I've given myself so many chances
How many times can I do this?
I tell you "I'm sorry" and you believe me
but why wouldn't you?
I'm a liar and
I'm good at it
I promise the girl you know is not me
I am deep and I am ****** up so
forgive me for hiding the spiders in my veins
and the ice behind my eyes
I want you to know and
I want things to be okay but
they never have been
I can't be greedy anymore
so I've given up
I don't think you'll ever know me
which fractures the already fatal cracks
breaking my heart
Oct 9, 2016
Oct 9, 2016 at 10:43 PM UTC
The snow fell hard that day
as cold as the ice in my chest
Driving away was always easy
It wasn't until I slid into the snow bank
until my car flipped sideways
until I thought I might die
I thought of those I loved most
Sideways in my car
Unable to get out
stuck in the freezing winds,
I wanted to call you
But instead dialed 911
You aren't my lifeline anymore
I don't know if that is good
or if I am just desolate
All I know is,
I felt at home
Trapped in the snow
Jan 5, 2016
Jan 5, 2016 at 3:42 AM UTC
3 months passed
New years eve comes soon
You'll be happy
and I won't be
You'll be kissing some girl
while my lips grace the rim
of my finished tequila bottle
I can't forget you
Like you forgot me
life is ever-changing
and you were the biggest change
I just remembered how much
I hate change
Dec 29, 2015
Dec 29, 2015 at 12:30 AM UTC
I am simply a dream
Floating from street to street
You don't see me
Yet I see you
You don't love me
Yet I love you
Dec 14, 2015
Dec 14, 2015 at 4:39 PM UTC
I’m an empty bottle
too many people drank
everything I had
Left in the dump to brace the cold
the ice stings and the wind blows
That whistle a bottle makes
as air graces the opening
it sounds like my heart
empty and hollow
calling out for those
who once filled me up
never getting an answer
I am an empty person
too many people took
everything I had
Dec 14, 2015
Dec 14, 2015 at 4:37 PM UTC