My pretty pink princess bed was for them… Ive always wanted one ever since I was a little girl because
I wanted to feel like a princess and most importantly I wanted those sheer curtains that draped over the bed to shut me out from whatever was going on around me I wanted it to take me away so I can dream peacefully.
Who are they ? Because I know yall are asking
They are me and I am them
My inner child and my inner teenager The girls that didn’t receive the love that they needed
The girls who were lost and consumed by trauma
The girls who were too young to understand the world but aware enough to know they wanted to feel something…ANYTHING
Everything that I am doing from this day forward including buying that bed is for them.
They were told to be quiet so they shut up
They were told that everything that happens in this house was to be kept in this house so in exchange for that they kept their most vulnerable secrets and feelings to themselves
That’s why my pretty pink princess bed is for them
A place where their secrets can unravel without any judgement
They had no protection,no peace,no comfort…no community but
Those girls got that now,they got me now, they have that bed now…
Those girls live forever through me and I will live forever for them.
Young ,wild and free like baby cubs finally being released into the open
Now that I am 26 years old I am finally stopping to smell the roses I used to give away so willingly
I am finally letting my hair down after pulling my trauma back into a bun I am stripping my old beliefs for some more soft and sweet
I can finally say no without hesitation because they couldn’t
I can finally do the things I want to and still be scared while doing it because they couldn’t
This is for them
The scared, confused child
The rebellious lost teenage girl
Who both just wanted to be seen
And now we all lay peacefully in our pretty pink princess bed.
-Mahogany 🌹
Mar 29
Mar 29, 2026 at 4:05 PM UTC
Take me home and make love to me
Take me home and run my bath water
Take me home and grease my scalp
Take me home and tell me how much you love me
Take me home and moisturize my body
Take me home and feed me until I’m full
Take me home and provide for me
Take me home and be my shoulder to cry on
Take me home and protect me
Take me home and nurture me
Take me home and be my muse
Take me home and whisper in my ear how much you don’t want to lose me
Take me home and play my favorite music
Take me home and let me finally rest in your arms peacefully
-Mahogany 🌹
Mar 29
Mar 29, 2026 at 11:56 AM UTC
You ****** don’t wanna get to know me!
No…y’all just wanna **** me and yes I can admit I WILL have you foaming at the mouth
BUT can you make ME feel like a Jill Scott chorus all sensual & **** on the inside and as well as the out
Or can you hypnotize me like a Janelle Monae song with your melodic words and melodies
Until my knees remember what surrender feels like
You say come bounce on it, come sit on it hell you even say come spit on it
and yet you still haven’t asked me how my day is going
***** get to know me
see me beyond the surface and
maybe then we can sit in my living room and I can make you laugh while we build legos on the floor
or you can just watch me dance around my apartment swaying my hips under my pink fluorescent lights or
Maybe you can be my test dummy and try this new recipe I’ve been wanting to bake
And maybe…
I said maybe
I might let you lick this cat
You ****** do not want to get to know me yall just like the idea of me being soft, thick and whimsical with siren like energy in my pictures
Don’t let these butterflies you see floating in my hair fool you
Don’t let my sweet aura fool you
I will bite yo *** because I am a passionate woman I am a courageous woman that has built herself up so highly
So tread lightly ***** if you want to get to know me
Can you stimulate my mind and go deep like how you trying to go deep inside me
Can you ****** it with seductive conversations that leaves me yearning for more
That leaves me wanting to give you the *******
Can you look at me and tell me what beautiful flowers you see sprouting from me?
And would you be willing to plant your seed in me and grow more once you get to know me
But if you want this garden you see blooming behind my hips then ***** you need to be willing to get on your knees and dig in this dirt to get to know me
-Mahogany 🌹
Mar 28
Mar 28, 2026 at 10:13 AM UTC
Can I be your strawberry cheesecake Mr.Man? Can i satisfy your sweet tooth for the night and fill your stomach up with my creamy goodness?
Sweet on your tongue, finger licking good ,moaning as you scraped the plate this strawberry cheesecake had you coming back for a second plate
Mr.Man you like the way my strawberry glaze drips off your chin? you got so greedy you started licking it off your hand Mr.Man please savor me because I am that **** good and mine will do your body good
Mr.man can you please dip your big spoon in me again I promise I won’t let my graham ******* crust crumble again.
Mr.Man did you mean it when you said you didn’t care if I crumbled because you would lick every inch of my creamy goodness off this plate
Can I ask you one more thing Mr.Man doesn’t my strawberry cheesecake taste great?
-Mahogany 🌹
Mar 28
Mar 28, 2026 at 12:45 AM UTC
Even in this lifetime if I am not meant for romantic love I will allow myself to still open my heart up to a few temporary lovers and allow myself to feel again
I will allow myself to let someone break my walls down with ease
I will allow my heart to sink down to my stomach graciously because I can’t hide these feelings anymore
I will allow myself to be dipped in honey and slowly licked because I deserve the softness and that’s what being in love feels like
Even in this lifetime if I’m not meant for romantic love I will still let someone see me beyond my curves ,my smile, my eyes, my lips ,my skin ,my hair, my poetry…my everything
I will allow them to pull this mask off that nobody else seems to notice and see how beautiful I am when I shed myself and choose to be vulnerable because that too, is what being in love looks like
Even in this lifetime if I AM meant for romantic love I will NOT allow myself to be consumed by it to the point where I lose myself but I will allow myself to be wrapped up by its warm embrace
and let my femininity flourish
And Even in this lifetime if I AM meant for romantic love I will allow myself to save a space in my heart for it and I hope my love finds me
And I hope they come and play their favorite song for me to remind me of what being in love feels like.
-Mahogany 🌹
Mar 28
Mar 28, 2026 at 12:43 AM UTC
She was as quiet as a mouse but her beauty…her beauty was as loud as a thunder storm and I was intrigued by Ms.E but I was too shy to even speak my mind to Ms.E because the way she would look at me oh my goodness the way she would look at me would leave me paralyzed almost like I was in a daze
See I never explored another women the way I would explore a man but I always wanted to and curiosity most definitely killed this cat and Ms.E and I started spending more time together, we would lay in my love nest trading secrets and making funny faces with each other
we would even feed each other breadcrumbs about ourselves until our stomachs would growl for more…
And more is what Ms.E and I gave to each other until our fingers and feelings started to intertwine with each other and Ms.E was no longer Mysterious to me, I let Ms.E love me and not like any of these men that I used to give my body to
she took her time to get to know me, she got to see who Maya really is, and in exchange for that I let her touch me, I let her taste me, I even let her tie me up and take full control, Ms.E let me bloom into the women who finally let go of her old expectations on what it meant to be loved romantically by someone
Discovering each other in the beginning was a beautiful unknown experience but I knew we couldn’t love each other the way we both were passionately yearning for because I was secretly in lust with someone else that she knew nothing about and I had to let Ms.E go
I had to let her go, most importantly I had to set myself free from these new expectations of what I thought being loved by someone was…
-Mahogany 🌹
Mar 28
Mar 28, 2026 at 12:42 AM UTC
Pretty Little Black Girls filled with trauma can’t help but to be rough around the edges because we were taught that the world don’t love us, so how the **** are we supposed to love ourselves if no one else does
Pretty Little Black Girls please take that cape off and use it to save yourself in every lifetime, hold it tight to you like some fresh braids flowing down your back
Pretty Little Black Girls don’t let them steal that sunshine in your big beautiful brown eyes, don’t let them dim that big beautiful Florissant aura surrounding you
Pretty Little Black Girls be as loud as you want. Scream,lie ,laugh and complain as loud as you want because often our cry’s go unnoticed and we are pushed into the shadows to please everyone else
Pretty Little Black Girls no longer will YOU accept the bare minimum, no longer will YOU accept the scraps off of someone else’s plate because that’s what they think YOU deserve even though we built that **** table they sit their ungrateful ***** at
Pretty Little Black Girls you were always destined to have IT ALL no matter what that looks like to you, you were meant to be here, you were meant to spread that beautiful radiant melanin around this world and be an unapologetic Black Girl
-Mahogany 🌹
Mar 28
Mar 28, 2026 at 12:40 AM UTC
There was nothing ever casual about me opening up my legs to you, with the way I let you take me, with the way I let you have all of me, with the way I let you deflower me with no hesitation…
Sloppily exploring me, rushing inside of me on and off tequila no matter if there was foreplay or not, there was an emptiness inside of me foolishly growing that kept me wanting more & more of whatever you were putting out…
As the years went on and as my legs opened up more for you, that foolishly emptiness I call my heart grew more fond of you and I wanted to open it up to you I wanted you to see me beyond your bedroom or even your kitchen counter…
My heart would wheeped after we touched each other because you and your body no longer wanted mine and I knew deep down inside that foolishly emptiness I call my heart knew that me and you were never going to be no matter how many sweet nothings & false promises you whispered in my ear
I let My lonely bed and now my longing heart and those sweet sweet nothings make me lose my mind all over something so casual to you, it made me wonder who was touching you ,who was liking you ,who was doing the things & saying the filthy things that we said to each other…
My heart and head hell even my body were all fighting one another I knew you didn’t care about being in my world,but you knew how to get my ******* soaking wet, I knew you didn’t care about seeing how precious my heart was, but you knew how to get me to say yes even though I wanted to say no…
You didn’t have to have my longing heart but at least could have got to know it and see what made it happy
I was only good enough for you to go deep inside my wet ***** to lay inside and say “have my babies” to lay inside me and temporarily call me yours, to lay inside me and not truly like me, to lay inside me and pluck my petals and get rid of me once you came to,to lay inside me going deep enough that my juices flowed all over your bed and to tell me that you loved me…
I foolishly spilled my feelings towards you thinking that it was a safe space for my longing heart and that you were finally opening up yours to me but you turned around humiliating me, it hit me in my chest smacking me back into reality
Causing me to see that you just wanted me to be another one in your rotation when you needed to be pleased, it caused me to see that you slowly had me wrapped around your finger doing a dance only you could teach, it caused me to finally say enough is enough and let this casual connection be…
-Mahogany 🌹
Mar 28
Mar 28, 2026 at 12:39 AM UTC
I’m a very emotional woman, very intense and passionate about my approach. I love all of me fiercely,no longer hesitant about saying why I do.
I cried enough tears for all versions of myself even the ones I haven’t even met yet
Sometimes I still slip up and forget to water my own soil but that’s the beauty of relearning yourself
I love touching myself late at night in my love nest my moans always turn me on more intensifying my ****** I love when my hair looks a mess all over my head haven’t seen or felt water in weeks it’s freeing like how my heart has been lately
I look in the mirror now and admire my beauty no matter what size I am ,to the curves ,the stretch marks ,the rolls, the dents, the dimples ,the cellulite ,the beauty marks ,the moles and even the hyperpigmentation
I admire everything on my body that makes me who I am,
I admire everything in me
I love everything about me
I admire everything in me
I love everything about me
-Mahogany 🌹
Mar 28
Mar 28, 2026 at 12:37 AM UTC
I create my best work when I’m hurtBut I can’t be hurt all the time just to create the best work.I take all that pain and turn it into artI bleed on my notebooks I bleed on my paintbrushesI bleed until there was nothing left but bloodstains left on my artwork but it’s beautiful, right? My pain is beautiful,my HURT is beautiful, right?? Hell no.Don’t you see the cracks, the leaks,the worn-out bandages? I am hurting my God, I am hurting.
How much healing do I need?How much protection do I ask for?How much vulnerability is too much?
Should I mask it all back up,or crack a window and let the fresh air & sun in letting the vitamin D sink into my skin?
My god, I create the best work when I’m hurt and alone in my apartment, so cozy and warm, surrounded by four walls. Thank god my friends can’t see the writings on my walls but
The notebooks , paintbrushes and those four walls, they know all my secrets. They’ve seen me stripped.My pillows wipe my tears,my covers hug me at night,my journals whisper: mutilate me & Let it all out.
Because where there is pain,there will always be beauty
And I am no longer a crutch to my destruction but a beautiful pillar to my restoration.
—Mahogany 🌹
Mar 28
Mar 28, 2026 at 12:36 AM UTC