Not even a day passed
Not even 24 hours
Not even 12 hours
Not even that you're far away
You did not left the country
But still
The moment you left I missed
Just You
A lot
Jul 31, 2015
Jul 31, 2015 at 6:52 AM UTC
No poem
Is a poem as well
No words
Are words as well
No anger
Is anger as well
No Love
Is love as well
No Fear
Is fear as well
No Hate
Is hate as well
No Tears
Are Tears as well
So why is it so hard for you to understand what I feel ?
Or why don't you see when I am tired.
I need rest and you don't care.
I am done
Jul 28, 2015
Jul 28, 2015 at 4:40 PM UTC
I am not depressed
I just cannot write about love
I just cannot write about happiness
If I do not feel this way
I am not myself
I do not know who I am actually
I am not depressed
I am lost and empty
Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 6:32 AM UTC
I loose you
I loose everything
I just do no want to live anymore
But I am too scared to **** myself
Do you see how weak I am without you?
I loose you
I loose me
I am lost
My mind does no work well
I destroy with my own hands
Everything beautiful
Why did I have to wish.//
That you fight with her
Why am I so desperate?
I loose you
I die
I cannot live witout you.
Family
Friends
They are nothing for me
I loose you
I die.
Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 6:20 AM UTC
I see you kissing her on the cheek
You said you miss me
You lied
You stay with her / with others
Not me/ Although I wait the most
You scream only and don't even wonder how long would I resist
My life falls apart
You stay with her
You hate me
These are your words
Not mine
I wait for you
You go to her
That is a nice game
Who will win ?
Or resist?
I don't know if I can truly
You can for sure
Take her back and forget about me
Where are the beautiful moments?
Where did they go?
I am covered in sadness
For how long?
I don't know
For how long I still can
I am destroying myself
Day by Day
Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 7:03 PM UTC
Explosions in your head
You scream, you shout.
You drink, you smoke
A message
You stop
You're drunk?!
She came. The devil came.
Is she special?
Just to you. - Never to me.
The devil is not special.
You are evil with others.
But someone being evil with you.
That is where my hate comes from
Still You care.
About her being well.
About others
Not me
Never
I am alone here.
That is what I realize day by day.
I see you are human too.
Because you can suffer
And feel pain
In the end I will be here
Still
With you- But alone.
Apr 21, 2015
Apr 21, 2015 at 4:11 AM UTC
Set the table
Bring the food
All the menu
Isn't it nice how we sit here?
Isn't it pretty how we are all together for once?
Seems so
But it is not
Missing seats
For members who are not allowed to come
Or won't come because of past mistakes and disagreements
Smile nicely
Help cleaning up
Cheers
Happy Birthday!
Shouldn't it be a nice day?
Well it should
But memories come up all the time
There shouldn't be a moment of piece
You re not allowed to be completely happy
Its a trap like always
Don't be weak
If you manage after all to come home
You can wait for your one
Although he has its priorities
And you will never be part of them
Even its your birthday
Grab a movie
Inspire yourself
Its about you
Not the others
Happy Birthday to yourself
Apr 19, 2015
Apr 19, 2015 at 4:36 PM UTC
I wish for love
Pure love
Nobody would get hurt
And each of them loves as much as the other
I wish for love
Clean love
Nodbody would be lied to
And each of them is incomplete without the other
I just keep wishing
Its the medicine I need to take.
To live.
Apr 19, 2015
Apr 19, 2015 at 2:30 AM UTC
He will come after her
All the time
I thought he wouldn't
But I was wrong
I wait for him
He waits for her
Something is definitely not right
He put me in a box with all the other
But did not let me go
Second choices are stronger than first
He knows I stay
Although I cry when I am alone
She will be first
He will run whenever she is not right
Second choices never get the trophy
They just stand there and watch
Thats it
Life
Apr 18, 2015
Apr 18, 2015 at 6:28 PM UTC
Go and find yourself in the sky
Where blue covers your eyes
And shadows never show
You follow your heart to a better place
And you just forgot to take your tears with you
You left them by coincidence in your past
Because once someone told you:
Never to be afraid and keep going on
Although it is hard
Sad people will be around you
And make you sad
Although you do not have to be sad
Surround yourself with warm air
And your heart will never freeze again
Apr 17, 2015
Apr 17, 2015 at 4:55 AM UTC