022
Jun 29, 2022 at 12:47 PM UTC
You were more like a dream
Something that didn't exist in reality
Hard to reach as it seem
But there you stood in front of me
Something so pure and innocent
Ideal yet very real
I wish to stay in the moment
but I wake up
wanting
to fall back into the arms of my dream
Jun 29, 2022
Jun 29, 2022 at 12:31 PM UTC
Brother
Feel that cold floor
Though it's nowhere near
Your heart's frozen core
Let your body rest
Let your broken parts scatter
Let your heart sink
As it grows heavier
Feel everything
-the world gives you
Take it all
Then let it go
Don't allow yourself
Be comforted by sorrow
Don't let the pain
be everything you know
Pick your self up
Piece by piece,
Collect your broken parts
Then put them back in place
Apr 7, 2022
Apr 7, 2022 at 1:09 AM UTC
I drown down these thoughts
with alcohol
But the only one drowning is me
Sinking deeper— taking my toll
Though i know
i must not let this be
I've been trying to keep afloat
—for days
Planed my escape,
In many ways
Still, I end up at the bottom
With the bottom of a bottle above,
In the abyss all i could fathom
Is that everything I had have
— left,
The darkness and freezing cold felt
right,
As limbs stopped struggling,
These knees knelt
Apr 7, 2022
Apr 7, 2022 at 12:59 AM UTC
Travelled to places
But never moved on
I hated my self more
But never loved you less
But I'm just glad
-that you've found someone
Displeased
- on how I overlooked you
And it's laughable
that it makes me cry
The one who knows me the most,
I am nothing more but a stranger now.
Mar 26, 2022
Mar 26, 2022 at 9:23 AM UTC
Hold it in
Afraid to bother anyone
Keep it in
Hoping the pain will soon be gone
So i held it
But found its way out my eyes,
I kept it
But not the whimpers and the cries
To hold it i tried
But my mind is now breaking,
Did my best to hide
But can't keep my heart from bursting
So my pen did the crying
When my eyes could not
It poured what I've been keeping
In scribbles and in blot
It expressed my pain
Like the tears on my pillow
Pouring like rain
In ink, that no one else know
On a sheet of paper
I laid pieces of my heart
Rearranging them together
Into a simple piece of art
Hoping this will be the start
I wrote to No one
- the cries of this aching heart.
Hoping . . .
this poem reaches everyone
Mar 25, 2022
Mar 25, 2022 at 8:23 AM UTC
I wake up to a dream
As the sun kisses my face
Opened my eyes to your blinding light
You surrounding me with your warm embrace
You break the silence of my dawn
Chase away shadows of my loneliness
Added color to my grey scaled life
Illuminating my world of darkness
Your gentle "good morning" is my vitamin D
At noon, you beam with all your might
- your frustrations and aspirations; stories fill the afternoon
Of how you shined all day, till it's time for good night
But one sunset came
I closed the door, shut the blinds
I hid from the reach of your light
In my shadow where I don't want to be found
Till the day did not come and night never left
I searched for the sun, but finding - i never did
I know your there,
somewhere
Shinning on someone, i wish was me
. . .
Feb 17, 2022
Feb 17, 2022 at 12:00 AM UTC
You may be surprised by what you see
Or by what you don't see . . . Anymore
How these lips can't smile as wide as yesterday
How the colors in my eyes faded,
Leaving only black, white and grey
You may be dumbfounded when you see how my feet that once was quick to help out having arms wide open
Now have learned to step back and run away
With clenched fists beating on this heart.
You may have once heard me bursting in laughter even in the weirdest conditions,
But now a deafening silence even in the happiest moments.
But you don't need to extend a hand
Trying to pull my past back to the present.
Nor resuscitate this heart as if it has gone.
But try to understand that this heart has not died but only molted.
And that all of these,
All that you see is. . .
Still me.
Jun 14, 2020
Jun 14, 2020 at 9:02 AM UTC
People look at me and see a smiling face
As if everyday couldn't get any better
But they can't see the frown in my shadow
Its buckling knees tired and weary,
Slowly giving from supporting me for too long
Trying my best to stand strong
They can't see the every tear it sheds
Nor hear its voice as it cries out for forgiveness.
You may not hear it but look
Take a look at my shadow
You may see a blank image of me
But it will show you a different story.
May 1, 2020
May 1, 2020 at 2:42 AM UTC