I should really just disappear,
I am worthless,
I am bland,
I have nothing to give nothing to hand,
I am a fool,
A ****
A tool,
I am no queen, I have no rule
I live for no reason,
No happiness or lot,
Without purpose
Without wisdom
Without thought
Jan 22, 2021
Jan 22, 2021 at 6:46 PM UTC
Without goodbyes,
Or alibis,
I sit and stay in silence,
But in my sleep,
Threw sunken eyes,
I lay and dream of violence
Sep 15, 2019
Sep 15, 2019 at 2:38 PM UTC
I lost my legs yesterday,
They no longer carry me or walk,
I lost my mouth yesterday,
I can’t seem to smile or talk,
They jumped on a plane and flew away,
In to the midday sun,
My head and chest,
Lay still in rest,
Without emotions,
Without a thought,
I watched with hollow eyes,
As the yellow lemon sun swallowed my memories sweet,
And sit in silence now,
On my hallowed feet
Sep 15, 2019
Sep 15, 2019 at 2:34 PM UTC
Three words,
Three little words,
They come in different formats,
And can be used in endless situations,
I’ve said them,
And I don’t think you quite understand what I ment,
Those three little words,
Are how I express so much more then language,
When I whisper those sweet words,
I’m not just exercising my mouth,
You know how I’d do that,
And I’m not just expressing my love for you either,
When I say those three little words,
I’m saying that I want to stay with you forever,
I’m telling you i will do my best to make you smile,
I’m promising you, that I’ll be yours until you don’t want me,
I’m offering you my life,
Not just my love,
Those three little words mean that I want to talk to you everyday,
I want to wake up surrounded by the life we build together,
I want to feel your warmth at night,
I want to cry over our fights, not because of our words but because we aren’t together,
I want to be able to call you home,
And Those three little words are the only way I can say that to you without pressure, without commitment, without guilt,
Because I know you plan on leaving,
Going back to your hometown,
And you aren’t going to invite me,
So instead of saying I want to be with you forever, without pressuring you to take me along for the ride, and without the guilt of knowing you didn’t want me there, I say those hopeless three little words, and I mean it every time.
Jul 29, 2019
Jul 29, 2019 at 9:06 PM UTC
I reached out and grabbed a star today,
I pulled it from the early morning sky,
I took it as it lay,
Without guidance,
I climbed highest mountain I could see,
Looked into the eyes of time,
And it gave you to me,
Today was not suppose to happen,
I should be long gone,
Asleep,
But I reached out,
And I became the best that I could be.
Jun 15, 2019
Jun 15, 2019 at 12:03 AM UTC
“I wish I had more of it “
People say,
Time is a precious thing,
You can’t hold it in your hand,
Feel it grow or shrink,
But it shapes it’s way around you,
Touching everything,
You only have it when you have nothing for it,
And you long for more of it if ever you have a reason,
Your time with love,
Your time with life,
You spend your time and walk on by,
Eventually your time will end,
And you will only have been,
But until then you’ll lay in bed,
And wish silently in you’re head,
“ I wish I had more of it ”
Jun 11, 2019
Jun 11, 2019 at 7:47 PM UTC
Warm, blurry, dancing,
The dust mites swing through the air,
My fingers curling his hair in small circles,
I close my eyes and drift into the abyss,
The gentle hum of radio
Playing a smooth sweet melody,
I stretch out like a cat sun bathing
This basking warm feeling in my chest
Spreads and flows through my veins
Driving, down, slowly
Caressing the elegant Keys through the window,
Soft, and warm like the grass we lay in as we gaze up at the dark curious sky.
The purple haze of the mountain painting brilliant streams of sunlight on the cotton clouds,
You’re strong comforting arms Surround me like the ocean,
Silky and silent I watch as the luminous stars dim and glow in the velvet blue sky,
I want to stay with you,
I want build and grow and climb with you,
But that’s for time to decide,
I close my eyes and slip into the sun
Warm, blurry, dancing
May 15, 2019
May 15, 2019 at 3:29 PM UTC
I feel empty,
I feel grey,
No color,
No feeling,
No life today,
I know I can be happy,
I vaguely remember a smile,
I can try to copy,
But I wouldn’t last a mile,
Like a broken down car,
Like an abandon circus clown,
I won’t go far,
But I can go down,
I’ll wrap my arms,
Around my legs,
Get choked my liquid charms,
Crawl on my knees and beg,
I don’t care if I disappear,
I am colorless I am dull
My life is a pale shade of nothing
And I don’t care at all
May 15, 2019
May 15, 2019 at 3:00 PM UTC
He is young, beautiful and simple,
I know what he likes, I can feel it,
Watching him on top of me,
His warm, hot beauty rocking back and forth,
My heaving breast covered by his rough hand,
My legs wrapped around his body,
His tongue, warm and strong, in my mouth,
I can feel him inside me,
A low drum driving me insane with desire,
The fire inside me burns and licks at his skin as our *** builds and climbs,
Every time he crosses my mind,
I lose all self control, if I see him in the hall,
I have to beg myself not to fall,
To my knees and plead for him to let me do as I desire,
To push him hard against the wall,
And let my fingers caress his beauty,
Hard, strong, thick and warm,
I’ll trace him, taste him, tease him,
Until his desire is begging me to let go,
I tease him until his mad tantalizing lust turns against me,
Now I am on the floor,
He pins me down and grinds me till I burn,
I yearn for more, I beg and plead
Please,please,please
The cliff I stand on shakes and my legs brake beneath me,
I fall down, soft and slow
Until the icy, cool water submerges my heat,
I want to say I love him,
The words play on my lips,
I pull him close,
I want to stay like this forever
Apr 24, 2019
Apr 24, 2019 at 12:52 PM UTC