The depths
I despair
One more sip
And I'm alone
So close
But I'm not proud
It could end
Right now
But I don't want that
And that's not what this is about
So I breathe
Even though I can't
Anymore
I'm deep enough now
And the emotions are confusing
And I love you
And that blurs into her, mom
I can't reconcile this
And here we are on the precipice
Of a child's love
This is painful and my burden should be yours
Yet here I am carrying it
I hope you've reconciled our distance
Cause I'll just keep driving
I just don't know any direction but forwards
And then the song changes
And I can't live without you
In my mind
When I die
You two become one
And my love is justified
Sep 10, 2022
Sep 10, 2022 at 12:42 AM UTC
My curse is to go on living
No reprieve
No rest
I must suffer to the fullest
Until my debt is paid
And I return this life
Until the end
Adieu
Jun 11, 2022
Jun 11, 2022 at 1:30 AM UTC
Ideations
Confound
The sadness surrounds
But I'm weak
And the constitution
Lies deep
Untouched
A part of me weeps
Brother I can't do it
Almost
Jun 11, 2022
Jun 11, 2022 at 1:24 AM UTC
Wasted words
Almost spoken
But I bit my tongue
Almost
Jun 11, 2022
Jun 11, 2022 at 1:20 AM UTC
I never wanted to let go
But I was at least a decade away
From loving you
You and me
Just weren't meant to be
Jun 11, 2022
Jun 11, 2022 at 1:16 AM UTC
Circling around
Each other
So close
But never connected
Lost
Jun 11, 2022
Jun 11, 2022 at 1:13 AM UTC
When I was little
I would press my face
into the space
where your back touched the seat
and I would sleep
While you drove us home
I dont know if ive ever admitted to myself
how much I needed you
But these arent words of regret
because I know I told "you"
many times
so many times I shared my heart with you
I needed to know "you knew"
"I" needed to know
that this was one regret I woudn't carry
In your absense
I don't remember where we were coming from
and I don't remember arriving
all I remember
Is the weight of the empty
space in between
Loving you
and being me
Apr 9, 2021
Apr 9, 2021 at 2:31 PM UTC
How do I explain
The 37 years
of rejection
That I have carried
Alone
In my heart
And now that I know who you are
I don't want to know you
-
A lifetime has passed
In a single moment
There's nothing left to rhyme
Dec 18, 2020
Dec 18, 2020 at 10:19 PM UTC
Woe are my dreams
And woe that is naught
In time though it seems
All is forgot
Apr 29, 2020
Apr 29, 2020 at 11:59 PM UTC
I could write a thousand words
Just summarizing what I read between yours
But I don't, or I won't
I think it's time to let "this"
ride off into the sunset
The horizon has been patient
and enough is probably enough
So, I'll say goodbye
For now, or forever I guess
I think the only lesson
We are meant to learn in life
Is how to let go
Nov 30, 2018
Nov 30, 2018 at 10:35 AM UTC