You just cant deal with rejection and you know it
You dont love me
you looked like you hated the fact that i breath
you stared deep into cold blue eyes
with those soulful brown orbz
Bearing in to the depths of my soul
you glared at me
After i spat your love for me back in your face
You had gotten on one knee
A victim of unrequited love
I never loved you, you saw yourself as one thing
After you pulled out that velvet glad box i realized
(Tsungayi Kazembe)
Oct 5, 2016
Oct 5, 2016 at 4:49 AM UTC
So I just sat there
thinking
Letting my thoughts use my skull
as a punching bag
stressing myself over the inevitable
People die, they walk away
Or run
whichever way will get them
away from you as fast as possible.
My body just sat there
And for two hours
I existed
I became one with the insignificant things
The broken chair in the corner of the room
The piece of paper on the floor
The stains on the window
The stake of empty instrument boxes
For two hours I tortured myself.
Kept telling the people in the room to be quiet
But truth is, its the voices in my head that were making
The loudest noise
"YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH"they chanted
"YOU ARE A FAILURE" they said
"YOU ARE YOUR OWN PROBLEM" they accused
"THATS WHY SHE........"
"THATS WHY SHE......"
I had to slap myself to send the voices running
And I know it might be quiet I my head
But it doesn't mean they are gone
The voices have become good at playing hide and seek
The anti-psychotics don't seem to be working anymore
So I decided to take a walk
I took exactly 421 steps
That got me to a place
I cant even call a safe haven
Because when you are fighting with something
That is in your head
A brick wall is only there to fall
After sitting in the dark for 10 minutes
I switched on my light
hoping its blinding brightness will chase away
the darkness in me
For a few minutes covered my ears
As the voices in my head screamed
HOW COULD YOU?
WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?
YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT US
It was after that statement
That I took out the courage
I had hidden under my bed
And unlocked the box that contained
My voice and I said
YOU ARE WRONG, I CANT LIVE
WITHOUT MEEEE!
May 12, 2016
May 12, 2016 at 5:10 AM UTC
they say if you keep looking for something
You will eventually find it
But what if the missing person's report you filled
Is against yourself?
Mar 14, 2016
Mar 14, 2016 at 9:48 AM UTC
*I'm brave enough to fear, deaf enough to hear
blind enough to see, I'm a soul in ecstasy
I'm weak enough to fight, in the dark of light
crippled enough to stand, insane enough to understand
that I'm eternal enough to die, truth enough to lie
perpetual enough to end and straight enough to bend
I'm hard enough to bruise and triumphantly lose
I'm desperate enough to believe, happy enough to grieve
afloat enough to drown and smiled enough to frown
I'm treasured enough to be thrown,a dusk enough to dawn
a man enough to cry,I'm mindful enough to pry
I'm question enough to answer, goat enough to panther
I'm block enough to bridge, free enough to siege
I'm lone enough to clique, wake enough to sleep
love enough to hate, I'm free willed to fate
I'm chain enough to freedom, unknown for my stardom
pleasure enough for pain,I'm sunshine trapped in rain
I'm wrecked enough to intact and powerless enough to impact
probability enough to certain,I'm God enough to Satan
I'm peace enough to war,ignorant enough to know
less enough to more, I'm Yes enough to No
I'm stuffed enough to hunger, silence enough to thunder
obvious enough to wonder, I'm builder enough to plunder.*
Mar 10, 2016
Mar 10, 2016 at 4:17 AM UTC
do you ever feel like a page in a novel sometimes?
Or do you feel like you are just a word in the long sentence of your life?
do you ever feel like the life you are living is a flashback?
Like what is happening already happened ,
And your future self is recalling the events.
so everytime something bad happens you imagine your future self laughing
so instead of crying, you laugh too...
"After all this has already happened before"
you tell yourself.
Feb 18, 2016
Feb 18, 2016 at 3:58 AM UTC
I'm that heart you have decided to sell
to someone more suitable to look after it,
Since you have done a terrible job at keeping it intact,
But honey no one pays much for a badly patched product,
So I guess you'll always be unlucky when it comes to love.....
Feb 11, 2016
Feb 11, 2016 at 4:29 AM UTC
*where lovers cry
where dreams die
where clouds are gone
And hearts are torn
I know a place
where eyes don't sleep
Neither do they blink
phones don't beep
And minds don't think
I know a place
Where roads don't meet
Shuffle don't feet
Flowers don't blossom
And life is for ransom
I know a place
where bitter is sweet
where tweeters don't tweet
where roosters don't crow
where nothing goes pro
I know a place
where it rains it don't shine
whence it rains rains wine
where people don't mind
that they search and don't find
I know a place
where war does thrive
and peace is but in shards
where dead are alive
and in silence speak words
I know a place
where all is wanting
everyone is chanting
even the dogs are panting
for there's no more hunting
I know a place
where lovers go to cry
were dreams go to die
where searchers don't find
where seers are the blind
I know a place*
Feb 4, 2016
Feb 4, 2016 at 4:17 AM UTC
So I got thinking....
Maybe I'm the witch in my own fairytale...
Feb 3, 2016
Feb 3, 2016 at 12:03 AM UTC
Lets play a game,
Where you pretend you actually love me,
Instead of telling me that my eyes are the same colour
as your favourite pair of jeans that you constantly poke holes in.
Or where you don't tell me that my smile is like a toe nail,
Because I know how much you don't like your toe nails.
Don't tell me my eyes have the same sparkle as stars,
Then go on to mention how stars are small and insignificant.
For this game only don't compliment my physical appearance,
Tell me how my poetry speaks to your soul,
Even though I know very well how much you hate it,
Tell me I have a beautiful heart without having to compare me to mother Theresa.
No wait lets change the rules,
You are going to sit there and listen to me while I talk,
You are not allowed to interrupt me,
I never do
So before I tell you that its over,
I think you should know that my eyes will not be compared to a pair of jeans you got for $50
They are worth more than that,
My smile is like the crescent shape of a moon,
Not the toe nails you never liked.
And you know what,
Stars are not insignificant you are
And lastly you might not like my poetry,
But I do.
Jan 14, 2016
Jan 14, 2016 at 4:05 AM UTC
If I was to die today and someone asked you to describe me what would you say?
I'll make it easy for you
Tell them I was a ****** with a big ♥ heart,
Even though the love wasn't enough I gave my all
Tell them I was an above average student who
procrastinated a lot but had huge dreams
Tell them I gave up too easily but refused to be called a quitter
Tell them I came alive onstage the moment the spotlight hit my face
But I never got enough time to shine
Tell them I had random dance moments at the wrong times but didn't care cause I was shameless
Tell them I had more fingers than people I could trust
But that didn't make me lose hope in them
Tell them I wasn't loved widely but deeply
Tell them I only fell in love with one person and it was like that till the day I died
Tell them I chose to smile instead of giving way to my problems
But that doesn't mean my eyes didn't lick once in a while
Tell them I walked with confidence like I was trying to balance a crown
But I didn't have hubris
Tell them I didn't choose to be born but I'm glad I was
Jan 9, 2016
Jan 9, 2016 at 11:22 AM UTC