I sat there in the wooden office chair
My boss sits across from me
A dark wooden desk sits between us
Outside the window
The buzzing of drones serving the queen
Thoughtlessly focused on their tasks
My boss snaps me back
Another warning on my “productivity”
Maybe this time I’ll shape up
Bees leave to find flowers
But they are never far from the hive
They are shackled with a purpose to the whole
I sit in my car just before leaving for home
My wrists and neck stiff from another day's worth of tasks
I’ll be back here tomorrow
And the next day
Jul 12, 2022
Jul 12, 2022 at 11:09 PM UTC
I emerge from underneath the ground
Dust off the dirt on my body and hair
When was the last time I came up for air?
I walk down the street and realize I’ve missed so much
My friends and family are different, grown, changed
The job I have has piled up more and more tasks, I guess I missed them
I make it home, it’s the one thing that hasn’t changed
The same rooms the same furniture the same clothes
When I look in the mirror I see a sorry face.
When was the last time I saw myself?
I keep walking in a dizzy haze
It’s all so different, I’ve missed so much of the world and the people I knew
I crave something familiar
Something comforting
So I turn my back on the world passing me by
I go back underground
Aug 31, 2020
Aug 31, 2020 at 12:04 PM UTC
Cotton candy kisses
Your breath dissolves at the tip of my tongue
Sweet sayings slip away during pauses for air
Gold honey droplets swirl around in your eyes
A cool mint winter night
But together we are hot coffee with cream
The way our love fogged the windows like melted sugar glaze
Sweet
Sweet like the first box of chocolates I bought you
Sweet like those gummy worms you love so much
Sweet like caramel drizzled over an apple I would wait an hour in line to get you even when I don't like caramel apples
Sweet like you
Aug 26, 2020
Aug 26, 2020 at 12:22 PM UTC
Staring out my windshield
Eyes are numb to the roads
Street lights start to blend
Swerve
Roll down the windows
Blast the music loud
Bring your head back to earth
Swerve
Didn’t see that one
Ok no music
Just focus on th-
Swerve
The fatigue seeps in
Too many late nights
So many bright lights
Swerve
Arms drop to my side
Eyes close and my head falls
A loud blare still echoing
Crash..
Sep 30, 2018
Sep 30, 2018 at 12:55 AM UTC
It's been too long since I last kissed you
The last time was really something new
Who would’ve ever knew
Something so real and so true
And I remember how you tasted
The taste of salt on your skin when we were naked
The taste of passion as we devoured each others faces
I tasted love that night and no it wasn’t wasted
But now the weeks gone bye
For some a quick blink of the eye
Why am I trapped in the sands of time
Thinking of our time together every hour not gonna lie
Baby it’s been too long since I last kissed you
And when I see you it’s the best view
I know you miss me too
Cause when we’re together that’s our best mood
I wanna hear you shout my name
The way you say it doesn’t sound the same
I hear the sound of someone who’s not ashamed
The sound of our hearts as we exclaim
Now it’s almost Sunday
We’ll probably meet at the café
Not long until we make it back to my place
I mean what more can I say
It’s been way too long since I last kissed you. ;)
Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 8:53 PM UTC
Three am
A faint glow that steals me from my dreams
An eerie light, I stare with bloodshot eyes
I try to peel myself away but find no solace in my bed
The machine calls to me
It's inhuman humming floods my mind from rationality
Exhaustion appears at four
But sleep eludes me still
I scroll through the endless distractions to tire my brain with stimuli
The headphones now causing my ears to ring, harmonizing with the inhuman hum
The sound of the insomniac, I can almost make out the words
By five I have conceded
Pointlessly laying down while begging to the ether for at least an hour of rest
Six I pass out
Seven time to get ready for school
Sep 4, 2018
Sep 4, 2018 at 3:12 PM UTC
I just wanted to be happy
And in your eyes I saw the sun
Do you think that's why my wings melted?
I got too close
And my walls came undone
With them did my heart have to crumble?
I have to wonder
And feel free to be honest
Was the pain intentional or are you that oblivious?
I just wanted to feel
And now I am only numb
I can't rebuild my heart, will it matter in the end?
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 11:28 PM UTC
These students are walking
There headphones are blaring
Disattached from the world
Blankly they are staring
I glance at the clock
Not wanting to talk
My headphones are broken
So silent i walk
Forced to find
Something that will blind
A kind of distraction
To keep from the demons in the back of my mind
Away from the fears
The wandering ears
So evil are the demons
That bring me to tears
The looming of dept
The fear of regret
Without any distraction
I cannot forget
My headphones are broken
The demons have awoken
This silence it scares me
As do the fears i have spoken
This walk is taking forever
This heat a blistering fever
Forced to be grounded
With nothing to be a deceiver
My headphones are broken
My dark thoughts have risen
The evil I try to tuck away
Anger, pain, and fear I am stricken
Finally back in my room
Protection from the lurking doom
I blast the music as loud as i can
And the demons return to their tomb
Sep 1, 2018
Sep 1, 2018 at 9:56 PM UTC
My vision is fading
My mind has been slipping
I fear it is over
My time with the living
You can't expect me to take it
I held you on my back and you broke it
My finger on the trigger I might pull it
My brains on the wall would be a sight wouldn't it
At least the pain would stop
I'd be free from the feeling
I just wanted to make it to the top
You loved to be my ceiling
No turning back now
Music blaring too loud
Speed hitting 200
Soon I'll be in the clouds
Would you care then?
Tell everyone you were my friend?
Say you wish you were there in the end?
I wish you were there in the end.
Sep 1, 2018
Sep 1, 2018 at 12:16 AM UTC