time continues
ready or not
continuous clock
non- stop, tick tock
frozen in place
minds race
crave change
sadness remains
swallow me whole
eat me up
twist and turn
and ring me out
slap my face
wake me up
dance in the rain
thunderstruck
murdered hopes
decontrol
numbing pain
distant gain
tears steadily flow
anguish grows
I miss her so
take me home
slowly dying
faithfully trying
life not living
stubbornly willing
jokes on me
puppet on a string
sense of humor
punchline rumor
energy electric
inimitably connected
meant to be pull that string
devastating
dangle that carrot
love and cherish
another lie
all hope dies
hurt still aches
sleep or wake
alongside time
frozen in place
ace up my sleeve
spirit in me
Jun 22, 2019
Jun 22, 2019 at 11:00 AM UTC
turning our backs
with judgmental eyes
lack of tact demoralize
fellow man down in need
not realizing how easily
they could be you
or even me
beggars on the street
demolish devour disgrace
pretend they have no face
earnestly entreats the elites
not realizing how easily
that could be you
or even me
young innocent naive
with child she believed
horrified immortalized
abandoned aborticide
not realizing how easily
that could be you
or even me
adolescent candy man
hanging out big time men
positive poisoned gat plan
dart defunct departed deceased
not realizing how easily
that could be you
or even me
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 6:09 PM UTC
twilight streaming lights do shine
nothing brighter than a child’s eyes
tinsel toy soldiers sleigh rides
snowball fights anticipations rise
a never before told story kept in disguise
every holiday season it’s been the grandest surprise
with a zip zap zing of fairy dust **** from the skies
twinkle, sprinkle, ****** crinkle and wrinkle
perform astonishing amazing wondrous delights
in the tree stands the secret lies
elven homes in the noble firs and virginia pines
passage ways to a small shoreland realm
lead to the luminescence land of Lindon
the empire where all the elegant elves reside
while we’re sleeping snuggled in our beds
Christmas excitement running through our heads
toys, gifts, presents, love, hope, good will to our fellow man
gold and silver shining bells ringing waving Santa’s hand
conjuring mystical spells, hues of azure
pulsating emerald illuminating glow
strong green fire enchanted arrow
wizard traverse’s dimensions door
cast into the universe all our dreams set free
transferred to Christmas miracles under our trees
Jun 21, 2019
Jun 21, 2019 at 6:05 PM UTC
soft gentle kiss light headed bliss
suckle his lips fingertips brush my hips
hands on his face fully embraced
time stops, as our eyes lock
passion ignites alluring delights
sensational fragmenting heights
lost in opalescent oblivion hues
crimson lilac lavenders and blues
naturally attuned arousal infused
his hot **** moans breathtaking groans
glistening steam inferno heat
our bodies perfect rhythmical beat
his mouth tightened on my neck
pressure ******* my shortened fast breaths
the harder the better enhances my pleasure
sends blood rushing instantly thrusting
furious frenzy pinch and a squeeze
wildly trembling euphoric release
shockwaves rippling between my thighs
squirming spasms bewildering highs
moans and whimpers turn into screams
clinging my fingernails under your cheeks
biting your shoulder roaring like thunder
clamping down hard pulling me under
love how it feels when you pull my hair tight
slapping NO, but you can squeeze, pinch,
clamp down, pull, **** and bite
as long as you do each one, exactly just right
Jun 20, 2019
Jun 20, 2019 at 12:12 PM UTC
tears are flowing as I write
some pains never fade
stay the same as if it happened today
so let me try to get this just right
I was just 16 moved to florida
from growing up in northern virginia
no friends, young and wild and facing
a lovers betrayal which changed my heart
first person I met I’d walk to the bar
was a guy named Joe Martin
he was hitting on the girl i was with
I remember she was crying so he gave her a kiss
from that day on, him and I were best friends
hung out all the time I completely trusted him
he caught feelings love he’d say
those sure words would make me run away
he always talk about his brother Jack
family nickname for him was Nat
all the adventures they shared
his love for his brother was rare
over a year or maybe longer I forget
finally one day his brother visited
on leave from the marine’s set to deploy
didn’t think much either way of that boy
we all hung out in and out at the beach
once Jack came over and my mom looked at me
she said “he’s cute” what do you think
i said “you think so, hmm let me see
relationships of that kind were not for me
something Iran from and certainly didn’t seek
but my dear mother she planted that seed
and pretty quickly Jack was hitting on me
we were alone I drove him to the lake
a place where he’d swim he couldn’t get me in
this day he was quite bold wanting
to be with me right there and than
I was intrigued and told him if he wanted to date me
he’d have to do it right
put in the effort talk to his brother
make sure it’s alright
from that day on we were together
every day and every night
seemed like weeks maybe month
but back than felt like years
the day finally came for him to leave
Joe was in the driver’s seat of my 69 firebird
cherry red white top convertible
top was down i was in the back
than Jack came running out
duffle in hand kissed me and climbed in
I said to him “did you tell your mom goodbye”
he said “yes I did, why”, I said “did you tell her you love her”
he looked in my eyes, smiled and ran back inside
off to the greyhound bus station car full of kids
I swear that boy lip locked me I couldn’t catch my breath
he didn’t let go the entire trip
we said our goodbyes and waved as his bus left
deployed to Beirut Lebanon 1983
he wrote me every week
told me about what it was like there
and how he’d reup with his sergeant’s despair
encouraged my schooling said I’d do great
told me of the culture and the barracks and mates
how he was taught use infrared telescope
from the roof spot any mortar or any dangers
he wanted to re-enlist to save money for his future
he was proud to defend our country
than the worse news went round the world
on October 23, 1983, two truck bombs struck buildings in beirut, lebanon, housing American and French service members of the multinational force in lebanon (MNF), a military peacekeeping operation during the lebanese civil war. the attack killed 307 people: 241 u.s. and 58 french military personnel, six civilians, and two attackers.
disbelieving and it took at least a week
before they found his body
in the pile buried underneath
all of us hoping he’d be ok no relief
I was at my brother’s funeral in maryland
all the family was at my grandma’s after the service
when Jack’s mom called with the heart wrenching news
I thought for sure there’d be no way, that god would
take them both away
when I returned back home to florida
waiting for me in the mailbox
my last letter from Jack
that glimmer of hope of a mistake quickly passed
his last letter read:
‘did you hear the new rainbow album
bent out of shape with
ritchie blackmore and ronnie james dio”?
“don’t you worry about me
telling me to be in right place at the wrong time
hell “I’m trying to be in the wrong place at the right time”
Love,
Nat
Jack was 22 I was 18
young private first class marine
died as a peacekeeper, no weapons no defense
the list of the rules first three were intense
until October 23, 1983, there were ten guidelines issued for each u.s. marine member of the MNF:
the perimeter guards at the u.s. marine headquarters on the sunday morning of October 23, 1983, were in full compliance with rules 1–3 and were unable to shoot fast enough to disable or stop the bombers.
1. when on post, mobile or foot patrol, keep loaded magazine in weapon, bolt closed, weapon on safe, no round in the chamber.
2. do not chamber a round unless instructed to do so by a commissioned officer unless you must act in immediate self-defense where deadly force is authorized.
3. keep ammo for crew-served weapons readily available but not loaded in the weapon. weapons will be on safe at all times.
4. call local forces to assist in self-defense effort. notify headquarters.
5. use only minimum degree of force to accomplish any mission.
6. stop the use of force when it is no longer needed to accomplish the mission.
7. if you receive effective hostile fire, direct your fire at the source. if possible, use friendly snipers.
8. respect civilian property; do not attack it unless absolutely necessary to protect friendly forces.
9. protect innocent civilians from harm.
10. respect and protect recognized medical agencies such as red cross, red crescent, etc.
the first suicide bomber detonated a truck bomb at the building serving as a barracks for the 1st battalion 8th marines (battalion landing team – blt 1/8) of the 2nd marine division, killing 220 marines, 18 sailors and 3 soldiers, making this incident the deadliest single-day death toll for the united states marine corps since the battle of iwo jima in world war ii, the deadliest single-day death toll for the united states armed forces since the first day of the tet offensive in the vietnam war, the deadliest terrorist attack on american citizens in general prior to the september 11 attacks, and the deadliest terrorist attack on american citizens overseas. the explosives used were later estimated to be equivalent to as much as 9, 500 kg (21, 000 pounds) of tnt.
minutes later, a second suicide bomber struck the nine-story drakkar building, a few kilometers away, where the french contingent was stationed; 55 paratroopers from the 1st parachute chasseur regiment and three paratroopers of the 9th parachute chasseur regiment were killed and 15 injured. it was the single worst french military loss since the end of the algerian war.the wife and four children of a lebanese janitor at the french building were also killed, and more than twenty other lebanese civilians were injured.
our lives forever changed that day
families, our country, our nation, blood stained.
innocent men and women and children die for us
every single second of every single day
In honor of all of them and
Private First class Jack L. Martin (1961-1983)
there’s a special place in heaven for such angels as these!
below is our song, rainbow “street of dreams”
released 1983 (bent out of shape)
I sometimes wonder what would or could of been
sure did love that Nat Martin!
my purpose was profound
Jun 20, 2019
Jun 20, 2019 at 12:10 PM UTC
alone is where I seem to be
no matter how deep
or powerful, our connectivity
a lonely emotional frequency
alone is where I seem to thrive
an empath’s lonely kind of life
wipe the blur from my eyes
help the others to empathize
alone beside my loving thoughts
sharing wondrous beauties sought
A laugh a smile a burden bearer
the sweetness when your soul is clearer
alone inside my lonely heart
in and out of the dark
how briefly our love, than it parts
but Ahh the feeling of hope that sparks
alone is where I shine the most
glorious glimmering rays of hope
glowing force of healing light
strength inside makes it bright
in this man’s humanity
one, is good enough for me
all the universal energies
fill this lonely spirit free
Jun 20, 2019
Jun 20, 2019 at 12:08 PM UTC
close your eyes and listen close
through the wind her energy flows
in that blue bird outside your window
watching over you, and all is known
hear the echoes of her song
happy birthday darling one
flowing harmony love so strong
all of heaven singing along
feel her red lipstick smile
tantalizing tingles hearts desires
in your spirit she resides
for eternity and all of time
walks along side you every hour
gives you strength higher power
gorgeous fragrant vibrant flower
with such pride angelic shower
trickery and games she plays
hide the car keys in the maze
underneath the sunshine rays
many kinds of masquerades
so every time a coin is found
let you know she’s always around
or the sweet scent of intuition
she’s trying to capture your attention
she was blessed on this day
precious baby daughter, she named Lorraine
you were specially chosen, from up above
interwoven never-ending eternal love
Jun 20, 2019
Jun 20, 2019 at 12:07 PM UTC
if father time lent me the power
to rewind the minutes and hours
if seconds were mine
I’d run backwards in time
to be forever with you
if your kisses were everlasting
if desires and dreams became real
I’d keep every kiss, pressed on my lips
once more, to be forever with you
seems we spend our lives to search to find
the one true love of our lifetime
hard to find one
I’ve searched the world high and low
I'm one of the lucky ones I know
I found you
if falling stars granted my wishes
and all I long for became true
all the stars in the sky
would fall by your side
granting all wishes, wished only by you
seems we spend our lives to search to find
the one true love of our lifetime
hard to find one
I’ve searched the world high and low
I'm one of the lucky ones I know
I found you
Jun 20, 2019
Jun 20, 2019 at 12:06 PM UTC
real beauty is authentic
amazing adorable alluring angelic
excites the keenest of pleasures
stirs emotions through the senses
chemistry love vortex electric
enthralling enticing enchanting energetic
weak knees light- headedness
uncensored thoughts freudian slips
hypnotic desire tantalizing magic
mesmerizing mystical marvelous magnetic
risqué intense lascivious
euphoria perfected delirious
hair, waist- long natural baby blonde lovelock
light lingering lavender lovely luscious lilac
charismatic aura illuminates confidence shines
blue-green mirrored black iridescent eyes
my words have no hidden meaning specific
sassy sensitive selfless sincere sympathetic
bubbly sweet honest never lies
kind loving caring altruistic wise
complex multiple layered thinking
self- awareness unbiased honesty
life societal world understanding
conscience ethical moral complexity
written word undefined
best I could do is the first line
visual physical distractions
not for your eyes to see
take time or you may miss her
real genuine purity
character defines beauty
look inside her soul and spirit deeply
insightful glowing fascinating vibrancy
most beautiful woman discovery
May 1, 2019
May 1, 2019 at 11:14 AM UTC
In the mirror image of a life I have not yet seen
one side a life surviving not living
the other all the wanderlust possibilities
my spiritual needs yearning desires guiding me
soaring through the sky where the angels fly
cotton soft puffy clouds sunshine prisms all around
calm picturesque freedom flowing delicate elegance
the aqua marine reflections from the oceans and the coral seas
majestic cliffs of Moher beds of Namur Ian
shale and sandstone moss green with gray tones
ancient river channels cutting through below
razor bills black with white undersides
monogamous birds one mate for life
grey seals, porpoise’s basking sharks minke whales
enormous sunfish feral goats, foxes, badgers and the Irish hare
the forest and trees higher than you can climb or see
pine cones autumn leaves amber brush fluttering
orange yellows crimson glittery golds season of beauty to behold
sleeping at night with open windows
under covers snuggled warm your face and nose briskly cold
a humble cottage on a rocky cliff
flashing lighthouse in the distance
waves breaking curling over into foam
rumbling crashing one after the next
dolphins dancing twirling laughing playing the children of the sea
magnificent whales splashing jumping singing rhythmical harmony
artic circle captivating mountain wilderness
Yukon’s pristine dempster highway breathtaking
foothills covered with chromatic tundra and celestial fireworks
fiery fall radiance dappling off the crystal clear lakes and creeks
grizzly bears and cubs fumble fishing, prancing reindeer
the woodsmen devil wolverine gulo mustelidae
private aurora hunting for the best magic light clear sky
beside a campfire with hot chocolate and roasting marshmallows
beneath kaleidoscopic crown of the borealis polychromatic hues
illuminating vibrating tones of purples winter greens and blues
wild horses running free on the oceans shore
zebras, long neck giraffes hearing the lions roar
elephants’ trunk eating peanuts from my hand
riding a camel on the desert sand
I don’t want to leave before I see
all of the world’s delicate majesties
break free of a life of sorrow and stress
experience this life the way it was meant
universal splendor engulfs my essence
wraps itself around me calling and pulling internally
mystical mysteries the forests living beings
stay lost in the woods with them for eternity
need to be as one with earth, animals and the breeze
through this window I vividly see
every piece of them in every piece of me
stars, twilight the moon how it shines
inside your body stimulates your mind
all of nature breathes in every part
calming my tortured painful heart
seeing there’s so much more to you,
understanding tides, the powder blue skies
paired grey wolves howling under the moon whimpering cries
connection you have to all worldly things
taking the time and reeling all of them in
swaying under the twinkling stars
skinning dipping in the dark
fawn’s first peek, frolicking playful antics of lion cubs
and their mothers hovering protective love
greenest of grass light and bright with a faint bluish cast
verdant diamond field meadow of effervescent wildflowers
all the colors on the color wheel
and maybe discover a few new ones still
sensual loveliness breath taking appeal
lay down slumber there for the day,
around your head butterflies fluttering in the sunshine play
bumble bee’s buzzing, honey suckle lilac
intoxicating fragrant scent
that place we all go to feel carefree
a permanent vacation from man’s society
that place we want to stay and never leave
imagine how many of them there may be
I want to spend the rest of my days
adventuring how many there are out there for me
fantasy wonderlands reality?
this planet earth holds infinitely
than I can leave this well lived life
to my heaven surrounded by
all the innocent creatures for all of time
that to me is eternally sublime
with no regrets left behind
May 1, 2019
May 1, 2019 at 11:12 AM UTC