though Im 14, I still get treated differently
I ended up finding out that the people that I call friends
Are fake friends
I fiend out that the people that I sweare were my friends or treated me differently
Loved me and treated me with kindness
But they never did
I have always been hiding my emotions to myself
My real friends will always know when I'm not feeling it
But sometimes they wont stop asking whats wrong.
Which kinda gets annoying
Sometimes when I'm trying not to cry
My friends always ask me what's wrong
That always makes me start braking down
They will always comfort me
Unlike my fake friends
To where people don't think I am a attention seeker
Sometimes when I go back home and start watching videos I end up braking down
Sometimes when I'm having an argument with one of my family members like my dad, stepdad, and mom I start crying out of anger.
Now my life is completely different after everything that has happened
I get maid fun of for tiny little things
Like last year at my grade thing that you get setifikits for like having the best highest average in your academic class.
I was getting called up cause I did indoor track the coach said my name wrong
My name is Mya the My part is prononced like my the the a sound
But he prononced it as Me instead of My
Which caused people to never shut up about how the coach said my name wrong
People wouldn't stop making fun of my last name which is Beavers
Like I understand that it is a animal
But they keep on pronouncing it without the S
Some people even asked me is it ****** or Beavers
I always say it Beavers
But no they still pronounce it wrong.
Even my mom knew that I was going to get made fun of cause of my last name
And guess what, she didn't do anything about it.
And my younger sister she's like 9
Says that she gets made fun of cause of her last name Which is Simmons
Like thats a simple last name
And what I said was
"Braylee you do not understand what it feels like being made fun of cause of something that you couldn't stop which is getting your last name. My name is an animals name but plura. Yours is just Simmons. So you have no room to talk"
That always got on my nerves
When she got bit my best friends dog which she doesn't really like people.
My mom has the adasity to blame it on me.
Like, I couldn't stop that.
Like I understand that I'm 'supposed' to protect her
but I couldn't stop that
When she was in like 3rd grade I think she got
Well I don't want to say it by another girl she said will doing it
"When you get older your husband or boyfriend will do this"
Like how does a 3rd grader know about that
And my mom still blames it on me.
Like how am I supposed to protect her from that if we go to different school districts and If I was at her school I'll be in middle school.
Like woman if you want me to protect her
Should have not signed the papers that my dad has custody over me.
And with my step dad
He scares me
Like I remember one time when I accidently hit my younger sister (his biological child) in the face he ran from the kitchen
he litterly cornered me with his hand above me on the wall.
Like I didn't mean to you litterly hurd me saying sorry
But no you want to traumatize me.
Like when My mom or Grandmother is home he's all sweet
Not until their gone.
He treats me and my sister differently from Amari (my sister/his biological child)
Like I understand I'm your step child
But that doesn't give you the right to treat my like you do.
I told him "Just because I'm not your biological child doesn't mean you can treat me like this. Like Im not my step moms biolical child. She still treats me as her own child"
Like you are always trying to be better than my dad and step mother
But if you want to you gotta not traumatize me cause I accidently hurt Amari.
Feb 6
Feb 6, 2026 at 3:12 PM UTC
Though he's gone I will never forget him
He will always be in my heart until the end
Though I promised him that I will be there in the beginning and the end
I wasn't there for him at the end.
Though he died on November 1 of 2025
I still feel bad that I wasn't there for the end.
I shouldn't of had gone to that party.
If I knew that he was dying alone by himself
He died so early that day.
I still blame myself
That I wasn't able to be there with him at the end
I still feel like he died to young
I still feel like he didn't deserve what happened to him
We all thought he was getting better cause he started eating again.
But he got to active causing him to blot
I hope Beau is having the best time of his life in puppy heaven
Feb 6
Feb 6, 2026 at 1:35 PM UTC