There is a certain pain
hiding behind your bolted heart
that you locked so eagerly
for someone who does not even want to find the key,
let alone take the time to put the key in the lock,
twist the ****
and allow you to let them close to you.
The hologram of their attention
dissipates the second you touch it,
for you were never the one it was meant for.
And your delusions stare back at you in the mirror
knowing that everything between you is completely fictional.
You know you were never their muse,
their one true love,
yet you would do anything to have them chain their heart to yours.
1d ago
Jun 3, 2026 at 4:35 PM UTC
I look up at you with beseeching eyes,
Like an idiot.
I ask endless questions,
And beg for an explanation,
Like a curious toddler.
I wait to know what I could have done
to experience reciprocated love
And be eternally cared for,
Like an abandoned puppy.
No matter how hard I try to delineate,
No matter what I equate myself to,
you will never be able to fully comprehend
Why my forgiveness is choked back
unlike ever before.
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 2:55 AM UTC
Every river that has eroded my cheeks
watered the flowers she holds so dearly.
Every broken sob was turned into a melody,
used to soothe her tenderness.
And every wasted minute
was added to her coalescence.
Now my wounds only heal to jagged scars,
left forgotten and unattended.
Might she be unaware that my anguish has grown so fond of her?
Or is she ignorant of the canyons left in my conscience while her wonderland spirals around your lies?
Regardless, with time, she will know
That rivers do not stay barren,
Flowers wilt without proper care,
Melodies go off key
And every clock eventually stops ticking.
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 12:54 AM UTC
Dormancy is defined as a state of suspended growth and reduced metabolic activity that acts as an adaptive mechanism for survival, primarily studied in seeds and perennial plants. They stand frozen, unmoving.
The everlasting winter crystalizes your naivety and clots your veins, with the all-consuming latency hidden behind a chemically induced heartbeat, yet you keep moving deeper into the unchartered blizzard.
Blind faith in the ability of circumstances to change is the integral difference between people and plants.
Humans foolishly wake up in the thick winter and hope for the sun to warm that frost that has settled far beneath your skin.
You ache for the rays to trace you softly until the shards within you mend.
Plants, however, do not trust blindly, but rather wait until they’ve experienced enough heat to trust that spring is real.
What a foolish species we are, expecting warmth from frost and comfort from stone.
Apr 17
Apr 17, 2026 at 10:52 AM UTC
I am autumn
Not the autumn the gloom chokes your airways
And the chill that strokes your hair preemptively.
But rather the last summer sun
Clawing through the clouds
That are begging for rain.
I am the flowers holding onto their last bloom
Trying to escape the withering wilt
I am the leaves that line cobblestone
Piling up
And waiting for childlike joy
To give me purpose
Before I turn to rot.
I am the smell of cinnamon and compost
Swirling between the morning dew.
I am the knowledge
that everything will come to an end
But the comfort
Of feeling that everything will still be okay
After the sun falls asleep.
May 26, 2025
May 26, 2025 at 1:51 PM UTC
Golden pins pushed through my leotard,
making deep groves in the wall,
ripping the seems of my dreams,
puncturing the stars in my eyes,
hanging me up for the world to see.
A display of fortune
That has nothing to do with me.
because you dont know this person
you pinned up so proudly
you only know
who you wanted her so desperately to be
Anyone but me.
With time, the gold leaf flaked off,
showing the cheap copper nibs.
no facade lasts forever,
because i was never your child
only your muse.
Dec 18, 2024
Dec 18, 2024 at 3:36 PM UTC
Dear beloved sunshine
I am endlessly thankful
That the blades were too dull,
The pills were too weak,
The roof was too low.
You never would've seen the beauty
Of the life we've come to know.
The love of our life,
The people that came and went
The sun shining down on our tattered skin,
Caressing every inch
Like a lost lover.
The pieces you hid
That you love more than ever before
Never forget how special you are.
With all my love
- your sunshine
Aug 18, 2024
Aug 18, 2024 at 10:27 AM UTC
The rays of the everpresent sun tends to drip on my face in the most unfortunate times
With the yellow haze that has clouded the vision of those around me
The twinkle in my eye is completely misleading
For the moonstone glimmer is anything but a window to my soul
It is merely a drop of sunlight
That keeps the world away from how I truly feel
May 13, 2024
May 13, 2024 at 9:13 AM UTC
I have learnt that worth isn't measured linearly
For I am good enough for your hungry eyes
To trace every curve and fold of my figure
Yet I am not worthy of our lips meeting
And the warmth of your being infusing into mine.
I am attractive enough for you to see me in my most vulnerable state,
Yet I should not even dare to wish to hold your hand
Because I am only good enough when I don't have any clothes on.
Jul 28, 2022
Jul 28, 2022 at 12:29 AM UTC
I've learnt to love thunder
It brings me a strange sence of comfort
Because it always manages to remind me of you
The soft rumble has a similar rasp to your voice
And the rain that follows will always remind me of the days I've spent dreaming about holding you while the rain pours outside my window
Lightning doesn't frighten me anymore
The flashes of light have grown familiar to me
Just as familiar as the flash of light in your eyes
That seem to spark every time i see you
I've learnt to love thunder
I've learnt to love you
Jun 15, 2022
Jun 15, 2022 at 12:14 AM UTC