She was made of something different; I could never shake the feeling that she was something else completely.
She loved so deeply that it would put oceans to shame, she was magic in every sense of the word. I could never understand why she chose me.
She was pure and sweet, her smile alone could wear the most bitter of men down, and the only way I could accept her love was by making her feel less than ordinary.
She loved me more than she loved herself, did more for me than I did for myself, but something inside me came alive each time she’d weep because of me.
She was an angel sent by God, his gift to me, but like a toddler with a toy, I tore off her wings and tossed her to Lucifer to keep as his plaything.
Feb 22, 2021
Feb 22, 2021 at 7:31 PM UTC
When I was a child I was the ugly duckling personified. My days and nights were filled with dreams of being breathtakingly beautiful, a sight for sore eyes.
When I became a woman, I realised that Tv, magazines and movies had lied. I’m breathtakingly beautiful yes, but there’s a hole in my soul I have to perpetually hide.
When I was a child I’d scoff at those who said beauty was pain. My conditioned brain found this notion absurdly insane. I maintained that if I was ever breathtakingly beautiful, I’d never have the audacity to complain!
When I became a woman, all my breathtaking beauty ever bought me was pain. Ironically with every heartbreak I became even more beautiful, but inside my soul I am tormented by demons bearing my ex lovers names.
Feb 20, 2021
Feb 20, 2021 at 10:30 PM UTC
If I could love anyone with all my soul again, I swear beautiful boy it would be you.
I’d tell you every day that your smile stops me in my steps every time I see it and it reverberates throughout my mind, body and soul.
I’d count the seconds until seeing you again every moment we’re apart and happily accept the longing stabbing my heart.
I’d sit with you in silence, grateful to be close to your aura’s beautiful glow, content in the feeling of finally being home.
I’d remain beside you even in a war zone, making beautiful music from the background of explosions and military drones.
I’d do this all and more beautiful boy, if I could. Oh how I wish I could. I wish I could.
Feb 17, 2021
Feb 17, 2021 at 4:56 PM UTC
I was an innocent drawn to the broken and emotionally dead.
Like a moth to a flame I flew straight into my death.
The personification of fools rush in where angels fear to tread.
Feb 13, 2021
Feb 13, 2021 at 7:58 PM UTC
You don’t love me.
You never did.
I stopped chasing.
We ceased to exist.
Feb 13, 2021
Feb 13, 2021 at 7:56 PM UTC
You said you were enthralled by the fire in my eyes when I spoke of my distrust of the government and their lies
You smiled that infectious smile of wonderment when I would randomly quote Kafka and Nietzsche, your eyes gave away your admiration whenever you’d watch me speak
You were the first to acknowledge how my mind outshone my beauty, you spoke incessantly about how you’d never met anyone quite like me
And then you left.
Feb 11, 2021
Feb 11, 2021 at 6:41 PM UTC
It seems like I’ve been stuck between sadness and insanity for an infinity, so much so that that three of us are bound for life; such is our bittersweet shared affinity
Feb 11, 2021
Feb 11, 2021 at 5:03 PM UTC
Perfectly perfect, that’s what I moulded myself to be. Aesthetically appealing, the knees of a bee.
Smile like the sunrise, welcoming, warm and bright. Enough to illuminate an entire city at night.
Manner so gentle and understanding. A shoulder and ***** for every waif and stray.
Heart so clean and pure. Even when shattered to pieces it has the propensity to love you even more.
Soul dark and deadly, but only a hazard to myself. I’m a danger to my own health.
But perfectly perfect is what you’ll only ever see.
Feb 9, 2021
Feb 9, 2021 at 9:59 PM UTC
Empty because I feel so full.
Full of doubt, full of anxiety, full of self loathing.
Broke because I’m spent.
I’ve spent all my kindness, I’ve spent all my understanding, I’ve spent all my love.
Ignorant because I’m enlightened.
Enlightened to the true nature of the world, enlightened to the true nature of heartbreak, enlightened to the true nature of you.
Feb 9, 2021
Feb 9, 2021 at 9:45 PM UTC
I set fire to his soul through my eyes alone. Without touching him I built inside him a permanent home.
Your beauty, your curves, your aesthetic perfection will never be enough, he will never be completely satiated with just lust.
You see, he has experienced my heart, my mind and my soul and for eternity now nobody else will ever come close.
Feb 8, 2021
Feb 8, 2021 at 6:34 PM UTC