No_one - Hello Poetry

It was only by loving you that I could love myself. I never meant to hurt you. You wear that mask so well I can't tell if I did. I choose to think you're oblivious. After all, you don't know You don't know anything at all. I love you. I wish I didn't I'm moving away soon so why Why even try We'd have a month at best It's unfair I don't want to love you You don't love me. I know you don't. I see it in your eyes. I just want to kiss you, One last time. I want to see you smile again.

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May 8, 2021

May 8, 2021 at 12:56 PM UTC

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It was only by loving you that I could love myself. I never meant to hurt you. You wear that mask so well I can't tell if I did. I choose to think you're oblivious. After all, you don't know You don't know anything at all. I love you. I wish I didn't I'm moving away soon so why Why even try We'd have a month at best It's unfair I don't want to love you You don't love me. I know you don't. I see it in your eyes. I just want to kiss you, One last time. I want to see you smile again.

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I almost want to apologise for my lack of writing. I go for months, years. I try to be healthy, To change my poetry into something "Productive." I always come back. Something about it, Being honest with myself. No, I'm not okay. For that brief time, Where I am creative, Happy, Allowed to be whoever I am. Before I pretend that this moment Never existed. Before I pretend I'm okay again.

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Apr 12, 2021

Apr 12, 2021 at 12:22 AM UTC

Maybe I'm just being pessimistic.

I almost want to apologise for my lack of writing. I go for months, years. I try to be healthy, To change my poetry into something "Productive." I always come back. Something about it, Being honest with myself. No, I'm not okay. For that brief time, Where I am creative, Happy, Allowed to be whoever I am. Before I pretend that this moment Never existed. Before I pretend I'm okay again.

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Anything is better than being alone. Maybe I could stop caring about others. Because I begin to hate myself. To lose myself. So very ******* poetic. But with you, I want to die. Without you, I already am.

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Apr 12, 2021

Apr 12, 2021 at 12:18 AM UTC

Pointlessness

Anything is better than being alone. Maybe I could stop caring about others. Because I begin to hate myself. To lose myself. So very ******* poetic. But with you, I want to die. Without you, I already am.

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I wish I had some meaning In this meaningless world.

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Apr 12, 2021

Apr 12, 2021 at 12:15 AM UTC

Untitled

I wish I had some meaning In this meaningless world.

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I chose life. I could have gone, Peacefully, In my own time. A choice. Life or death. To continue to suffer, To fight. To sleep in peace, To end. It was the hardest decision of my life, But the most natural too. Out of spite, Out of fear, Out of love. Call it what you will.

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Jan 7, 2021

Jan 7, 2021 at 1:01 AM UTC

Life

I chose life. I could have gone, Peacefully, In my own time. A choice. Life or death. To continue to suffer, To fight. To sleep in peace, To end. It was the hardest decision of my life, But the most natural too. Out of spite, Out of fear, Out of love. Call it what you will.

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The night Is cold And long. I cannot Think. I want to Be loved. But I Will die Here. Cold Alone Forgotten As it Should be The pain Makes My existence Fade. Scattered thoughts. I love you.

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Jan 7, 2021

Jan 7, 2021 at 12:57 AM UTC

Suicide

The night Is cold And long. I cannot Think. I want to Be loved. But I Will die Here. Cold Alone Forgotten As it Should be The pain Makes My existence Fade. Scattered thoughts. I love you.

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I love how some people Can articulate their thoughts so clearly. They can say so little And amount to so much. I know I should stop Comparing myself to them. They have meaning. My mind's a mess.

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Nov 10, 2020

Nov 10, 2020 at 1:45 PM UTC

An Untitled Mess

I love how some people Can articulate their thoughts so clearly. They can say so little And amount to so much. I know I should stop Comparing myself to them. They have meaning. My mind's a mess.

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But I guess I have to come to terms with it. It doesn't have to be so bad. I don't always have to be waiting for someone to save me.

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Nov 4, 2020

Nov 4, 2020 at 5:16 PM UTC

Is this what it means to be human?

But I guess I have to come to terms with it. It doesn't have to be so bad. I don't always have to be waiting for someone to save me.

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I don't know why this is bugging me so much. Maybe it's the fact That I have to be so Vulnerable. I don't even have to talk about myself that much. So why am I So Scared? It's just a silly little essay. I don't want anyone to know. That I'm not okay. Because I Will Be. I just need a little more time. Hurting.

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Nov 4, 2020

Nov 4, 2020 at 5:14 PM UTC

Private Spiralling.

I don't know why this is bugging me so much. Maybe it's the fact That I have to be so Vulnerable. I don't even have to talk about myself that much. So why am I So Scared? It's just a silly little essay. I don't want anyone to know. That I'm not okay. Because I Will Be. I just need a little more time. Hurting.

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It's been a while, hasn't it? I don't know if what I've been doing is "healing", But one can hope.

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Nov 4, 2020

Nov 4, 2020 at 5:12 PM UTC

Old Friend

It's been a while, hasn't it? I don't know if what I've been doing is "healing", But one can hope.

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