LorynMurphy - Hello Poetry

The day goes by fast, in a blur. The tears prickle in the corners of your eyes, and you wonder how you got here. How some thing could change in an instant. You're drowning. Soon enough, the world goes black and you're stuck in an inflinate loneliness. Though you're alone, you're calm and it's peaceful. Your mind quiets and you listen to the sound of your heartbeat, wishing there was someone else to listen with.

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Jan 4, 2019

Jan 4, 2019 at 11:04 AM UTC

Heartbeat.

The day goes by fast, in a blur. The tears prickle in the corners of your eyes, and you wonder how you got here. How some thing could change in an instant. You're drowning. Soon enough, the world goes black and you're stuck in an inflinate loneliness. Though you're alone, you're calm and it's peaceful. Your mind quiets and you listen to the sound of your heartbeat, wishing there was someone else to listen with.

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I'm sorry I did these things to you. I'm sorry I left you with so many scars. I'm sorry you have so much pain. I'm sorry life is how it is. I'm sorry I couldn't give you everything you ever wanted. All I ever wanted was to make you happy and I failed. You wish for death You wish to be free. I wish for your love. I wish you knew how much I loved you, love you. I hope that you will be happy with someone with yourself. I hope that you never forget me. I hope life begins to treat you fairly. I hope you learn from me. I forgive you and I love you.

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Jan 3, 2019

Jan 3, 2019 at 9:48 PM UTC

My Love.

I'm sorry I did these things to you. I'm sorry I left you with so many scars. I'm sorry you have so much pain. I'm sorry life is how it is. I'm sorry I couldn't give you everything you ever wanted. All I ever wanted was to make you happy and I failed. You wish for death You wish to be free. I wish for your love. I wish you knew how much I loved you, love you. I hope that you will be happy with someone with yourself. I hope that you never forget me. I hope life begins to treat you fairly. I hope you learn from me. I forgive you and I love you.

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I wish I wasn't such a coward. I wish that I could end my life without guilt. If I wasn't such a coward I would have done it by now. I wish I wasn't so scared. Of death. If I wasn't so scared I could have died by now. I wish I wasn't so unhappy. Maybe then my family would want me. Maybe then my girlfriend would want me. Maybe then I would want me.

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Jan 3, 2019

Jan 3, 2019 at 9:01 PM UTC

Desires.

I wish I wasn't such a coward. I wish that I could end my life without guilt. If I wasn't such a coward I would have done it by now. I wish I wasn't so scared. Of death. If I wasn't so scared I could have died by now. I wish I wasn't so unhappy. Maybe then my family would want me. Maybe then my girlfriend would want me. Maybe then I would want me.

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I give you every single part of me Every. Single. Part. And god it hurts, so badly to be away from you and know you could be searching for more. I want to be all you need. And still, you're talking to her and her and her. Why can't I be enough for you? Sometimes I want to rip out my heart and throw it away. It hurts so badly and I feel so drained. I know she's, prettier skinnier funnier smarter better in every way. But why can't it be me? I just want you to love me. I love you so much. Please, Love me.

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Jan 3, 2019

Jan 3, 2019 at 4:50 PM UTC

Heartbreak.

I give you every single part of me Every. Single. Part. And god it hurts, so badly to be away from you and know you could be searching for more. I want to be all you need. And still, you're talking to her and her and her. Why can't I be enough for you? Sometimes I want to rip out my heart and throw it away. It hurts so badly and I feel so drained. I know she's, prettier skinnier funnier smarter better in every way. But why can't it be me? I just want you to love me. I love you so much. Please, Love me.

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I met this boy, girl? boy. Gray? D'Arcy. He wears these ugly *** shoes and god it's hilarious. He's like my best friend and he makes me laugh so hard. But he's leaving soon and then I'll never see him again. It's sad, I know. But It'll be okay I guess, I don't know.

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Jan 3, 2019

Jan 3, 2019 at 3:06 PM UTC

The Gray Area.

I met this boy, girl? boy. Gray? D'Arcy. He wears these ugly *** shoes and god it's hilarious. He's like my best friend and he makes me laugh so hard. But he's leaving soon and then I'll never see him again. It's sad, I know. But It'll be okay I guess, I don't know.

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i dont know why we cant remember what our past lives were like i also wonder what the point of life actually is like what the actual point of a life is it seems like all life is for is to make money and do other things but i really dont understand what the whole point is i dont understand why money is a thing i dont get why there is war and conflict and why people are always fighting all the time i dont get it

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Jan 2, 2019

Jan 2, 2019 at 9:44 PM UTC

random thoughts entry #4

i dont know why we cant remember what our past lives were like i also wonder what the point of life actually is like what the actual point of a life is it seems like all life is for is to make money and do other things but i really dont understand what the whole point is i dont understand why money is a thing i dont get why there is war and conflict and why people are always fighting all the time i dont get it

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i think about a lot of things i wonder what i was like in my past lives what was i passionate about? who was i? but i think about a lot of things i wonder what i am like in my current life what am i passionate about? who am i?

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Jan 2, 2019

Jan 2, 2019 at 2:59 PM UTC

random thoughts entry #3

i think about a lot of things i wonder what i was like in my past lives what was i passionate about? who was i? but i think about a lot of things i wonder what i am like in my current life what am i passionate about? who am i?

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i miss my baby, my princess, my everything i wish she was with my right now the love i feel for her is so great and i hate not being with her where she is right now, i don't know i want her to come back to me i miss her come home to me baby

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Jan 1, 2019

Jan 1, 2019 at 5:55 PM UTC

random thoughts entry #2

i miss my baby, my princess, my everything i wish she was with my right now the love i feel for her is so great and i hate not being with her where she is right now, i don't know i want her to come back to me i miss her come home to me baby

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I trace these scars with a pink pen Wishing that the pen was a blade Knowing that all this pain could go away I trace these scars with a pink pen Feeling a little bit better but Still unsatisfied I trace these scars with a pink pen There's so many but still not enough Never enough Longer. Deeper. Quicker. Stay with me.

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Jan 1, 2019

Jan 1, 2019 at 3:25 PM UTC

Scars.

I trace these scars with a pink pen Wishing that the pen was a blade Knowing that all this pain could go away I trace these scars with a pink pen Feeling a little bit better but Still unsatisfied I trace these scars with a pink pen There's so many but still not enough Never enough Longer. Deeper. Quicker. Stay with me.

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there are times when i feel like im walking on thin air where i feel like i know im moving but i dont know how my feet feel cemented to the ground but somehow im still going forward even when im meant to be going backward i wonder how i came to this conclusion how the conclusion is that i need to end my life i know thats what i want because i want to be free of all of these demons theres so much wrong and im seeing blurry everything has gone to black and white all or nothing live or die?

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Jan 1, 2019

Jan 1, 2019 at 3:20 PM UTC

random thoughts entry #1

there are times when i feel like im walking on thin air where i feel like i know im moving but i dont know how my feet feel cemented to the ground but somehow im still going forward even when im meant to be going backward i wonder how i came to this conclusion how the conclusion is that i need to end my life i know thats what i want because i want to be free of all of these demons theres so much wrong and im seeing blurry everything has gone to black and white all or nothing live or die?

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