They tell me
"You have no heart"
But I love people
I just always end up hurt.
I can appreciate people
but they haven't given me a reason to.
I have a heart,
it's just broken into pieces.
Aug 31, 2017
Aug 31, 2017 at 9:42 PM UTC
Screams pierced the air.
Hate filled the atmosphere.
But I saw a new world.
I jumped in.
In a world where darkness was the only light.
The people ruled with their heads,
as they had no hearts.
A perfect society,
where "love" was never a factor,
and no one had any regrets.
But in this world,
everyone was lonely,
but their brains couldn't process that word,
and they couldn't understand what was missing in their lives.
It was problems,
and problems only came when you ruled with your heart.
So I realized immediately,
that this was not a world
that I wished to be apart of,
because I am content
with my confusing, troubling life.
Aug 27, 2017
Aug 27, 2017 at 10:53 AM UTC
My heart is numb
I can't feel it anymore.
It's for the best.
All those things I did -
they hurt me.
I hurt me.
But now I'm numb
I can't feel it anymore.
I used to indulge in pain.
It assured me that I was living
It's not there any more
Am I dead?
I'm not living.
But I'm alive.
The definition of dead.
Aug 23, 2017
Aug 23, 2017 at 1:00 AM UTC
I just realized
that I've been running away from myself.
I am the monster.
I am my demons.
They all made a home inside of me.
The longer I'm still here,
they are here with me.
I am my worst nightmare.
I am my best dream.
I am the things I hate.
I hold the things I hate.
I only hate
me
Aug 23, 2017
Aug 23, 2017 at 12:48 AM UTC
My thoughts are uncollected.
They race through my mind,
like cars on the express way.
Words pop up in my head.
Usually in this order:
Not
Good
Enough
I can't tell if it's true.
I guess I'll see.
When I receive the message from you.
Aug 23, 2017
Aug 23, 2017 at 12:44 AM UTC
I'm tired
I'm tired of this mask
because it itches my face.
Why can't I be free
or be who I want to be.
I'm tired of that lie
that finds its way out my lips
everyday.
'I'm fine"
I'm tired of these people
who act like they care
but don't.
I'm tired of being here,
but I'm here.
Or am I?
Aug 21, 2017
Aug 21, 2017 at 8:03 AM UTC
" sure"
that little word
with so much meaning.
my mother hates when i use it
as if she'd like anything i did
- she doesn't
she disapproves of me
i'm
a disappointment
a abomination
a teenage monster.
i wish she didn't
because it hurts me
that the one person that's
supposed
to care
doesn't.
does it amaze you
how all these negative feelings
come from one word?
sure
Aug 20, 2017
Aug 20, 2017 at 7:59 PM UTC
Its scary to think one person can hold all of you in their hands ;
all your happiness
all your ambition
all your love
everything
but maybe thats what love is right?
trusting someone enough to hand them everything and hope they dont let it slip between their fingers.
Aug 20, 2017
Aug 20, 2017 at 1:34 PM UTC
Don't forget to smile,
like you're happy -
a tiny white lie -
or they'll ask what's wrong.
But they wont mean it,
they just want you to say
"I'm fine" -
which is another lie.
I'll go the rest of my life this way.
I won't get help
because I'm fine.
I don't need it.
Except I do need it and no one sees.
I lie,
but I only hurt myself,
because the lies I tell,
push everyone away,
so that when there is a gun to my head,
or pills in my hand,
no one can influence me,
to say no.
Aug 20, 2017
Aug 20, 2017 at 1:01 PM UTC
Show a little kindness
Shine a little light
When you're used to the darkness
Anyone can seem like Mr. Right
Aug 20, 2017
Aug 20, 2017 at 12:43 PM UTC