Of hushed giggles, the flowers had bloomed,
As a rainbow melted into clouds unconsumed.
Of thick blades, the grass had long grown,
As the heavenly sky carried it's sun all alone.
Mar 25, 2018
Mar 25, 2018 at 5:16 AM UTC
**Sitting under the sky
away from the crowd
This Valentine's day
no music loud
Neither chocolates
Nor dinner cosy
Just aroma of coffee
No fragrance rosy
Talk heartful with
the moon and stars
Showing my heart's
deepest hidden scars
Praying to the God
to help me to heal
To remind my heart
to not to feel**
Feb 21, 2018
Feb 21, 2018 at 11:39 AM UTC
You see that light bulb?
When that light bulb stopped working,
When it was broken,
You knew.
But the thing with people is
You don’t know when they stopped working
You may not even have known
That they were broken
What a tragedy, huh?
Feb 8, 2018
Feb 8, 2018 at 1:22 PM UTC
Hi, it's been a while
I called to ask for I've been curious
All these days
Have you been fine?
I gotta be honest, I know it's late
Too late, yeah, I took a while
I hope you'd still hear me out
Just like old times
For years, by my side
Since the beginning of time
You were there and I'm thankful,
Thankful that you were mine
There were things I couldn't tell you
And feelings I failed to show
You'd probably hate how long this would be
But I thought that you should know
Ever since we parted
On our bed your empty space
Sunshine hasn't passed through the curtains
Light gone with the smile on your face
I still wait for your texts
Though I know you'd rather call
I'm not sure why I still hope for you
When I know I'm hoping for nothing at all
And the days that have passed
You never cross my mind
For you were there and never left
You haunt me all the time
I still see you in crowds
And places we used to be
In the form of silhouettes
And flashbacks of old memories
How I came to let you go
You gave up without a fight
The you whose words were beautiful
Became silence that was cold as ice
"Let's live our separate lives"
"I'm sorry, it's for the best"
I thought I didn't deserve as much
To be loved as much as love itself
No, I'm not here to apologize
To the damage already dealt
But I may be drunk to send you this
Too drunk on hurt and regret
Today you're supposed to be happy
For it's the day that you were born
And the day you walk down the aisle
With happiness that's yours to own
You were the eye and I, the storm
Like hurricanes we formed our home
You were the peace that's meant to stay
And in your life, I shall dissolve
It's not goodbye for eternity
Warmth of your peace I'd always seek
Right now we're just not meant to be
But the next lifetime, I hope it's you I still meet
Feb 7, 2018
Feb 7, 2018 at 2:43 PM UTC
I'm a ******* ice berg, cold and frigid within the ice. I will stay rooted for years, and build up that ice you can't break.
But then again..
I am a bonfire, so ******* hot I could burn you down to ashes. And even after I am doused away, I will reignite to singe you away.
Or perhaps,
I would also be the waters of the ocean, deep and dark. You'd find yourself so lost as I would drown you away.
Yet again,
I could be the winds of a cyclone, dense and strong, I may blow you far away into lands unseen, or take you within the cotton candies of heaven's azures.
Here's a twist to the above,
This is the kind of love
I'll give to my true love.
Jan 31, 2018
Jan 31, 2018 at 9:29 AM UTC
I have put you in a box in the back of my wardrobe.
You live there, safe and sound next to old hats and sweaters.
Sometimes I see your box and I run my hands across the bulging sides but never do I open in it for fear that you might escape. I tell myself that you are safer there, imprisoned inside that box. After all, if I don’t have to see you I don’t have to miss you, right?
I say these lies over and over again until I believe them because the truth is a pill too bitter for me to swallow, and I’ve swallowed a lot of pills in my life.
The truth is, not all of you fits in the box in my wardrobe. Hell, I don’t think you could fit in a thousand bulging boxes - you were always so big.
See, the rest of you resides in the back of my mind, taking up my every thought, everything thing reminds me of you and it’s getting to the point where I can see nothing else but your face.
Even though I tell myself I don’t miss you, we both know that is not true because I used to miss you when we were apart for mere moments so how could I possibly not miss you when it’s been days and weeks and months and years and it just doesn’t make any sense…
It doesn’t make any sense that I have to lock you away because we were supposed to be together forever.
Our future was matching houses right next door to each other, our children running back and forth, never asking if they could come in because the answer would always be yes. We would car pool to soccer games, school plays, dance class and graduations, not because we needed to, but because the thought of doing these things without the other made us sick to our stomachs. And when our kids were all gone we’d retire together- two old women in rocking chairs staring out at the shore, laughing and crying about all the life we had lived. This future wasn’t a dream, it was a distant reality – we were so sure of that. Do you remember when we were so sure?
I can’t seem to forget a single second of you, even the ones that burn holes in my chest and make me hate every ounce of myself.
I remember, so well, when I knew you like I knew the back of my hand – Actually, scratch that, I knew you better then I knew the back of my hand because when I was with you I never had the chance to look down.
Every line on your face, every crease in your fingers was more familiar to me than my own heartbeat, you knew me the exact same way.
I remember when, at the end of a long day, all I wanted to do was retire next to you because that’s where I was safest, the world couldn’t touch me, I was home.
You were my home.
You still are.
I think that’s why, as hard as I try I can never feel comfortable. I can never rest. Because I haven’t felt home since that day four years ago when we walked away.
You cannot be my home anymore.
See, just recently I have found a new home. It is a place that grants me invincibility- I dive off of cliffs into shallow water and jump out of airplanes without parachutes yet I’m just fine. The only catch is that I cannot take you with me.
So, I’ve set fire to the box in the back of my wardrobe, and as it is burning I am finally learning how to live without you.
But do not fear, even when the box is nothing but ashes that are scattered at opposite ends of the earth I will still remember the days in which I believed that the entire world was made up of just you and I.
And when I am an old woman in a rocking chair staring out at the shore, I will certainly be thinking about you.
Jan 31, 2018
Jan 31, 2018 at 6:52 AM UTC
If your sky is grey
let me paint it blue,
if you need love
I’ll love you.
If your heart is broken
I’ll wrap you in my wings,
I’ll sing a sweet song
reassurance it will bring.
If you need a friend
I’m always there,
I’ll pick the stars
and place them in your hair.
When you feel alone
don’t be afraid to call,
for I’ll always catch you
if you stumble and fall.
If you’re sad and blue
just remember,
I’m your friend
I’ll always love you!
Jan 31, 2018
Jan 31, 2018 at 6:27 AM UTC