The day goes by fast,
in a blur.
The tears prickle in the corners of your eyes,
and you wonder
how you got here.
How some thing could change
in an instant.
You're drowning.
Soon enough,
the world goes black and you're stuck
in an inflinate loneliness.
Though you're alone,
you're calm
and it's peaceful.
Your mind quiets and you listen
to the sound of your heartbeat,
wishing there was someone else
to listen with.
Jan 4, 2019
Jan 4, 2019 at 11:04 AM UTC
I'm sorry I did these things to you.
I'm sorry I left you with so many scars.
I'm sorry you have so much pain.
I'm sorry life is how it is.
I'm sorry I couldn't give you everything you ever wanted.
All I ever wanted was to make you happy
and I failed.
You wish for death
You wish to be free.
I wish for your love.
I wish you knew how much I loved you,
love you.
I hope that you will be happy
with someone
with yourself.
I hope that you never forget me.
I hope life begins to treat you fairly.
I hope you learn from me.
I forgive you and I love you.
Jan 3, 2019
Jan 3, 2019 at 9:48 PM UTC
You're the reason I go to sleep happy
You still want to die
If a wish could come true
I'd waste it on you changing your mind
Jan 3, 2019
Jan 3, 2019 at 9:08 PM UTC
I wish I wasn't such a coward.
I wish that I could end my life without guilt.
If I wasn't such a coward I would have done it by now.
I wish I wasn't so scared.
Of death.
If I wasn't so scared I could have died by now.
I wish I wasn't so unhappy.
Maybe then my family would want me.
Maybe then my girlfriend would want me.
Maybe then I would want me.
Jan 3, 2019
Jan 3, 2019 at 9:01 PM UTC
I give you every single part of me
Every. Single. Part.
And god it hurts, so badly
to be away from you
and know you could be searching for more.
I want to be all you need.
And still,
you're talking to her
and her
and her.
Why can't I be enough for you?
Sometimes I want to rip out my heart and throw it away.
It hurts so badly and I feel so drained.
I know she's,
prettier
skinnier
funnier
smarter
better
in every way.
But why can't it be me?
I just want you to love me.
I love you so much.
Please,
Love me.
Jan 3, 2019
Jan 3, 2019 at 4:50 PM UTC
I met this boy, girl? boy.
Gray? D'Arcy.
He wears these ugly *** shoes
and god it's hilarious.
He's like my best friend and
he makes me laugh so hard.
But he's leaving soon
and then I'll never see him again.
It's sad, I know.
But It'll be okay I guess,
I don't know.
Jan 3, 2019
Jan 3, 2019 at 3:06 PM UTC
i dont know why we cant remember what our past lives were like
i also wonder what the point of life actually is
like what the actual point of a life is
it seems like all life is for is to make money and do other things
but i really dont understand what the whole point is
i dont understand why money is a thing
i dont get why there is war and conflict
and why people are always fighting all the time
i dont get it
Jan 2, 2019
Jan 2, 2019 at 9:44 PM UTC
i think about a lot of things
i wonder what i was like in my past lives
what was i passionate about?
who was i?
but
i think about a lot of things
i wonder what i am like in my current life
what am i passionate about?
who am i?
Jan 2, 2019
Jan 2, 2019 at 2:59 PM UTC