Lovewouldwin - Hello Poetry

You are in my morning coffee My happy thoughts The old memories that swirl in my brain, always swirl back to you I think of you when I put on makeup When I get dressed When I hold all the parts of me, You loved like no one else When I say I hate commitment When I’m singing and dancing Or crying and shaking I think of you My late night drinks And cigarettes taste like your lips I think of you Do you think of me too?

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Oct 18, 2015

Oct 18, 2015 at 12:54 AM UTC

Is this what they call love?

You are in my morning coffee My happy thoughts The old memories that swirl in my brain, always swirl back to you I think of you when I put on makeup When I get dressed When I hold all the parts of me, You loved like no one else When I say I hate commitment When I’m singing and dancing Or crying and shaking I think of you My late night drinks And cigarettes taste like your lips I think of you Do you think of me too?

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My smiles are stitched in place my words are a script my laughs are rehearsed I fold the anger under my skin swallow the pain down tuck the shame behind my hair every heartbreak deep down inside my chest I have mastered the art of disguising my demons but when you look at me I am transparent every story floods from my skin bursting to be told begging to be discovered when you hold me you hold every awful memory and when you kiss me oh god when you kiss me it all fades away and I am free

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Oct 12, 2015

Oct 12, 2015 at 7:57 PM UTC

Never let me go

My smiles are stitched in place my words are a script my laughs are rehearsed I fold the anger under my skin swallow the pain down tuck the shame behind my hair every heartbreak deep down inside my chest I have mastered the art of disguising my demons but when you look at me I am transparent every story floods from my skin bursting to be told begging to be discovered when you hold me you hold every awful memory and when you kiss me oh god when you kiss me it all fades away and I am free

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I don't love you I don't love your flaws I hate them you tore me to pieces I hate so many things about you you are like nicotine worse than the hits I take I crave so many pieces of you but only pieces I can never love you fully as a whole I love the sections of you I handpicked and re arranged into who I want I don't love you anymore I love feeling loved.

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Jul 20, 2015

Jul 20, 2015 at 1:58 AM UTC

If i loved you

I don't love you I don't love your flaws I hate them you tore me to pieces I hate so many things about you you are like nicotine worse than the hits I take I crave so many pieces of you but only pieces I can never love you fully as a whole I love the sections of you I handpicked and re arranged into who I want I don't love you anymore I love feeling loved.

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I don't love you I don't love your flaws I hate them you tore me to pieces I hate so many things about you you are like nicotine worse than the hits I take I crave so many pieces of you but only pieces I can never love you fully as a whole I love the sections of you I handpicked and re arranged into who I want I don't love you anymore I love feeling loved.

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Jul 20, 2015

Jul 20, 2015 at 1:57 AM UTC

Untitled

I don't love you I don't love your flaws I hate them you tore me to pieces I hate so many things about you you are like nicotine worse than the hits I take I crave so many pieces of you but only pieces I can never love you fully as a whole I love the sections of you I handpicked and re arranged into who I want I don't love you anymore I love feeling loved.

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Everything is falling apart I can feel the grief in the air each breath i take is like a rock in my throat the truth is no one knows what to do we are all wandering blindly into the woods stumbling, tripping, trying to find an answer a conclusion but doubt is endless my body is so tired its skin so scarred her eyes are dark and his voice is low father and my mother sleep in separate rooms my sister sleeps in our living room her husband across town my brothers ring is no longer on his hand their puzzle pieces fill my arms to many to carry to many arguments the spaces between them are flooded with fear i am drowning

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Apr 11, 2015

Apr 11, 2015 at 2:33 AM UTC

"Are we out of the woods?"

Everything is falling apart I can feel the grief in the air each breath i take is like a rock in my throat the truth is no one knows what to do we are all wandering blindly into the woods stumbling, tripping, trying to find an answer a conclusion but doubt is endless my body is so tired its skin so scarred her eyes are dark and his voice is low father and my mother sleep in separate rooms my sister sleeps in our living room her husband across town my brothers ring is no longer on his hand their puzzle pieces fill my arms to many to carry to many arguments the spaces between them are flooded with fear i am drowning

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No longer memories, just empty scenes in my mind endlessly replaying im ready to move on these fragments of broken glass keep cutting me so deep, rupturing my veins and spilling out my bones, just let me go and let me be i wanna get out i wanna be free its like a record player stuck on repeat im running in place im running alone I see new scars on top of scars, on top of scars each time i look they multiply each time i look i wanna tear my skin piece by piece take it away because the more i learn to love myself the more it hurts to see.

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Apr 6, 2015

Apr 6, 2015 at 12:20 AM UTC

Scar Tissue

No longer memories, just empty scenes in my mind endlessly replaying im ready to move on these fragments of broken glass keep cutting me so deep, rupturing my veins and spilling out my bones, just let me go and let me be i wanna get out i wanna be free its like a record player stuck on repeat im running in place im running alone I see new scars on top of scars, on top of scars each time i look they multiply each time i look i wanna tear my skin piece by piece take it away because the more i learn to love myself the more it hurts to see.

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Take me apart piece by piece strip search me you will only find bruises and broken bones from all those who've come before you discarding my clothes like unwanted distractions i gave up long before you on trying to fight back slowly convinced my bodies not mine to fight for this skin isn't mine to hide your hands on my hipbones tongue in mine kissing away every "no" I whisper thrusting, moaning, but don't you know you're ******* a corpse

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Mar 26, 2015

Mar 26, 2015 at 11:56 PM UTC

What is so hot about no?

Take me apart piece by piece strip search me you will only find bruises and broken bones from all those who've come before you discarding my clothes like unwanted distractions i gave up long before you on trying to fight back slowly convinced my bodies not mine to fight for this skin isn't mine to hide your hands on my hipbones tongue in mine kissing away every "no" I whisper thrusting, moaning, but don't you know you're ******* a corpse

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Everything around me is crumbling the solidarity i once felt as a child, has long since faded surrounded by loved ones yet i have never felt more alone the things i once thought would never change are vanishing where did happiness go? did i ever really feel it? or was it all a lie were trapped in repetition to cloud our desperation is there any hope for love? because everyone is drifting apart im left here with all these broken pieces I cant sleep and i dont think you understand, these wrists have no room left for scars no blood left to bleed, my heart has no strength left to grieve, it only gets worse from here.

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Feb 24, 2015

Feb 24, 2015 at 7:02 PM UTC

Growing up

Everything around me is crumbling the solidarity i once felt as a child, has long since faded surrounded by loved ones yet i have never felt more alone the things i once thought would never change are vanishing where did happiness go? did i ever really feel it? or was it all a lie were trapped in repetition to cloud our desperation is there any hope for love? because everyone is drifting apart im left here with all these broken pieces I cant sleep and i dont think you understand, these wrists have no room left for scars no blood left to bleed, my heart has no strength left to grieve, it only gets worse from here.

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My body begs me for sleep Its been days, maybe weeks I dont remember I'm always shaking, but I can't cry cigarettes dont taste like smoke anymore, just ash I just keep bleeding I can't feel anything anymore all I can do is bleed It stopped hurting so long ago picking my insides apart, tearing up my veins I keep reaching searching for something, or maybe someone I keep falling, tripping in the past, where did you go? I'm all alone my arms just keep bleeding.

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Feb 21, 2015

Feb 21, 2015 at 6:56 AM UTC

insomnia

My body begs me for sleep Its been days, maybe weeks I dont remember I'm always shaking, but I can't cry cigarettes dont taste like smoke anymore, just ash I just keep bleeding I can't feel anything anymore all I can do is bleed It stopped hurting so long ago picking my insides apart, tearing up my veins I keep reaching searching for something, or maybe someone I keep falling, tripping in the past, where did you go? I'm all alone my arms just keep bleeding.

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Im high as a kite lost in all these stars everything floating and drifting my fingers covered in smoke rolling off my tongue swirling in my lungs im so far from reality yet, the want for you to be here holding me floods my skin.

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Jan 25, 2015

Jan 25, 2015 at 4:15 PM UTC

******

Im high as a kite lost in all these stars everything floating and drifting my fingers covered in smoke rolling off my tongue swirling in my lungs im so far from reality yet, the want for you to be here holding me floods my skin.

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