"I love you"
No that's no right
It can't be
No not in your eyes
Love it too much of a strong word
There is warmth in your eyes...
No not warmth, desire
You have a beautiful lopsided smile...
No not smile, a smirk
I feel butterflies when we touch...
No not butterflies, moths
There is no warmth in this relationship
Just lust
This isn't what I asked for
To become your toy
This isn't what I wanted
To sleep in an empty bed
"I adore you"
No that's not true
You never pay attention to Me
Just my body
What it can give you
My personality and emotions
Don't exist
"I idolize you"
Mm try again
Every time we go out
Your eyes aren't trained on me
Or the newest watch in the window
But on the other girl
The one a few feet away from you
Returning that look
No it's not
"I love you"
Nor is it
"I adore you"
Not even close to
"I idolize you"
No...none of that
"I lust for you"
Yeah, this is it
This is all that this relationship is built on
Lust.
Feb 11, 2018
Feb 11, 2018 at 12:24 AM UTC
There is a storm coming.
Never have I ever heard these words falling like rain.
The way they've fallen past the lips I've kissed too many times.
There's a storm coming.
Never have I ever heard these insults, striking like hail.
The way that those eyes turned cold when I look at them.
There's a storm coming.
Never have I ever heard such curses, striking like thunder.
The way that those hands that I once held curled into to fists, like burning ash.
There's a storm coming.
Wanting shhh...
Silence....
Just be...
Quiet
Shhhh....
Silence
Sep 4, 2017
Sep 4, 2017 at 10:35 PM UTC
I got issues
More than you think I do
More than 2+2
More than my love for you
I got issues
Both mentally and emotionally
Both in my brainless ocean and my heartless portrait
I got issues
Forever tatted on my heart, on my skin, in my brain
I got issues
The ones you cannot solve
I got issues
That will never go away
I got issues
The ones that makes life hard
I got issues
That will never make me stay
I got issues
The ones that always evolve
I got issues
That will never go astray
I got issuses
Jul 2, 2017
Jul 2, 2017 at 6:44 PM UTC
I ran
From the anger
From the fear
From their laughs
From my tears
I ran
From the shadows
From the monsters
From their whispers
From their taunting
But they chase
Getting closer
Their breath creating blisters on my skin
Their hatred, taunting towards the edge
Wanting me to jump, to leap
So I run
And I never stop
Because they'll never stop
So herein am running from my monsters
Just running
Apr 1, 2017
Apr 1, 2017 at 6:46 PM UTC
Mommy left Daddy
"It's okay" I told myself "they're just mad.'"
Mommy didn't return for a couple of weeks.
"It's okay" I told myself "mommy is still mad"
A couple of weeks later, mommy came back
only to take my sisters and I away
I was only 4.
It's been two years.
"It's okay" I told myself "mommy and daddy are taking a break"
....Yeah, a long break.
Mommy started drinking from the bottle.
Mommy has been mean to me lately.
I was only six.
We moved for two more years.
I learned a new word today DIVORCE.
I haven't seen Daddy in a while.
Every night, I wish upon a star, hopping mommy and Daddy would forgive each other.
That never happened.
I was only 8.
Is it wrong that I still want my parents to get back together.
At an age like this?
They say that they are friends now.
But those times, that they have, when they're laughing and joking around...
I wish things were like that again.
Is it wrong that i still cry every time,
they argue, yell, and fight?
That I still try to keep the few
good memories of us together alive?
Is it wrong that I
still wish for them to
get back together? At
an age like this?
answer, no
It's okay to cry, to wish, to plead to an unknown force.
For things that you know will never happen...
But hey...
I'm only 15 after all
Dec 15, 2016
Dec 15, 2016 at 10:04 PM UTC
The darkest place I've ever seen was inside of me
and nothing ever scared me more
so don't come close
It's dark inside
Because its where my demons hide
Nov 16, 2016
Nov 16, 2016 at 6:30 PM UTC
I need someone who needs me
because my problem is that
I always need someone but they
end up leaving because
no one ever needs someone like...
me
Nov 11, 2016
Nov 11, 2016 at 5:52 PM UTC
I'm SICK of making things worse
I'm SICK of being hurt
I'm SICK of crying myself to sleep
I'm SICK of hating everything
I'm SICK of fake smiling
I'm SICK of feeling this way
I'm SICK of letting people down
I'm SICK of being me...
Nov 10, 2016
Nov 10, 2016 at 5:40 PM UTC
Did you think of how your
actions effected others, before you
brought the blade down the 1st
time?
No
I bet you didn't think, of how much
pain I felt when I found
you on your bathroom floor
You
probably thought that, dying
was the easiest way out.But I
Obviously
was always there for you, and
it hurts me more and more knowing
that i was the closest to you and I
Didn't
notice a **** thing
Nov 9, 2016
Nov 9, 2016 at 6:57 PM UTC
Don't think that promises
are meant to solve problems.
Because they create more problems.
Trust is something you can't have
with promises. Just hate, just
anger, just pain.
People promises false hope. These
false hopes create false dreams.
That Makes us all a villain doesn't it?
Promises creates empty dreams
false hopes,pure hate,
cold pain, and a broken life.
Nov 9, 2016
Nov 9, 2016 at 6:32 PM UTC