What is a dream?
Is it mostly imagination
Breaking at the seam
Reaching out for any touch of passion?
Or what if it was a sinking feeling
That grabs hold and pulls down
So much that you’re left reeling
Falling into unconsciousness ready to drown
But once you hit the lake
Something chilling invites itself
Into the only body to take
Leaving you without your self
Left alone in a lake of darkness
You never feel anxious
Life becomes so slow
All you dream of is limbo
A place of nothing
Memories that hurt less
Pain that’s calming
And reassuring stress
Waves of regret climbing up
Deep into the limbo sky
Threatening to crack the cup
And leave us with no goodbye
Lost thoughts in the waves
Muffled sounds of hello
Leading to a heart that craves
Another night in limbo
May 23, 2021
May 23, 2021 at 10:06 AM UTC
When we all die
Each one of us returns to the sky
Another constellation
In the galaxies composition
Floating along the stars
In this creation of ours
A twinkle every night
To help you when your in fright
If your afraid in the dark
Look above for my spark
To let you know I’m there
That I’ll always care
Spaceman floating so alone
Look above to feel your known
Each nova burning for you
No matter what you do
All of my stories have been told
Except for one
In this universe so cold
Look above and I’ll be your sun
Mar 4, 2021
Mar 4, 2021 at 6:52 PM UTC
Life feels so long, With so many feeling wrong
Dozens of people with self-hate, trying to find someone to date
Life’s string ready to snap, Young and old souls ready to go
They have nothing to show, For too long they’ve felt like crap
But you’re strong, You’re allowed to carry on
They’ll notice if your gone, Even if you’ve done wrong
Why should you die, And say goodbye
Life’s shorter then we know, Even when it feels slow
Giving up feels so easy, Like it’ll set us free
Ending it feels right, So were finally out of sight
No more mistakes, lonely nights full of heartache
Thoughts of failure no more, From this soul so poor
Break their heart in inches, Break it all
His love always felt small, So you gave yourself bruises
Frostbite making me feel, These cuts never allowed to heal
We stay away from people, Deep down inside we’re evil
Words never said, Between us laying on that bed
Eyes of brown with no care, making me shed a tear
He must have liked me I thought, Otherwise what was the point
In hurting myself without a second thought, I guess I just live to disappoint
But we are strong, Even when we fail
Skin turning pale, Life’s not long
For us to die here, upon hate’s triumphant spear
So pick yourself up little one, Right now life’s not done
Pick your chin up and look around, All these faces gone if you drowned
Smiles and warmth near and far, Hundreds of voices letting you know you’re a star
Live on for them if not for you, With time your heart shall no longer be in two
Love will heal the pain you’ve been burying, But if you leave you’ll never find anything
What am I saying, I’m just delaying
I can’t even follow my own advice, Walking a life of vice
So go on with yourself, See if you find life far back on the shelf
I’ll just sit here, Rotting away year after year
Dec 13, 2020
Dec 13, 2020 at 1:10 AM UTC
When I talk you seem to never hear
Yet when he is around you laugh
My worse thoughts have come real I fear
Love is always bitter sweet for their is another
Heart of gold left alone to shatter
For your heart had found another
Like I never even matter
So go on your way
Hold his hand with that lovely smile
I’ll still wait for my day
The day in which I’ll find someone to walk that mile
Dec 1, 2020
Dec 1, 2020 at 2:57 AM UTC
Where am I?
Why am I in this bed?
And why am I in a hospital room?
The air is cold as ice
These blankets feel like home
Back then I was sick, mom would feed me rice
If I’m in the hospital, someone should be here
Maybe if I say something, people will appear
“Hello?”
**** no response back
I should look around more
Oh is that food? I could use a snack
It’s rice in a bowl
I move my spoon around with it hitting metal
The metal is an amulet with the words “My baby’s soul”
My mom had a similar bracelet with her until I lost it in a gamble
I was going to tell mom I lost it
But she… never returned home
Reports say that they never found the culprit
I.. I need to leave this place
Why is the floor covered in newspapers?
Every paper is filled with my face
Why are there no authors?
Come to think of it, why are the walls just like my bedrooms walls?
Covered with posters of the Detroit Lions
And the picture of my mom graduating nursing school
Wait.. There's a mirror on the wall
I never had a mirror as a child
Looking into it shows me a man standing on a bridge about to fall
He’s wearing my Highschool jersey number
And his wrists are bleeding
His face is so full of regret and anger
Are my wrists okay…
They're covered in cuts and scars
These cuts are dark red on my dark gray skin
I.. Should have left already
Time to open this door and leave
Door opens to a dark night with air that is chilly
I walk through the void doorway
A step forward leads to me falling
Looking up to see a bridge getting farther and farther away
A girl is there with a phone that is calling
She looks so much like my friend Sam
But she keeps getting farther and farther away
Until my body hits the water with a slam
A single letter falls on my chest with the single word “Gay”
Something warm is mixing with the cold water
Air is leaving my lungs
Along with my anger
The girl is waving his arms towards me
I want to say I love you
Tell her that I feel free
Yet my lips whisper “Sorry”
Nov 6, 2020
Nov 6, 2020 at 2:14 PM UTC
Upon a hill sits a wanderer.
Stranger to all feeling
Coward wearing no banner
Hand still bears branding
Look within to see sins
Millions of mistakes and failures
Hidden right beneath the skin
Wanderer tired from running
Tired of life
Waking up crying
Clutching for a foregone wife
Tis the tale of hatred and pain
Never-ending volumes added over time
Forcing people insane
Nov 4, 2020
Nov 4, 2020 at 10:27 PM UTC
Another night filled with ash and snow
An old man next to a fire with no home
Yet he sits still singing alone
Hoping for others to throw him a bone
Oh young ones wouldn’t you care to listen
Listen to an old man's advice
To some I’m known as leviathan
Although those people probably aren’t alive
But sit around my fire now
I’ll give you some wasteland advice
On what your deeds can sow
If your willing to pay the price
Money, power, love, revenge, tradition
They all mean the same really
Bunch of people with a mind that’s troubled
Bringing up old ideas with a thought of reinvoking
“We will build out of the ashes of the old”
“A new world meant for the survivors”
“Old masters destroyed because we weren’t meant to obey”
“WE ARE NO LONGER THE SLAVES BUT THE OWNERS”
Such lies are shouted often and loud
Good intentions no doubt
But to bring peace and order, blood must be shed
Hopes of being the hero must be doused
In the wasteland your supposed to become more
Yet we’re shackled to the past
Leaders promising they have the key to a locked door
Vowing that to **** the old you must sign the pact
Industries of sin run on blood and dust
Shiny lights counting down to a payout
Behind smoke and mirrors you find lust
All of this guarded by puppets pulled by a payroll
So young ones, what will you do
Denounce the past and try to be greater
Embrace sin and forsake moral duty
In the end you will die with no gravestone
But that’s just what I have to say
I’m only an old man with no home
Maybe we will meet another day
On that day I will judge your sins
Oct 21, 2020
Oct 21, 2020 at 2:07 PM UTC
All alone in your room stuck on your ****
Flicking through that device of yours
Mind stuck in a dump
Since you had been barred from the outdoors
Thinking of all you could be doing with friends
The good times to be had
Taken away leaving you at wits end
Your emotions feeling just a tad bit sad
So, what to do then?
With all this time on one’s hands
No one to talk to since you can’t call the ambulance again
And your brain is going to explode from listening to that band
It’s alright though
Stop worrying so much and look at the clock
As it ticks it will slow down time and save you from death’s blow
Now let’s unlock dream world where you can spacewalk without feeling like a laughingstock
Life’s easier when you go at it more calmly
Letting it go at you like the waves of the ocean
Not worrying about your pants being baggy or that your clumsy
Being the golden showman for all isn’t you, you’d rather be the one that stays hidden
Life's uncertain and full of ups and downs
But the clocks tick will always go on
Full of hatred for yourself only leads to a meltdown
Lie down now and feel that yawn
It’s rough out there and that’s no lie
The battle going on goes through the body and mind
Everything will be alright no need to cry
Stress will make you unwind like twine so relax and put that track on rewind
Worrying about academics is for another time
As of now it’s time to look ahead
Hitting rocks in the oceans hurts but it’s not a crime
Pain from the rocks hurts but you have to keep with the waves
Holding onto the rocks will make you drown
Please let go now
You might feel down now but you must keep on if you want that crown
I may have passed but you have to move on and leave this rock behind
It hurts I know to see me go
But no matter what even with me gone you can count on that clock
The hearts filled with woe since I passed not too long ago
Just know I loved you, now wake up darling and answer that knock
Sep 3, 2020
Sep 3, 2020 at 11:38 AM UTC
Living in a world of stone
Darkness all around
Constant threats making you alone
Chains of hate keeping you bound
Then you heard her cries
A women of beauty
Suddenly you didn’t want to die
Deep in your heart you had found your duty
Protect the girl is what you told yourself
This girl was tantalizing and sweetness incarnate
She needed protection, nothing else
But her hair and eyes made those borders evaporate
Talking over and over
Spending days with this fair elf
A girl with skills that made her a charmer
But surely you couldn’t actually love her
Your a monster plain and simple
Every time you leave your throne of stone
Whenever they insult, you just crumple
Hiding away in the dark trying to atone
You failed before
So why wouldn’t you again
Give her back monster
You will hurt her
We are knights of a valiant order
Trusted heroes of the realm
She’ll be safe under our banner
Evil cannot penetrate our helm
Monster please come back
You were my only friend
They’re gonna execute this pyromaniac
I’m just like you monster, i’m a fiend
These knights tried to **** me
And defile my purity
But you saved me from them
Please rescue me, you were the only one that made me comfy
Time is running out my sweet orc
The axe shall soon strike
As these tears drip down my face
I can be happy that you loved me for not being ladylike
I’m not a monster
I remember who I was
All my honor was lost in the war along with my brothers
A knight of the realm who respected all laws
But I wasn’t human
An order of orc knights had to be erased from history
I survived and was scarred in mind and body
Adrift in the dark until I met that maiden
It’s alright now my little pyro
Me and you shall live together
No monster or fiend
A little elf saved from the guillotine
I love you orc
And I love you pyro
Should we run away?
Only if we do it together
Aug 30, 2020
Aug 30, 2020 at 4:20 PM UTC
Welcome to the Land of Wonder
Everything is an array of colors
And it leaves you time to ponder
Thinking of one another
You might get down Alice
Think of yourself less than others
But that heart will never fill with malice
And you will never be a bother
We sit in the land of wonder
So alone and wanting a light
For too long they shunned her
Dimming her light that was so bright
Take a seat next to the Hatter
Have no fear
You do Matter
Good times are near
We all can’t be happy in a land of wonder
Feeling like we don’t matter is natural
No one will remember us latter
But for now everyone will remember you as beautiful
So many are made better by your presence
We just don’t know that sometimes
If you were gone we would have no essence
Without that love we wouldn’t shine
That cat kept talking about you his name was Chester I think
Always the same how he said that this girl was so great
He always said how he was glad he met her
That girl was you Alice because you make others better
So stay as long as you need
We are here for you Alice
We would be worse off without you
Just ponder now in this land of wonder
Aug 28, 2020
Aug 28, 2020 at 11:48 PM UTC