Thoughts in flight
chasing you down
in the clammy air
of the night.
Black winged,
in memorial dress,
to mourn old times,
while I swallow
every memory
of you.
When I drift off
in the night,
to your buzz,
I won't dread
your bite no more.
And as I rouse
in the morning
with an itch
I won't even scratch.
I'm weaponizing my mind,
beaks and sharp vision,
to devour memories
before they bite.
Feb 19, 2021
Feb 19, 2021 at 4:46 AM UTC
I wept so violently
My right eye oozed
down
and migrated to my cheek.
I frowned so much
my face shat-ter-ed in pieces.
A remembrance of the light,
the girl that was before,
in yellows and whites.
Parts of me are smoke,
my fire smothered out,
the ashes of a girl,
all greys and blacks.
I sat utterly distorted,
poetry on my lap.
Feb 16, 2021
Feb 16, 2021 at 9:05 AM UTC
My eyes are broken.
the soul windows won't open,
I want the morning sun in,
but they won't open an inch.
A bird is confined to my room,
thinking about its impending doom
in vain its beating its blue wings ,
while of unspoken sadness it sings.
I need the windows to be closed,
my rooms is to the rain exposed
but they won't stay shut tight,
the bird in my room has died,
it starved to death on my floor,
there is no pain inside anymore,
but still there a blue bird sings
and a symphony of sobs begins.
Feb 12, 2021
Feb 12, 2021 at 2:34 AM UTC
Trust is a feeble thing.
If a tiny little bird,
falls from a sheltered nest
and drops into your skirt,
eyes still closed in rest,
take it like a savor.
Cover it in human scent,
no longer mother natures,
for you it was sent.
If you let it pass away,
it's a mothers heart break,
it's the body of betray,
burry it in the worst ache.
Lay her precious flowers,
decaying white roses,
innocence's dying hours.
Feb 11, 2021
Feb 11, 2021 at 7:41 AM UTC
Standing on tippy toes,
you keep me in pursuit.
Make my head spin,
pirouettes for you.
Every twirl I look at you,
fixed point, but still dizzy.
I'm the eye of your storm,
eyes going to the centre.
I haven't eaten in days,
stick thin ballerina.
Ribs visible through skin,
heart closer to the service.
Sweep me of my feet,
I can't walk anymore.
Feet all blistered,
bleeding on the floor.
We are like swans
with interlocking eyes,
necks forming a heart.
We are new found lovers,
white feathered innocents,
so new to the dance.
Feb 9, 2021
Feb 9, 2021 at 12:39 PM UTC
I will admit it,
I'm the best liar.
A smile for you,
don't worry for me,
even crack a joke,
old me would do.
I won't ever flinch,
statue of grace.
I'm not in pain,
I'm just stretching,
we all get tired,
I jawn and explain.
I will do the task,
soldier throught it.
I can do it myself
even when I can't,
so you think me better,
that's all I want.
Feb 7, 2021
Feb 7, 2021 at 10:58 AM UTC
I bought flowers today,
tulips in a vase,
petals are dropping,
while I'm looking,
yellowed photographs,
memories of a flower
Tulips are growing,
standing in a field,
smiling in yellow,
early spring bloom
cut umbical cords,
leaving mother nature
tied together family,
a bouquet of love
Tulips are dancing,
dangling in small hands,
A little girl is running,
to surprise her mother
A daughters flowers,
a gift for mothers
Some mothers like tulips,
feet in the earth,
icy stones with labels,
daughter, wife and mother
Lay them down,
pretty little things,
decorate the ugly,
with little girl prayers
Feb 7, 2021
Feb 7, 2021 at 3:08 AM UTC
She would hold my hand
and look at me.
Pearls in her eyes,
like mine.
I don't have her eyes,
hers are blue,
mine are green,
but I could see myself in hers,
a faint mirror image
like looking into a lake.
Pearls on her cheeks,
whiter than mine.
I have young cheeks,
still burning red,
reacting like a traffic light,
to everything new and exciting.
She said that changes,
when you're older.
We sat there,
mine hand in hers.
I don't have hands like that,
hers are long like pianists,
wrinkled and full of character,
interesting hands.
Mine are young and smooth,
like a dolls hands.
So small they disappeared,
when we held hands.
And so freezing cold,
I would take her hands,
just to steal a little warmth.
Feb 7, 2021
Feb 7, 2021 at 3:07 AM UTC
I get angry when sad,
cries like throwing darts.
I never really aimed,
hit only by mistake.
But with you,
you made me try
with you was knifes,
your body the apple.
I wanted to cleave,
your chest in two
halfs of an apple,
split like me.
See your clockhouse,
never cared for time,
promises are old seeds,
never coming up.
Now you're wrinkled.
Fallen from the tree,
kicked around by life,
but still the same.
Apples go bad,
faster when in two.
Turn back the years,
to safe us a little time.
Feb 7, 2021
Feb 7, 2021 at 3:02 AM UTC