I love strength.
I love it more than anything.
I craved and desire strength.
Because I do not have it.
I lift ungodly amount of weight.
I train to hurt people more efficiently than a bullet.
I do these things and yet I am not strong.
I remember looking into your eyes once.
Just the once and I gleamed all I could bare.
In those eyes was not the weakness I knew.
A person who can smile honestly
A person who can hope
A person who doesn't hate others.
A person who knows what they want.
****** girl. Just be happy is all I ask.
And I know you will.
Of course I like you, you're you.
Mar 17, 2015
Mar 17, 2015 at 12:58 AM UTC
Wax lyrical about those other little *****
With their heads full of arrogance.
With their hearts full of lies.
With their fists full of misplaced angst.
With their smirks full of "Told you So"
Who am I?
I've walked away from Omelas
They've tied the ******* albatross to my neck.
Laughter fills the air,
There They Sit with My Middle finger in the air.
Staring back through that looking glass.
"She hurt you and you meant nothing to her....AGAIN!"
Shouting in the mirror till I fix my tie and walk about.
Shouting out of the mirror until you fix your tie and sob.
Mar 16, 2015
Mar 16, 2015 at 11:32 PM UTC
Some sort of symmetry in the girl of my dreams.
When she starts dating my brother's drug dealer.
Some sort of empty heart that filled up my chest.
When I realized she'd rather be with him than I.
Some sort of words that get caught in my head.
When he does nothing but be himself.
Some sort of asymmetry in the weight of two people.
When their happiness means more then mine.
Even to me.
Mar 16, 2015
Mar 16, 2015 at 11:22 PM UTC
nevermind.
I don't want you knowing about me.
I do not want eyes on all this nothing.
I only want those accolades you hand out.
Those sweet murmurs behind useless words.
Anonymity just barely gives a ****
And
Somehow I care.
Jan 4, 2015
Jan 4, 2015 at 8:08 PM UTC
I'm going to show you monsters.
Demons, Men, and Beasts.
and where I stand at the in between.
The Age of Heroes and Miracles is done.
Raise your head and bring your own light to the dark.
Mar 17, 2014
Mar 17, 2014 at 4:13 PM UTC
Watching these people.
Looking at them and only seeing composites of life.
Ideas but no action.
Life but actually none.
"Man, She looked beautiful until I saw what she mistook for it".
Mar 14, 2014
Mar 14, 2014 at 2:41 AM UTC
I'm 12 stepping this depression.
Wake up and live in the moment.
Sometimes it's one day some times one minute.
Sometimes I dance.
Other nights I can't find the strength to get out from under the bottle.
My struggles won't be visual or even physical.
I look hard at the mirror, into the eye's of my greatest enemy.
Mar 13, 2014
Mar 13, 2014 at 4:50 PM UTC
Your happiness is a mask
Covering up something fundamentally broken.
I looked at her and smiled softly for the first time that day.
Today like so many days out of my life, I want to **** myself. I want to die. Yes something is wrong with me, I am sad and brittle to my core. Some days I find that the light of the sun is a 100 lb weight on my shoulders just pushing me down. Some days I walk through the city feeling like I am moving through mud.
I closed my eyes smiled genuinely.
Other days I am happy and I don't ask why I just roll with it, Some days the light of the world lifts me up and pulls me forward. Some days this city moves and I pick up my feet to match it. But every day know that I am hiding nothing, this is who I am.
She hugged me and I hugged her.
Mar 3, 2014
Mar 3, 2014 at 11:30 AM UTC
Some machines just leave the factory a bit broken.
We can hide it to our best abilities and compensate.
Can't sing? Learn to dance to the heartbeat of the night.
Can't be happy? Learn to make others smile, it'll come.
Like a chasm in the water, like a black rainbow.
Sometimes broke is beautiful.
Feb 28, 2014
Feb 28, 2014 at 11:48 AM UTC
Happiness and strength come from vulnerability.
To not trust and to not believe in others
well that is not only selfish is it weak
and most damnedly it is cowardly.
I wear my heart on my sleeve
If I cry just know it wasn't because I didn't care.
Feb 22, 2014
Feb 22, 2014 at 3:16 PM UTC