You read my words
In your voice
Your tone
And it was wrong, all wrong
Those words weren't meant for you
You weren't supposed to memorize them
Break them down and analyze them
You weren't supposed to twist them
Make them all wrong
You weren't supposed to read them.
Never.
Jan 7
Jan 7, 2026 at 9:25 PM UTC
There are people I have met
Most don't fit into my life anymore
One will resurface when I decide
And some who never really belonged
But every person taught me something
One showed me beauty in sadness
One was there when I needed them most
One was my first love
One was a reminder of my worth
And one I will run to when the time
Is right for me
Each caused a pain of their own
But each were necessary to my growth
I couldn't be who I am without them.
Jan 7
Jan 7, 2026 at 9:20 PM UTC
It's strange, to feel okay again
Like I'm postponing the end
Maybe this time the sun will stay
And I won't dread every single day
Jan 7
Jan 7, 2026 at 8:41 PM UTC
I like to think on the good things
Like your voice when you sing
But also the little things
Like goldfish in the meatloaf
When we were small
Or peanut butter and jelly instead
Of egg salad because I didn't like it at all
These are the memories I want in my head
I don't want to remember you being mad
But somehow the good never outweighs
The bad
Jan 1
Jan 1, 2026 at 3:01 PM UTC
I'm back in that place again
Waking up is a chore
Moving is too hard
Eating is torture
And sleeping ceases to exist
My smile is forced
Headaches are frequent
There's something wrong with me
Seriously
How can no one see??
Dec 30, 2025
Dec 30, 2025 at 11:48 PM UTC
I can't stop the thoughts
That play in my mind every night
I replay memories
I rewrite scripts
I memorize words
I play the music instead
It helps
But it doesn't glue the cracks
That the thoughts slip through
I'm broken
My mind is undone
Dec 30, 2025
Dec 30, 2025 at 11:45 PM UTC
I don't know how to be me.
I don't know how to be me.
Everyone has suggestions
Talk like this
Walk like that
Don't act like this
Be more like that
I never had the chance to find me
So I'm sorry if
I don't know how to be me.
Dec 30, 2025
Dec 30, 2025 at 11:42 PM UTC
Have I impacted
Anyone's life?
I feel like a floater
Drifting around, but never grounded
Never touching anyone
Never reaching them
With my words or actions
Do I cross someone's mind
The way others cross mine?
Do I?
Don't lie
Dec 30, 2025
Dec 30, 2025 at 11:40 PM UTC
Have you lost your mind??
Yes
I don't even know where it is anymore
Find
Dec 30, 2025
Dec 30, 2025 at 11:36 PM UTC
A father seated behind us
A newborn in his arms
Two toddlers running about
An elderly couple beside us
Wearing matching flannel shirts
One pink, one blue
A smiling girl
About ten, licking an ice cream
Her mother and father surrounding her
A teenage worker with a green apron
Eating blue ice cream alone with a spoon
While I sit crowded into a booth
Wanting to know everyone's story
Dec 27, 2025
Dec 27, 2025 at 10:41 PM UTC