She's finally back
With a pen in her right hand
A paper in the left
And a sword in her heart
Jun 22, 2020
Jun 22, 2020 at 10:16 AM UTC
Tonight you'll be in my poems
From my quill's blood, you will be summoned
On every blank paper I grab
Will be filled with words, those that are sad
I need not to hold the quill
Black bloods on the paper are already spilled
As if it has its own brain
As if it also felt my indescribable pain
The words as if wild animals being freed from cage
I couldn't stop them from spilling
Tonight you'll be in my poems
Not with the happy words but the saddest ones
Jun 22, 2020
Jun 22, 2020 at 10:05 AM UTC
I bump into someone in amidst
I apologize but I notice she's in tears
I ask what's wrong
but she doesn't utter a word
The tears streaming down her cheeks
Already answered the questions in my lips
She's in pain
Rejected by a friend
I recognized her face
She's the girl with good grades
I always saw her with her friends
Laughing at the top of her lungs
But now who is this girl in front of me?
Looking so fragile and weak
I just hope she'd be okay sooner
I'm sure this pain would make her stronger
Jun 22, 2020
Jun 22, 2020 at 10:02 AM UTC
If people would ask me
To write a painful poem
I'll just simply write your name
Jun 20, 2020
Jun 20, 2020 at 9:34 AM UTC
Only in my dreams that I am the one
That I am still the reason behind your every smile
That I am still the greatest artist that painted the sweetest smiles on your lips
That I am the only sunshine that lights up your day
Only in my dreams that your promises are still alive
That they are not broken
That they are kept inside your heart
That you are doing everything to keep it
Only in my dreams that you didn’t change
That you’re still that same guy who always cared for me
That psycho-in-a-neat-school-uniform guy who always makes me laughed
That guy who shows how much he loves me
Only in my dreams that you won’t ever leave me
That no matter what happens, no matter what it takes
And under any circumstances,
You’ll always choose to stay with me
Only in my dreams that there’s still you and me
That you still care for me
That you still think of me
That you still love me
You are my sweetest dream
But you chose to wake me up
And no matter what I do
I can’t go back to sleep
But if you’ll ask me to choose between the two
Live in reality or stay asleep
I’ll choose the latter
Cause in my dreams there’s still an us
Jun 20, 2020
Jun 20, 2020 at 9:21 AM UTC
She is not that brave
To risk everything for love
A coward she is
But because of him
She finally took the risk
To jump off the cliff
But ends up wounded
Her heart on the floor, shattered
He failed to keep it
Jun 20, 2020
Jun 20, 2020 at 9:09 AM UTC
Magic Wand
Written by Mauve Marini
I was once lost
But you came and to find me like a rose
I was once stuck in a strange sea
But you came and rescued me
Then…
You tried to bring my old self back
Wait, no, you let me discover another side of me I never thought I have
You made me realized my worth
That in every angle, I deserved the world
And then…
Time flew fast
Fairy godmother came smiling and giggling as if she’s up to something
And yes, I was right
Pointing the magic want at us
She let love bloom in just one strike
All those…
“I’ll keep you happy, you are important to me”
“In my arms, you’ll be happy”
“Let’s conquer the world together”
“Let me take care of you forever”
One day…
We woke up asking,
What is happening?
What happened to us?
Who are we now in each other’s life?
Now…
All the promises are broken
Maybe the magic wand was stolen
Could someone please return it to fairy godmother?
To bring everything into its places forever
So we can end this with a “happily ever after”
Apr 17, 2019
Apr 17, 2019 at 11:18 AM UTC
Are You Happy Now?
Written by Mauve Marini
Let me start with a simple “Hi”
How’re you doing?
Feeling fine?
Are you happy right now?
You once said,
That I was just a reminder of how chaos your life was
Now that I’m gone in your life
Do you enjoy it the way you wanted it to be?
How does it feel to take me for granted?
When all I did was to be there for you when you need me?
How did I become a reminder of chaos?
When all I did was loved you utmost?
Ain’t I worthy of your time and effort?
Is my love ain’t that worthy to fight for?
How do you just give up?
Without even trying to fight?
Ain’t this cliff worthy of fight?
Ain’t my cliff not that important anymore?
How do you turn into that coward,
Afraid to take a step forward?
How do you just turn away?
And leave me there astray
Like what you did to our memories
As if photographs that were torn to pieces
Have I loved you the wrong way?
Why did you suddenly slipped away?
I don’t want to think that I chose the wrong person
I believe God has a reason
You started me with a simple Hi
But you chose to gave me up
And ended with a painful Goodbye
Babe, are you happy now?
I hope you do
Apr 17, 2019
Apr 17, 2019 at 11:11 AM UTC
Written by Mauve Marini
I wish you didn’t saw me in that empty room
So maybe there’s no love that bloomed
I wish I wasn’t in that chair near that window
If only I knew
You said I wasn’t that pretty
Not that tall nor curvy
Just plain and pale as a paper
But you learn I’m a keeper
In my eyes, you looked deeper
Saw my sorrow and pain that sheltered
Saw the broken pieces
And you said you’ll fix it
Yes I wasn’t that gorgeous
Maybe that’s why I lose
But you said I was perfect
I just can’t see it
Your love came unforeseen
But I still let you in
Our altered world finally collide
Both can pass through in each other’s life
You get me out of someone’s maze
Cared, loved and cherished
I felt happiness at last!
But babe, it didn’t last
We’re just still on the way
But your love is slowly slipping away
I blindly-pretended everything’s fine
Just to keep our love on the line
You promised me
You’ll always be there for me
Not fast as lightning
But you’ll walk miles just to be with me
But babe, where are you now?
Will I still hold on to your vow?
Where are you when I needed you?
Of all people, why you?
I wish I am still the voice inside your head
The girl you will always dream
The one who always means to you
The inspiration you always turns to
But you changed
Seems like your love faded
You took me for granted
You left me feeling unwanted
I feel sorry for all the guys
Who lost a good girl
Because they weren’t mature enough
To keep her and treat her right
I may no longer your plain and pale as a paper
But I am still that clumsy-quiet-girl
Who's heart will always be yours
Sep 25, 2018
Sep 25, 2018 at 4:31 PM UTC
From Her
By Mauve Marini
I
I used to sit alone in a corner
Thinking things I don’t think anyone would waste time to wonder
Weird as what some people say I was
Half true, believe me, I must
II
I’m a girl you might not want to be with
A girl who chooses to be alone and quiet
Plain and simple
Stuck in this world like needle in a thimble
III
Emotionless face that I have
Best actresses in the movies wish I was one
So the pains and sorrows could be visible
That in my eyes people need not to look deeper
IV
Here comes a ****** dressed in a neat school uniform
He said he knows me quite very well
He sees my agony that’s hiding behind me
My broken heart, he said he can fix it
V
Creepy mind reader he was
Secrets I keep reached his mind in a blast
Who told him I cried over someone?
Oh, it’s me, yes I remembered once
VI
You know what, you should’ve had come a little earlier
So that you could’ve saved me from that night
Where I was drowned in an ocean of lost thoughts
But thank you for bringing back my heart I once lost
VII
I’m not much of a talker yes I know
Nor a Shakespeare in a corner
I could write just right enough
But not as great as what you have thought
VIII
Time doesn’t really stop
It’s the feelings which make everything in a hiatus
Moments that we’re together
Will be kept like a treasure
IX
It’s for years I play hide and seek from love
With the pain I carry which stuck me inside
You must be the ****** my heart was waiting
Carrying the love I was looking
X
You’re the zephyr echoing in my head yesterday
Now a voice singing ever so calmly today
The faceless lover who appears in my dreams every night
Now finally I caught a sight
XI
Denial stage I was before
Now contradicting it no more
Yes, I’m into you
I want to be stuck in forever with you
XII
Love is meaningless
Until someone would come to give its meaning
Love is inevitably twined with pain
Just keep holding on
XIII
It’s you who I wanted
To wait for me while having the best walk of my life
It’s you that I wanted in my life
I love you no matter what
XIV
I don’t trust words
Nor fond of promises
But for you I’m willing to take the risk
No matter what and how it takes
XV
I am no beauty, rich nor smart
But all I can offer is my wonderful heart
The sweeter you’ll treat this
The longer you’ll keep this
XVI
Swear I won’t deny it
Love and pain,
I’m gonna embrace it
Just hold on to it, I won’t let go nor slipped
Apr 5, 2018
Apr 5, 2018 at 1:17 AM UTC